To Grow. Write.

Navigating Propaganda

2010-09-18T11:08:00.001-07:00

Apparently we can not believe everything we read. Allow me to itterate.
A conversation with a gentlemen:
"You Christians just believe whatever is in that book!"
Response, "All you secularists believe whatever you watch!"
...
Bewildered, "How so?"
Abrupt, "Well, for instance, where has your outlash on Christianity stemmed from? It wasn't born over night. Where has your opinion become 'your' opinion? Is it not because you generate manipulated decisions based on what you receive from sources of mass media? why are Muslims 'bad' why are christians 'sissies'? Did Family Guy tell you so?"

Our general public has no reply on being the general guinea pigs of a formulated society. They are test-tube babies that formulate opinion based on the going trends. Like moth's to a burning flame, I can remember when my own views were ascue because some PhD told me. Our neglegance to weigh the opinions of others quickly becomes a dangerous concoction of rolling with the punches and going with the flow, never to really swim against tied knowing that eventually it will drop off into some abyss or we will get pulled under with the toe. Has anyone truly ever stopped to question why?

I remember starting my walk with God and it was a barrage of blinding questions as self denial and devilish schemes began to pester my inner psyche. What really got me to love this truth was the concept that it wasn't thesocietal thing to do. My mind had already reeled for years before always trying to march to the sound of my own drum but I consitantly found myself witha longing to fit in the more I sook to sit out. "I am a non-conformist! I will sit with the other non-conformists!"
What an outrageous statement.

Perhaps my point can be truly summed up in an article I read recently in a magazine on my parents coffee table. The title read "Gaze Is Not Starving" and read something like this:

"A new mall, gourmet restaurants, and markets overflowing with fresh produce. No, this isn;t the United States. It's Gaza, which Israel has been accused of starving to death. Reported well-known journalist Tom Gross:
Last year this website [tomgrossmedia.com] revealed to a Western audience pictures of the bustling, crowded food markets of Gaza that the Western media refused to show you. Earlier this year I reported the new Olympic-size swimming pool of Gaza (no shortage of building materials or water here) and the luxury restaurants...When the BBC TV world news headlines again led with a report about how "devastated the economy in Gaza is," an impressive new shopping mall opened in Gaza.
Janine Zacharia wrote in The Washington Post June 3, "Grocery stores are stocked wall-to-wall with everything from fresh Israeli yogurts and hummus to Cocoa Puffs...Pharmacies look as well-supplied as a typical Rite Aid in the United States."

What is it with society these days. An outcry in Modern Christendom has us bashing the state of Israel calling it the "cause to warfare in the Middle-East" with such un-biblical doctrines as replacement theology (the belief that Christians are now Israel and are entitled to the physical blessings of the promises made to Abraham and the Patriarchs of the Old Testament) to the common acceptance of religious tolerance and mosques at Ground Zero, what in the blu-blazes is goin' on around here!? Where are the Christian principles of yester-year. Are we blinded by radical revolutionists crying, "Relevancy! Relevancy!" Through the means of political regimes...Have we forgotten that the nation which forgets God will be turned into hell? And what is America (certainly Ol' Canada the American lap dog will follow the Master with the tastiest treats) coming too? How about that "peaceful humanitarian aid" that was en-route to Gaza before those Big-Bad Israeli's came on board and started shooting those poor "gun-less" foreign aid workers...Do we really know what took place aboard those ships? No, why, because the BBC dropped the story when they found out the ships were stocked with madd crates of weapons. It was ruled a "deliberate staged confrontation by armed militants to break Israeli maritime blockades" (Commisission of Investigation, Supreme Court of Justice Israel, fronted by UN Secretary). God has warned "Thus says the LORD, who gives the sun for a light by day, the ordinances of the moon and the stars for a light by night, who disturbs the sea, and its waves roar (The LORD of hosts is His name): 'If those ordinances depart from before Me, says the LORD, then the seed of israel shall also caese from being a nation before Me forever" Jer. 31:35-36. If the sun, moon and stars cease to exist then, and only then, would God forget about titles and descriptions. I may remind you here that if these elemtns go poof so do us Gentiles...Obama argues that there should be more "light" (meaning distance) between Israel and America following the flotilla raid in regards to the Amero-Israeli relationship. He promptly followed up by becoming signicantly less available to Israeli leaders than previous leaders of the States. allt he while, going to great lengths to mend greater Arab and Muslim negotiations...a politcial strategy that will beackfire the Word guarantees. Recently the MacLeans Journal (Canada's relevant comparison to "TIME Magazine" of the States) wrote an article confronting the stages of degredation already hitting the United States making comparison to its quick demise in becoming a "Third-World nation."
Another troubling stat, was the witness of all to notice Obama openly objecting to Israel opening a new string of Apartments in Jerusalem, in it's own state!, being constructed for the Jewish population on Jewish-owned land in the ultra-Orthodox neighborhood of Ramat Shlomo.
recently, led by support of Obama, the UN unctioned for sanctions against Israel singling them out in the East, specifically mentioning them not Iran or any other Middle-East nation, to specifically allowing constant inspections of Israel's Nuclear Core, while being quoted as saying of Iran's Nuclear Proliferation "Something to be prepared for." The condemenation of Israel as the world's most rogue state by the UN while 189 national leaders were in attendance.
"The word which the LORD commanded, for a thousand generations, the covenant which He made with Abraham, and His oath to Isaac, and confirmed it to Jacob for a statute, to Israel as an everlasting covenant saying, 'To you I will give the land of Canaan as the allotment of your inheritance.' Ps. 105:7-11.

Our blessing as a nation stems from the support of our Israeli friends in the plan of God. The barrage of attack and the Scriputral commandments to "Pray for the peace of Israel" are ringing out clearer than ever. Remember, your savior was a Semit. "They have said, 'Come, and let us cut them off from being a nation, that the name of Israel may be remembered no more" Psalms 83:4.

2010-09-09T22:48:00.000-07:00

This is title-less because simplicity is a lost art.
Such a statement is a paradox coming from an individual such as myself yet it rings true as to what I am feeling right now. A distant cry for the simple is all that rings in my base understanding of this beginning to complexity.
Life has been some-what of a whirlwind of activity lately and the basis for which is a life map to a distant future that has become a surreal present all too quickly.
Can one imagine the growth that is required in three and a half short years?
That is why I have chosen Base. Grow. Write. Simplicity is a sure map that helps one to grow right...so I write.
Welcome to a new level in life.

A Power In, Through, and By Prayer

2010-04-20T20:31:00.003-07:00

• Prayer is the key that unlocks the door of God’s treasury
• Prayer puts a sword in our hands when we encounter evil
• Prayer can open the door of Heaven
• It is a friend in search of a Friend. It’s shameless persistence
• It must become a relationship with God that is more intimate and binding than any human relationship on earth. As your relationship deepens, He will take on that more intimate role of your LOVER.
• Prayer is simply talking to God
• Giving thanks.. before and after you pray! “In everything Give thanks” It takes Divine faith to thank Him in advance. We tend to first mention our failures and mistakes, but save that for later. Great prayers in the Bible reveals that many of them begin with a song of praise and thankfulness. Be definite and specific.
• Praise. Praise is an instrument of violence, not intending to compliment God. Praise is the ointment that dis-annuls the growth of suffering, confusion, and turmoil. Praise destroys the atmosphere in which sickness, defeat, and doubt flourish. Praise breathes life in to the vacuum which death produced. The resulting tornado of “praise power” will demolish the obstacles erected by sin, self, and Satan.

Mixing

2010-04-07T09:01:00.000-07:00

There is a mix. A handful. Some, oil and water. Others, like Jesus Christ. Perfection is in the mix. "That they may be one, as We are One." Oh Glory.

Depths

2010-01-26T07:50:00.000-07:00

Then they cried to the LORD in their trouble,
and he delivered them from their distress.
He sent out his word and healed them,
and delivered them from their destruction.

These elements of the saving Word of God are prevalent throughout the Bible. They are the souls underpinning in regards to speaking faith for certain situations. Faith is a fascinating constituent to the idea of saving components. Faith is not “blab-n-grab” or “name-n-claim.” These mis-conceptualized connotations are directly contradictory to the teachings of what faith truly is. Faith is this: simply believing in what God has spoken. That’s it. It is not conjuring up some sort of imaginative, cognitive satisfaction that would appease our lusts through our own ingenuity (James 4:3). You can ask, but you may not receive, why? You wish to consume it upon your lusts. Faith can only be believed because it is a gift from God (Romans 12:6). When God speaks something t you personally (Abraham, get thee up) then can you believe. If that promise has not been passed or spoken on to you, then believe all you want, it is a disproportioned faith, a hindrance to your faith.
Why does God take the time to even speak anything to us?
Or, as individuals?
Why does He even care to express in us?
What does He desire us to get?
What is sanctification by faith?
What is washing by the Word?

Some went down to the sea in ships,
doing business on the great waters;

The deep, oh, the deep things of God! Them who went down to the sea to do business in great waters!

They saw the deeds of the LORD,
his wondrous works in the deep.

They saw the blessing of them who have endured such seas! The formation of such men that went through to the great places in God; yet, such men were spoken to in order too traverse such waters.

For he commanded and raised the stormy wind,
which lifted up the waves of the sea.

With all, as it were, and would not be any different with these, God brought forth the riotous tempest. The waves roared and marked their position: blow by blow, bow by bow. The craftiness in the fingers of the Most High drew every crashing wave upon its definitive mark. Destruction of the only element of which they felt they had complete security, the ships quick demise becomes consumed by the frigid waters.

They mounted up to heaven; they went down to the depths;
their courage melted away in their evil plight;
they reeled and staggered like drunken men
and were at their wits’ end.

Oh, that they had known! That the business to which was to be carried out is none other than the necessary work that would relinquish their idiosyncrasies. Their reasons for docking off, their ships built from human hands are no match for the driven forces of Deity! They find out quickly that there is no safety in the deep amongst their splintering decks, that their deliberately careful decisions; their idea of destination; their own concept of reality is destitute and to no avail and the winds howl and the storms drive out all hope of survival amidst their own concepts of how to navigate.

Then they cried to the LORD in their trouble,
and he delivered them from their distress.

Their revelation is of hope, the original spoken word from the Almighty. “The salvation of the Lord remains!” Truly, as it was originally, their only hope.

He made the storm be still,
and the waves of the sea were hushed.

The very storm that was initiated by the hands of the Creator was quickly brought so that the silky glass top of the depths of what is formed could be revealed to the eyes of man.

Then they were glad that the waters were quiet,
and he brought them to their desired haven.

Then, by His means, realization of the cessation became relevant by His Manifestation they glorified Him by making relation. He brings them through to desired destination, not by their means, but by His Holy revelation.

Let them thank the LORD for his steadfast love,
for his wondrous works to the children of man!
Let them extol him in the congregation of the people,
and praise him in the assembly of the elders.
He turns rivers into a desert,
springs of water into thirsty ground,
a fruitful land into a salty waste,
because of the evil of its inhabitants.
He turns a desert into pools of water,
a parched land into springs of water.
And there he lets the hungry dwell,
and they establish a city to live in;
they sow fields and plant vineyards
and get a fruitful yield.
By his blessing they multiply greatly,
and he does not let their livestock diminish.
When they are diminished and brought low
through oppression, evil, and sorrow,
He pours contempt on princes
and makes them wander in trackless wastes;
but he raises up the needy out of affliction
and makes their families like flocks.
The upright see it and are glad,
and all wickedness shuts its mouth.

Whoever is wise, let him attend to these things;
let them consider the steadfast love of the LORD.

To whom the promise is given, let them extend their hands of faith. Let their hunger consume their passions and let them be filled to hearts content. He who trusts His ways to the Lord, then only can His thoughts be established, His steps ordered, and His purpose completed.
Many die in the unforgiving but always consuming waters of the deep formational abyss.
Whether it be to self or to God,
something must suffer at the hands of the twist.
Yet, when all else fails, and truly they come through,
let them come out more bountiful, plentiful and true.
Death of themselves and abundant gain in contentment by His love found through mercy,
Praise be to Him, the One and Holy Only!
So, sanctification by faith? Washing by the Word?
Such hearts cleansed by believing in the promise made by our Lord.
That, whoever is thirsty, let them come and drink, but remember:
when He speaks, something has got to sink.
You believe and cry aloud, “Oh God! Forgive!
I believe in the blood that washes me from my sin!
I believe in the water, the whitnesses of the earth,
let the blood and the water agree in this ball of dirt!”
And that, my friends, is sanctification by faith. Believing when He has spoken
and allowing the washing in the assurance of His grace.

Psalms 107 (ESV)

in the Know

2009-12-14T20:39:00.002-07:00

Do you truly want to know why Jesus hasn't come back yet?

Get in the know.

World Status

2009-12-02T10:56:00.001-07:00

Reprobate:
When you can fall upon the Rock and not be broken

A world framed by the Word of God. A church built upon the Rocks of revelation. A body so tightly fit together. All in light of the colloquial affirmation by the form from whence it came.

The very essence from which we were made. Stars that have no choice but to shine, growth patterns that have no choice but to form, seasons that have no choice but to change only held together by the very Word from which it was made to glorify.

Human beings, formed with choice. Humanity and its intellectual reasoning. Willful disobedience to the faith that they were conceived from. Willingly desiring human reasoning over true freedom.

Identity is a misconception dreamed by the laws in one man's mind. When reality is the truth of being complete by obediently fulfilling the deep desire from the breath from which we died from when individualistic conceptuality (identity) became our greatest enemy.

Stars have no choice but to shine, growth patterns and seasons...but man chooses.

The only way to fulfill reality is to gain communion, "somehow," from the original purpose to which we were formed. The carnial mind is not subject to the laws of God, neither indeed can be. Therefore I must walk in the Spirit that I do not fulfill the lusts of the flesh. My own reasoning blossoms degradation and scepticism. Do my prayers consume my lusts?

The perfect will, God breathed, receive ye the Holy Ghost. To which I no longer have a choice but to obediently shine, grow and change.

thoughts continuing, revelations breaking the bonds of limitation.

Undeniably Ascetical

2009-11-25T11:16:00.001-07:00

It has been an abrupt month.
It is improtant to solidify my stand for subjection. It consitutes direction by consecration.

I came across an e-mail the other day of an individual's personal poliferation of toxic spewed-so-called 'emancipation' for social well-being coupled by the deliverating of science to the bambino's of the next generation.

What becomes of one's inhibitions as they spew out about the thought of creation as though their pride is stricken to become a wanderers idea of true freedom. They can not understand the truth behind anything because to understand fully is to understand reality. Reality is nothing outside of the creation because the Word that made it is the one thing that holds together all being. Without this thought, creative-Word, or consciousness to being we find such individuals stirring in the pits of fits of rage inside their own concepts of what-could-bes in the lull of "what-should-be because I say it, you see." Redundant as their argument becomes for "liberation of free thinkin'!" I laugh and mourn as this world's misconstrued views of libation, their offerings rely more on their own false hope in insitutions and post-secondary education than the Truth from whom stems the ability for true direction.

"If your church was truthfully full of love it would look less on itself and more on the world. It would put away its religiosity and embrace the thoughts of truth. True science would be taught to your children and you would look less on pumping money into a system that divides more than it does encourage."
Yes, that is the answer isn't it? Revolutions for peace. Idiot.
Truly, the concept is objectifiable as it is ludicrously put together. I can not comprehend the idiocy behind such statements as "If Jesus even existed than I am sure He would be sick with the present state of the "church"."
News flash Einstein, Jesus is alive and well and still in charge of His church. "The gates of hell shall not prevail..." Such propaghanda, such rhetoric such, such, conformed idealistic worldly thinking is not made subject unto the law of God. But why be surprised, "for neither indeed can it be." "Scoffers will come in the last days saying 'Where is your God.'" Is it any surprise that as we confide in Christ and confine our own flesh that the resistance of a defeated enemy would continue to try and find its placement within our minds?
Unless the enemy puts up willfilly his power and authority and subjects himself we will by no means overcome him (Bishop Wilson). Thank God for the blood, thank God that He has overcome the world, thank God that He has made an open spectacle of the devil and his forces triumphing over them upon His resurrection. Thank God my children will not be abase to a devils hand that misconstrues fun as abuse to ones body-holes, cigarettes and drugs. Thank God my child does not have to be subject to a base dead society that subjects itself to wickedness in high places and instead can be an overcomer by the blood of the Lamb. Thank God that love can triumph in the face of adversity, because true love never fails. Thank God that my son will not have to face the idealistic free-thinking judgments of a backwards society that does what is right in their own eyes because they feel that laws are restricitive to their own personal expressions. Thank God that my child will live in true freedom by being a friend to Jesus and no longer a slave to sin. Thank God my promise is in the One who NEVER fails, who can NEVER lie, and is ALWAYS faithful in fulfilling what He said He would do. Thank God that His mercy endures forever. Thank God that His promises will endure to a thousand generations to those live in righteousness. Thank God that my God will not depart from my children who are brought up in the ways and principles of fulfilling their purpose in Christ and seeing that great and dreadful day of our Lord. Thank God. Period.

My heart goes out to those who have been stained by popular mechanical Christianity and have not felt the sweet embrace of a Savior's hand. Which in and of itself is man-made ideology and personal thinking that regulates and relegates their own idea for what is necessary in applying Biblical foundations...oh, the spirit of that penknife! Let God reign and not religion! My passion is to increase your opportunity to obtain the impossible through Christ who has overcome all bondages and vesitiges. Let me say that it is His love through me that reaches the devoid of understanding, but my persistance that reaches to those who will listen. Human hands and human reasoning never worked for a Philosophical Philistinical old world and neither will it work in my day. Wars continue, people banter, and the church presses forward. Jesus come quickly, and as we see that day approaching I cry out Abba, Father. Save them who will be saved, send me to those that will hear...and let God arise and His enemies be scattered.

Love and listen, reality is the cause of the effect of love. Anything else is unformidable and undeniably ascetical to becoming all things through Christ which gives us strength!

From That to This

2009-10-13T10:05:00.003-07:00

What Does It Mean?

Causality is the underpinning of the developed society. Hands down, it fills the void of formation from existence to existing. For instance, the Algonquin Indians and the North-western civilizations before the (cause) Patriots obliterated their subsistence effecting their ideologies and creating a new form of development through personal influence. Much closer to home, how about the Philistine tribes? The Medes, the Assyrians, all because of a cause, effectually obliterated from civilization. It creates and causes relation between two identifiable aspects. It brings into perspective people's ideologies intertwined with culture to conceptualize all retrospection.

What does that mean?

cause and effect: the relationship that an occurence, person, moment (cause) has (effect) on a specific time period or individual(s) within humanity.

Purposefully this blog, Ha, (seconding the words of Bishop Wilson "What an ugly word"), will be the underlining of the cause (Jesus Christ) has had on me, (the effect(ed)).

I just had a run-in with a 63 year-old man. I write this from a Starbucks doing theRoost's study notes for tonights discussion when this man came waltzing in. He suffered a stroke and walked with a cane. He had a buckskin cowboy hat. I don't think he even bought a coffee, he just came over and sat down...the back of my laptop has a sticker that says "Jesus is the Way, the Truth, and the Life." He took notice and, if it had not been for the ceiling, would've jumped to the moon I am sure. What an individual, the same age as my own father, this man gave me a new hope. In light of this blog, and its entirely new vision, the cause was this brightened individual despite what he had gone through. The only words he could speak were yes and no and pump his fist into the air as I brought up Jesus. My God, what amount Holy Ghost I feel. Of all the places, of all the people...why ...the man didn't even have a coffee yet will impress upon me a lasting effect...despite the circumstances their is always common ground between believers. Our doctrine as Jesus Name disciples is essential, but it becomes the breaking point to many...as Truth draws them in the last days, there is still hunger despite their physical limitations. Oh Jesus, I feel your mercy strong around me...

Did I entertain an angel? This life is just a test...not life, but this life...PRRAAAISE the LORD

its a new look for a new focus

2009-10-08T22:35:00.000-07:00

the focus has changed
irrelevancy no longer files its fill in these walls.
Banging brass with grass roots will be a return to writing, the lost artform that a barbaric society is quickly losing its grips upon.

Its time for the literate to be relevant.

understanding and the lack there of

2009-08-14T08:57:00.005-07:00

As fire is shut up in my bones is the creation of the deep within my soul. A defining moment of sorts is what what forms the individual to consummation of the eclipse of one's perceptions of Godly [what]matters. I begin to cower as I recompense on previous victory and trevail for the future in a desperate progression of the soul.

My passion is those people, and I am bound yet driven by a blood stained earth. A greater witness then that of Abel is perceived and illustrated by the second man Adam through a greater cloud of witness then passing through a Red Sea. They worshipped and pleed for our day and found the greatness afar off, never having inherited their promise to which now I tearfully accept.

It brings about a transformation as I thrust full throttle into a black abyss and loneliness finds me at my own Jacob. As surely as it is, an encounter becomes name changing as the soul-food is nothing but the very Bread that was bitterly bitten on that day. Water is poured out because almost all things are purged with blood and I find myself absorved in my frivolity of the effect to a hanging curtain that is torn in two as He was shredded for my joy, a joy He had, as it were.

Where is the passion. Where is the personal. Where is the one who understands their experience?

speak LORD

2009-07-10T06:50:00.000-07:00

Be sure of the clause to which you pray....remember, true leadership is only as definite as the sacrifice you're willing to pay.

News Flash for Common Sensively Challenged Folk: "Survivors Survive"

2009-06-15T07:12:00.002-07:00

One of the most basic concepts in the theory of evolution is “survival of the fittest.” Simply put, it is the concept that nature selects the fittest and most adaptable of a species to produce offspring and therefore survive.
Sounding logical, this theory is taught throughout schools worldwide. By reading this series, you are beginning to see that we must always PROVE what is assumed to be true.
Notice: “Once upon a time, it all looked so simple. Nature rewarded the fit with the carrot of survival and punished the unfit with the stick of extinction. The trouble only started when it came to defining fitness...Thus natural selection looks after the survival and reproduction of the fittest, and the fittest are those which have the highest rate of reproduction...We are caught in a circular argument which completely begs the question of what makes evolution evolve” (Arthur Koestler, Janus: A Summing Up).
In other words, the fittest are those who survive, and those who survive are deemed the fittest. This is circular logic! Evolutionists have assumed that just because something survived, it is the fittest of the species. You may now begin to understand why properly understanding logical fallacies becomes so important. Evolution is rampant with them!
The theory of “survival of the fittest” is what is called a “tautology,” a way of saying something redundant. For instance, “survivors survive”; “water is wet”; “matter is material”; and so on. Such a statement does not prove anything, because it is nothing more than a truism.
Yet, even with such information, evolutionists willingly ignore the facts: “Most evolutionary biologists seem unconcerned about the charge and make only a token effort to explain the tautology away. The remainder... simply concede the fact. For them, natural selection is a tautology which states a heretofore unrecognized relation: The fittest—defined as those who will leave the most offspring—will leave the most offspring.”
“What is most unsettling is that some evolutionary biologists have no qualms about proposing tautologies as explanations. One would immediately reject any lexicographer who tried to define a word by the same word, or a thinker who merely restated his proposition, or any other instance of gross redundancy; yet no one seems scandalized that men of science should be satisfied with a major principle which is no more than a tautology” (G.A. Peseley, The Epistemological Status of Natural Selection).
But some scientists may argue, “We have seen natural selection. It happens around the world on a daily basis. This theory is provable!” But is it? These scientists point to natural selection removing the unfit. But this does not create new attributes in a species or, for that matter, create a new species! For evolution to be valid, better, more advanced creatures would have to survive, lending to the creation of new species.
A famous Dutch botanist best explained the problem by stating, “Natural selection may explain the survival of the fittest, but it cannot explain the arrival of the fittest” (Hugo deVries, Species and Varieties: Their Origin by Mutation).
Since all systems in nature are well balanced, there must be a mechanism that keeps those systems balanced. Therefore, natural selection is very effective for removing the unfit from a species. This can be witnessed by the instinctive actions of a lion attacking the weakest of a zebra herd. The zebra herd remains healthy, because the weak are removed.
Interestingly, the idea of natural selection did not form in the mind of Charles Darwin. In fact, natural selection was documented 20 years earlier, by creationist zoologist/chemist Edward Blyth. Darwin changed the concept from the “natural process of selection” to the “natural means of selection.” He changed it from a readily understood and accepted theory to a circular logic truism!
Like all such truisms, the concept of natural selection attempts to explain everything, but, in reality, it explains nothing. Falsely assumed by so many, this aspect of evolution is nothing more than a redundant statement.

TBC...

Cause and Effect—A Scientific Law

2009-06-11T07:34:00.000-07:00

There is a great law that governs the entire universe. It is so fundamental that you often apply it without even knowing. Everyone uses it and is impacted by it, whether in business or in everyday life. It is the law of CAUSE and EFFECT.
If you drop a ball, it falls to the ground. The effect is the ball falling and hitting the ground; the cause is gravity. If you get wet after jumping into a pool, the effect is getting wet—the cause is jumping into the pool. As you can see, “cause and effect” is simply common sense.
This understanding is so universal that it has been granted the status of a scientific law. For something to be established as a scientific law, it must come under rigorous scientific scrutiny. This further shows the fundamental nature of cause and effect. Part of this law’s definition states that you may never have an effect that is greater than its cause.
This aspect of cause and effect agrees with another law of science—thermodynamics. Thermodynamics is the study of the dynamics of thermals (heat). It is made up of three basic laws, on which ALL disciplines of science are based. The Second Law of Thermodynamics is directly related to cause and effect. It is best summarized by saying that everything moves toward disorder—or a condition known as entropy. Consider these examples:
If water being heated on a stove is at 150 degrees Fahrenheit, and the burner is turned off, the temperature will drop instead of rise. It will move toward colder rather than hotter. If you spin a top, it will, over time, stop spinning. The energy used to perform any particular task changes from usable to unusable during the process. It will always go from a higher energy level to a lower energy level—where less and less energy is available for use.
This is closely related to the law of cause and effect. Scientific laws cannot be broken, nor will they contradict each other. Scientifically speaking, because of the Second Law of Thermodynamics, every cause will create a lesser effect! How does a more advanced life form—the effect—stem from a simpler life form—the cause? So begins the quandary of evolution.
The first assumption is the gradual transition to referring to the theory as a tested and proven scientific fact—in essence, assuming evolution to be fact. The certainty with which such statements are made would leave most feeling sure that these scientists must have the evidence to support their claims. One statement from Theodosius Dobzhansky’s book The Biological Basis of Human Freedom illustrates the point well: “Evolution as a historical fact was proved beyond reasonable doubt not later than in the closing decades of the nineteenth century.”
Such certainty among some evolutionary scientists has led most schools in North America to teach evolution as a “historical fact.”
But not all evolutionists agree with this conclusion: “What was the ultimate origin of man?...Unfortunately, any answers which can at present be given to these questions are based on indirect evidence and thus are LARGELY CONJECTURAL” (W. LeGros Clark, 1955, emphasis ours throughout).
Some evolutionists today make similar statements. Pierre-Paul Grassé, a world renowned zoologist and former president of the Academie des Sciences, stated, “Their success among certain biologists, philosophers, and sociologists notwithstanding, the explanatory doctrines of biological evolution do not stand up to an objective, in-depth criticism. They prove to be either in conflict with reality or else incapable of solving the major problems involved” (The Evolution of Living Organisms, 1977).
While these quotes speak loudly, in this first assumption, there is no drive in trying to disprove evolution, but to show that it is not a tried and tested fact. A scientific fact is defined as “an observation that has been confirmed repeatedly and is accepted as true.” From the quotes above, we can see that observations and tests show inconsistencies, and that evolutionists themselves have not accepted evolution as true.
How could such divergent opinions exist, yet some consider evolution to be fact? The answer is clear. Evolution has not been sufficiently proven in the scientific community to be considered fact!
Further, by true scientific standards, is evolution even a theory? A scientific theory is defined as a “theory that explains scientific observations; scientific theories must be falsifiable.”
What this means is that in order for a scientific theory to be valid, there must exist a test that can prove it either right or wrong. Without putting the theory to a test, one can never prove it—either true or false!
For example, one could observe an orange sunset, and then theorize that the sun is always orange. There exists a means to either prove or disprove this theory, therefore making it a valid theory. Of course, if a theory is proven wrong, it should no longer be considered a valid theory. In this case, if one continues to watch the sky, they will see changes in its color.
If the same standards are applied to the theory of evolution, we must fulfill these two conditions. Evolution must be able to be observed and also be able to be put to the test. Because there have not been any observed examples of macro-evolution on record, the first condition is not met. Those who support this theory state that most major evolutionary changes happened millions of years ago. Past events are not testable and, therefore, evolution is also not falsifiable.
Recall the logical fallacies discussed above. When something is dated very old to prove a point, we are dealing with what is called chronological snobbery. Make no mistake, evolutionists know that they are not dealing with either a scientific fact or theory, and must resort to logical fallacies to validate their claims.
This is best described by Dr. Michael Denton, a proclaimed evolutionist: “His [Darwin’s] general theory that all life on earth had originated and evolved by a gradual successive accumulation of fortuitous mutations, is still, as it was in Darwin’s time, a highly speculative hypothesis entirely without direct FACTUAL support and very far from that self-evident axiom some of its more aggressive advocates would have us believe.”
As we have seen, evolution is definitely not a fact. It is not even a scientific theory. As Dr. Denton has stated, it is nothing more than a “highly speculative hypothesis.” Can you imagine something so contested, even by those who profess to believe it, taught in schools as fact? It leaves one to wonder, if it is not a fact or a theory, how exactly is it scientific?
TBC…

can I get an mmmm...AMEN?!

2009-06-08T08:56:00.005-07:00

To all my peeps:

Especially John and Tanya

The ceremony is over. The chairs have been returned. The families have receded to their bungalows or caves. The linens are washed and folded. The cake is in the freezer and the gifts are placed in their new home...and all I have to say is...

OOOHH GLOOORRRYYY HALLELUJAH!! Thank You Jesus! God is so goood...wwahoooooooooooooo!!!

John and Tan best of luck to you both, and I don't want to scare you with the entertainable faltteries that planning a wedding is going to be awe's and amazement, cause face it, it ain't!
I am taking no short cuts around this one, you need to pray, a lot. Prayer = free things + easability of planning. period.

When it's all said and done it is worth it but man, this is great. No more stresses of what color is that with the thing over there and the "Jason, do this over there...put your head back on you chicken, and run over here!'s" So to my great friends of which are to be married, God bless you, and stay prayed up.

You are entering into something so awesomely sacred, that just being a week in I would not trade for the world. Marriage life is fantastic and a six-hour day is not worth losing your heads over. So keep them firmly planted upon your shoulders and remember the plan that God has for both of your lives. The greater destiny, the greater purpose to the beginning of your family...Oh, and read your books!

To all else, wow. Although ceremonies and traditions are seemingly the repertoir by which one must make such operations (i.e. achem, like the after ceremonial proposals) and go into the most wonderful bondage (next to that of being bondmen/women to Christ, and yes that is a Biblical term so read your Bible), lies this of which I call marriage. I am never cold anymore when I go to sleep, my clothes are magically prepared and folded when I wake-up in the morning and, somehow, there is the most amazingly, breath-taking little lovely that is lying next to me every time I wake-up, its unimaginable!

So besides all the stresses of ritual, legalization of said "husbandry" to which I now have an 8 x 11 sheet of paper with a few scribbles indicating I am said person legally engaged in a life-long courtship to said beauty, finding the right tux so I didn't look like the shaggy sham from which I came, and continuing to put a toothy grin on my beloved's blessed mug, my friends, thank God it's over! As important as all was...to her (lol, all I needed was a backyard bbq, my pastor and a couple witnesses and bing-bang-boom bag lunch at the door thanks for coming)...I am more thankful for the cavemen-esque form to which the marriage truly is: I am man, you are woman, to tent we go...yet, in the light of proper political correction and gentlemen's code I say, "I am married the Bible way, how God sees it to be true." And that my fellow saint's is the most blessed gift of all.

I can assuredly say, without a shadow of doubt, I am in the perfect will of God. Marrying Jessica was, has, will be the bet decision I have ever made. Not only because she is undoubtedly the most beautiful girl in the world, but she is strong, ethical, rational, faithful and a praying woman who will be an excellent mother, friend, and lover. She is to good to me, and so I exasperate this point to all those who are still single, be sure because there is a will of God of what we should marry and whom will fill that space...not whom look's right (think about it). Nowhere in the Bible do I, to my knowledge (and if someone reads something to say different please let me know) read that there is a single individual that is right for you that God has predestined to be your husband or wife. I see great danger and misguided choices from Biblical accounts when somebody chose to behold and marry. Jacob sook his own and wanted, worked fourteen years (oh love) and attained to become the will of God. As well, David saw and beheld and much toil and grief he brought opon himself. Although they both got what they wanted in an eventual ploy of human indignity, the sacrifice that was made to attain such prizes was and could have been so avoided if only our drive could be: we see, like, and then ask Him. Who knows if Jacob had inquired of the Lord for Rachel and her beauty, what story could have unfolded. Who knows of the perhaps deliverance the men of Israel could have had if David had sought God's face instead of "inquiring" of Bathsheba first. I understand the depths to which this goes, and time fails me to talk of what became of the men's love for these women, and the bloodline to which was made of their decisions but I do believe that God does have a specific person whom He will show is right for you, who matches you who is your mind heart and soul in opposite form, as such will meet His idea of His will for you...instead of forcing a will to become. Not this "there's one for everyone" but a "someone for everyone." She/He will hold up in prayer, be faithful, trustworthy, respectful and desperate for the things of God first...and then, all these things for you.

That is the testimony that Jess and I share. A "Seek ye first" mentality upon which our reltionship was built. A persistant faith filled walk with Christ upon whom our foundational presedence can be built upon. Someone who never changes, never waivers, is always the same, and then "all these things [were, are, going to be] added unto thee."

So as a friend I offer my advice, (chew and spit if you wish) "Stay faithful John and Tanya, your eyes upon the purpose. Let Godly love continue, and always always always seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness.

In closing, a heart-filled thank you to all who helped with set-up, clean-up and the nuptials all together. To my Pastor and First-Lady King, deepest thanks for your trust and a beautiful prayer and sacrifice. And of course, to Jesus Christ, in Whom is all the fulness of dream and attainability. Hallelujah, love you all, God bless you richly, cause I know He alreay has to me.

Speak Again

2009-05-14T08:23:00.004-07:00

Cont...

It is all to real in our day and age to do what feels right to do. Brothers and sisters, we are to be ye fishers of men and followers of righteousness. I respect such men as Verbal Bean, David Fuller, Doug White, Nathaniel Wilson, Jeff Arnold and Jonny King's (yes, the best for last) that all exist to pursue the true gifts of happiness, the J.O.Y. of the Lord. The J.O.Y. is Jesus, Others, Yourself (ref. Rev. Jonny King). In these destitute plains of technological materialistic grasps at the newest fad of intellectual diets, such men are hailed for holding a light to the swelling black hearts of societal indifference and moral collapsing. These hearts that are being used to climax such crescendos unprecedented to humankind. Stand strong, pastor, stand strong. People we need to pray. There is an attack in the church that I have faced in my personal walk with Christ, although never prevalent nor new, the avenues of Satan are always one and the same. However, I have seen, in my short walk with the King, that it has become of increasingly grave importance that when a Preacher raises a standard against such liberal activities as, well lets just close to home and controversial (it wouldn't be a blog without it), as television, sleeve length, or the shaving of your beard, many cry legalist, legalist! Such teachings are not in the bible!

Why?
...
Hot off the cuff to respond to such question as the door opens unto our OWN personal ideologies. That IS the why. A misconstrued, misconceptualized, improportioned balance between flesh and Spirit has risen and this is, in my view, one of the greatest killers of mainstream Christendom in our day. Liberalistically teaching, leave church on sunday and fornicate on monday. In other words, don't preach what needs to be heard, but lets all feel we are right in our own eyes and love Jesus in our misguided, ilproportioned, adulterous lust-loving feel good church. It may come down to the individual to seek out his own salvation, but it is in the hands of a preacher to instruct, reprove, rebuke, bring-up a congregation as an overseer, as a Shepherd of souls. To allow a formiddable spirit to arise in ones self is to please the lusts of it, to "begin in the spirit and finish in the flesh" and reject such submissive teaching as illustrated by the writer of Hebrews, Paul's instructions to Timothy and those churches of which he taught and completely abolish the understanding as the schoolmaster of the Old Testament was meant to be. Verbal Bean put it this way in his book entitled Prayer, "Self-justification is the first step to a reprobate mind."

Don't believe me? Well then open your Bible. Hebrews 13:7, 17 conveys increadibly the understanding that we must obey, submit, remember the leaders and instrucotrs who have charge over us, those whom have the rule over us... for our souls. If this was to plainly illustrate such leaders as those in position of governmental heads and figures, the flag is raised when the writer proclaims "whom gave you the word of God." What is it about us that begins to squirm inside of our fleshly minds once a preacher stands up and testifies that it does require a standard to stand against such practices. Scripturally speaking the Joseph Layer Greek Lexicon puts it this way in the Amplified Version, "...and imitate their faith (their conviction that God exists...and their leaning of the entire human personality on God in absolute trust and confidence in His power, wisdom, and goodness)." Such expressions are biased by a common opinion today. For why should I follow anyone as they follow God? I am priest unto my own self, I have the Holy Ghost, I am able to justify my own means of understanding what God says is good for me. Oh, you little rebel, importantly enough as it is that in 1 John 2:27 he speaks of that the Holy Ghost would lead you into all truth, such is it when a Catholic receives sitting on a Vatican bench somewhere in Italy. But such is it the PURPOSE of recepetion is of more importance as the Holy Ghost was given to "lead us into ALL truth." If we are to ignore its leadership and not feed our "Spiritual minds" daily, and "die" just as often to the flesh, then we will be like the seed that fell on the ground that the thorns and crows devoured.

So, what is the role of the preacher? Have you ever asked yourself this question? Have you ever thought, considering your a priest unto yourself and you are to seek out your own salvation, why have need we of a preacher? The bible says it is for faith, that they cannot hear without one, well, hear what? Hear the Word? If such were true by this attitude of liberalism then what have need of we of hearing because, well, I have faith, and faith justifies me in the sight of God, therefore it is God's responsibility now to give me the Holy Ghost because I am seeking out. Then, and most likely He probably would, because you were seeking...now what do you do? You have receied it, the bible says I am a priest to enter in for myself, I suppose that I could smoke cigarrettes because, well, I have no conviction over it. I suppose that I could watch a little hockey, I have no conviction over it, I have the Holy Ghost but the Bible doesn't Say exactly that I shouldn't watch hockey...I suppose going to a game wouldn't hurt. As you proceed you fall into what I call a double supurlative of the grandist sort, a "progressive digression."
Where, oh where, do the little lines become drawn? Oh where, oh Where do they need need be? Who sets, who is sensitive, who is able to deliver by given such important, vital instruction to ones "own salvation"

I Thesselonians 5:12: "But we request of you, brethren, that you appreciate those who diligently labor among you, and have charge over you in the Lord and give you instruction."

Hebrews 13:17: "Obey your leaders and submit to them, for they keep watch over your souls as those who will give an account. Let them do this with joy and not with grief, for this would be unprofitable for you."

Such men are worthy of "double honor" (I Tim. 5:17). Which is interesting to note because Paul, a chosen man of God, was instructing a young man in the Gospel who has received the Holy Ghost...think about that for a second...about having charge for them that rule over him. Timothy, a chosen young preacher, is intructed by another preacher, in the ways of righteousness (the right standing before God). Wow, who'd a thunk it, eh?

Where mind you do such men get their authority? Where did they teach from in Paul's day? Well, the schoolmaster of course, it was all they had. I am reminded of such a Spirit that believed Paul and the rest of the apostles were adding to the Word by instructing some in the ways of which they chose. The view was that the Apostles were donoting the Old Testament and abolishing its teachings, when such argument could not be further fromt he truth. Simply put, the Old Testament was fulfilled, not abolished with which came such revelations as telling them to not worry of such things as festivals, new moons or the keeping of Sabbaths. Was this legalistic? Were they teaching everyone is right in his own eyes because now there is no law? Or the law has been fulfilled? Certainly not, for what they were teaching from said such things as "..every one did what was right in his own eyes" and we all know how that looked in that day...(if not, read it, the last three chapters of Judges it will amaze you and hopefully convict you in seeing wow, we need preachers). And, for all you stiff necked, such teachings were instructed to the church when Paul in Acts 20 sent to the church in Ephesus, unto specifically the elders of it to "Be on guard for yourselves and for all the flock, among which the Holy Spirit has made you overseers, to shepherd the church of God which He purchased with His own blood (vs. 28)."

Again, where is this teaching stemming from?
Isaiah 62:6:
"On your walls, O Jerusalem, I have appointed watchmen; All day and all night they will never keep silent. You who remind the LORD, take no rest for yourselves"
Ezekiel 3:17:
"Son of man, I have appointed you a watchman to the house of Israel; whenever you hear a word from My mouth, warn them from Me."

Such authority was given to men "chosen of God." Why? The personal teachability and submissive spirit through which they received the word; and this is the easiest point to make.

The Bible says in Corinthians that "there no temptation that has overcome you but what is common to man." These men have been tried through the fire, they have been chastened and tested of God, and taught by the Holy Ghost. God has always used a man to bring about His business, as to why, I do not know, that is His way of doing things, it is what it is. It does not neglect the fact that sicne the beginning, of the Church, there were congregations of people, instructed of the mouth of Christ. Peter was told to "feed His lambs." And expressed the needs of Salvation in Acts 2:38He continued as an overseer from what we can see in Acts 5 when Ananias and Saphira lied to the Holy Ghost and denied obvious instruction as to righteous teaching of the Apostles. God is a God of mercy, and with every fallen man He gives a space to repent, none is different in this account.

In I Peter 5:2 we read NASV "shepherd the flock of God among you, exercising oversight not under compulsion, but voluntarily, according to the will of God; and not for sordid gain, but with eagerness." The AMP "Tend (nurture, guard, guide, and fold) the flock of God that is [your responsibility], not by coercion or constraint, but willingly; not dishonorably motivated by the advantages and profits [belonging to the office], but eagerly and cheerfully."

As Paul instructed us to follow him as he followed Christ. That the said men of God were instructors to shepherd not doing for filthy gain or personal reasons but that they may give a wholesome account for our souls. Standards, are implications then unctioned to keep us guarded against such evil practices. Paul said he would not eat meat if it insulted his brother, also that we should put no stumbling block in our brothers step. James says do not lust after the things of the world, for they are of no profit and friendship with the world is enmity with God. What is it that drives a lust for inclusion of worldly things? Why do we want to be like them? It is given as plain isntruction that at all costs keep the world out of the church. As the man of God in my case chooses how that is to be, being the Shepherd of the church I go to, I will follow that standard.
"But speak thou the things which become sound doctrine: That the aged men be sober, grave, temperate, sound in faith, in charity, in patience. The aged women likewise, that they be in behaviour as becometh holiness, not false accusers, not given to much wine, teachers of good things; That they may teach the young women to be sober, to love their husbands, to love their children, To be discreet, chaste, keepers at home, good, obedient to their own husbands, that the word of God be not blasphemed.
Young men likewise exhort to be sober minded. In all things shewing thyself a pattern of good works: in doctrine shewing uncorruptness, gravity, sincerity, Sound speech, that cannot be condemned; that he that is of the contrary part may be ashamed, having no evil thing to say of you. Exhort servants to be obedient unto their own masters, and to please them well in all things; not answering again; Not purloining, but shewing all good fidelity; that they may adorn the doctrine of God our Saviour in all things.

For the grace of God that bringeth salvation hath appeared to all men,

Teaching us that, denying ungodliness and worldly lusts, we should live soberly, righteously, and godly, in this present world."

WHat we neglect to see is standards of such holiness are not "burdensome" but a crown of honor. Standards push back the "place of the devil" and insure us safety. Here, it is a whole lot of standards that Paul just instructed Titus to teach his flock. The term "present world" is all encompassing. It is a term that literally does not pass away, like such terms as "grace has appeared," and "unto all who are afar off." It means this literal present age of which we live in, now. It is up to a man of God over a certain congregation to determine a line of which we are not to cross. Given, it iws up to the individual to abide by those lines, it does not make it right to break them nor continue in breaking them. After such time, Paul instructs to "put away such a one from among you and turn them over to the devil that they might be saved in end."

The teaching of the Holy Ghost of 1 John 2:27 is to bear us witness into such things. That is why it says you no need for man to teach you, (ironically though this exact Scripture is given by a man inspired of the Holy Ghost in a form of teaching). Which, yes, IS exactly it, inspired of the Holy Ghost. In accordance witht he word of God being infallible and open to its own line upon line teachings, it is up to us to find ourselves encapsulated witht he choice of whom to follow. A man filled witht he Holy Ghost, in the light of drawing a line (i.e. Moses and Sinai) we must follow that standard in order to retain our salvation that we do not turn "to the left or to the right." Paul said to Philemon in verse 8 "Therefore, though I have abundant boldness in Christ to charge you to do what is fitting and required and your duty to do."

They are given as shepherds, not bondmen. They are given as watchmen not slave drivers. They do not seek their own, but to save "all them that hear thee." Standards, witht he changing of our world describe their ability to retain a congregation and charge them to follow a Godly direction. It is not adding to, or taking away, it is being specific to the unfortunate occurences that are happening in our world. I urge allt o be prayerful and watch out when you find yourself in a discussion about why the Apostolic church does what it does, why it does not drink why it does not touch, why it does not handle. I will say as Paul "be watchful in prayer."

Speak

2009-05-12T11:14:00.005-07:00

So God has been dealing with most as I imagine seeing as Truth Church of Calgary is on the verge of the greatest revival it has ever seen. In faith I light my candle to burn brightly in its specific corner of the darkness that has enveloped the human psyche entitled "bliss." This so called blissful state of mind is nothing more than a way to build the new Babel in its fiscal attempts to escape a Just God and his just punishments, and mistakingly put our faith in "a way" instead of "the way." I of course write in regards to a movement of New Age proportions and its deepening footprint on our backyard society. As mainstreamers continue to exercise their opinions and dampen the air with its mildew of deafening psychologies, analysist's predictions, and all-is-alright tones of mistrust and misguided humility, I am reminded of a certain time when mankind ruled their own hearts with whatever judgment was "right in their own eyes." The dieing fish of wisdom and understanding flounders on shore, beeched and brought in by the tides. It has been tossed to and fro by every whim of doctrine, never to hunger and thirst after truth. It lies in its own destruction and the realization that its demise is soon to come too, as the questions it once asked were devoid, empty and drowned in the argument of common sense and worldly wisdom. Its voice is quieted as the grips of deathly fingers enclose round about its neck. Its conscience laid to rest, the approaching close thanks to the unsearchable sea it once swam in instinctively, sinfully raised its own tones to follow its flow of water rather than the fear and respect of that which was deemed "impossible" to swim against the tide. Millions of fish pepper the sandy sides, all as incapable of their own salvation as the next. As useless as one is to help his incompassionate companion, they all fight to a hopeless end, struggle to save one's self as a means of perhaps justifying its actions if it might but get close enough to the well-spring of water. They find in their demise the exact same thing that brought them life, its the need for a Savior.

Where do my thoughts stem from? It is the need for the man of God. It is the need for a leader that does not seek his own. It is one who teaches that the only Savior was Him who is the I AM, the self-sufficient one, as being the Only One who CAN from the beginning. The light to which i burn in my corner is bright enough to impact a world that is closest to me, such as yours is at yours. Every day, Peter and John would enter into a temple, doing exactly what they did every day, going to pray. It was here, that in the "common day" practices we find one of the most miraculous healings noted by a disciple of Jesus Christ. The sensitivity is what heard, the still small voice is what spoke. As a man with an infirmity cried out in flesh for want but in spirit cried out in the faith of need. When do we become the people in need of a Savior and not just a people of want for a way out? What is want, whom is what is of need.

This thought hinges upon what an entire society is being built out of. Political regimes and ultra post-modern ideologies spew the stench of vomit as it lies its way to supremism. A ground work has been laid for what will be the greatest uprising of the devil's power to be ever known by human kind. If I fail to see what it is or what it becomes then I too will succumb to its lulling of sly agenda and eventually become a friend of worldly wisdoms. The lust of the flesh is a temptation to close to home as we seek for want and forget Whom we need.

If only I were only talking about a denominational world, if only I were talking about the non-believer. The global problem is that we want an experience with God but we forget the need of whom it is suppose to derive from. Peter and John did not leave Pentecost in the upper room, it was not meant for an upper room, it was meant for a people afar off, as many as the Lord would call. A man wanted silver and gold, but his soul needed the gift of God. It is note worthy to suggest that because of such a miracle, because of the power of the Spirit of Christ, this man was INSTANTLY healed. He lept and shouted, he praised God as he entered into the gates with thanksgiving, into the courts with praise. It opened doors, the man which was lame, saw the picture, such a miracle was not for him, as he began to express the power of which he received strength. The men with the theology simply wrapped up the package already purchsed of God, and proclaimed such victory in the name of Jesus Christ...

to be cont...

Exposee by a Quick Fillet

2009-04-03T22:50:00.002-07:00

Been awhile. All smiles. flew 8000 K. Flew away. Landed far. Got in a car. went to hotel. Found Jesus in Israel. Found a girl. WEDDING BELLS. Time was swell. So did the feet. 8 hour plane ride. Gethsemane. Prayer. Temples and journeys. All done. On the plane. Germany rat race. 45 in the hole. Back on homeland soil. Conference. Revival in U.S. of A. Great prayer. All should care. Here comes Revival. Everyone get ready, beyond the Bible!

THERE IS MY UPDATE STOP ASKING. LOL...love you all
God Bless

2009-02-01T00:28:00.002-07:00

1:08 A.M.

Finished finishing touches.

1:08 A.M.

Thinking of my sweet bed and the warmth of the Word before I lay my head to rest.

1:08 A.M.

No longer pondering, finishing, walking away now.

1:09 A.M.

My Soul says Yes Lord, Yes.

FIRST EDITION!

2009-01-15T20:59:00.002-07:00

You can check out WakeUp's first edition at :
C:\Documents and Settings\user\My Documents\Jason\WakeUp News\index.htm

Just copy and paste it EXACTLY as oyu see it..and it should work...its an html...a scripted site so you will be able to see...no www's or http anythings...just hit it.
It is still pending approval and a few minor tweaks...but is movin its movin and groooooving!

Praise to God, campuses here we come! In the name of Jessuuuuus!

A Start...

2009-01-05T21:26:00.009-07:00

THis is a start...God willing:
Please, vote on the catchiest banner for WakeUp's first publication (they are numbered consecutively ...1, 2, etc.):

WakeUp: The Rough

2009-01-01T13:36:00.001-07:00

ITS IN THE WORKS! WakeUp's first rough drat article (uncomplete):

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lowering the boom

2008-12-11T17:11:00.002-07:00

I feel like penning my soul through tips of dust.

I love the Lord Jesus with all that I am. No matter the stance I take He is confidence to stand. No matter the apple I eat, no matter that fruit I bear all is for nothing but not to despair.
I live in the Ghost that emphatically reaches
I toast in His roast as He shows me He cares.

What takes the cake
as redundant a phrase
is that God is still God
and my trust is in praise.

I have come so far in a matter of weeks.
i stand beside Jesus
Rocks are my feet.

I take on a new name.
in Him I can stand
because only in Jesus
will I find no holes in my hands.

The water cannot slip through
the cracks that aren't there
and I cannot slip through
when my cross i do bear.

How beautiful the sandles that are strapped to those feet
as i bend down to wash
and say
God's given His oil to me.

It takes nothing to say I can do it all.
It takes everything I am
to crumble at Master's call.

So amazing as I pen exactly what It Is.
How much I do not know but how much He sees this.

The fingers type faster than anything I know
but depsite what I am feeling
I know in Him it is all.
I can take all that I am and put it down in a rhyme
or I can take all that He is
and never find the time

to explain
to exclaim
to live Holy
to live true
to live in peace and rigtheousness
to give all
througha nd through
to try to try
to live
tis to try
tis nothing but everything
to find Spirit in the cry

as intercession is made
supplication for saints
dont fall back now
dnt give up in haste
dont be quick to shed
the innocent blood of your family
to be quick to sow discord
amongst all the brethren in Calgary

what is it, oh Lord, that finds us disunified
what is it, Oh Lord, that makes us the mis-guide
is it prayer
is it worship
is it the lack there of
is it deception
is it lies
is it the lack of love

question oh questions
that pelt the soul
as stray bullets find homes
in the midst of my skull

oh God i dont see
what misunderstanding misconstrued
why does the Christian
have to be so confused

as the devils pack up
as the wolves smell the blood
as a shark is on line
as the lioness finds the cub

taking the weak
is going through me
in Him I can stand
as strong as He wills me to be

It is not the devil I am worried about
it is not his devices
the devil is only as strong
as you allow him to speak for your mindset

the struggle is your mind
the struggle is in me
the dog that i am
the beast thats in need

the deception is my own
the thoughts are alone
the devil only questions
and rises to bare a tone

trust is the key
and brokenness is a steward
its the nly thign that will lead us
a broken heart mended with true Word

loving water begins to flow
as the mend of the mine
takes on a new meaning
as trivial as time

take one second t ponder
two seconds to drink
three seconds to long
until we are all on the brink

we realize tat as quick as fingers do type
that as long as your reading
your enjoying the hype

what is it about prayer that finds us renewed
what is about God that keeps us so glued
so in tune
so in tune
so in tune
as the music of my soul
sings all in mid bloom

time to grow
time ot sow
time to reap
time to keep

grow in Him
sow the grim
reap the harvest
keep the children previously impoverished

YIPEE!! intrinsically, yet, however...

2008-12-07T23:59:00.003-07:00

I am finished. Upon the completion of my AST course I am in a contrastly intrisic state of ecstatic euphoria and seemingly trodden acknowledgement of the esoteric.

It means I am happy yet poopy.

Ha Ha. Lehman.

What an amazing experience Apostolic School of Theology was. It was probably the single most life changing experience (next to the Holy Ghost) I have ever encountered. It has drawn me to the depths of God's word by a sudden stance of such sudden trance to be captured in the ever cleansing form of flowing water's of God's Holy Writ. Exasperated and tired I reach for a/the glass of water, and in my sense of accomplished feeling of a tautologic state of mind I acknowledge, I'm done, yet, I am not sure I am.

God's Word, and the depths of His mind. The "unsearchable ways so past finding out," (Rom. 11 for those lying confused) as I watch Paul in the mind's eye eccentrically leaping in (yes 'in') joy and stratifying the soul as Holy Ghost penmenship overtakes his subtle scribbles. Forever aforementioned in years of the same mind, prophets alike deemed the unworthiness to their own hands of the shortcoming of human literature.

I highly prescribe these courses to anyone desiring the deep things of God. I suggest starting with the basics, a doctrinal course, of course being, Theology 1 with Bishop Wilson, EdD, Phd, qrstuv... Worthy to note, have a dictinary ready. If you think my explanations are hard to follow you have never read an article on Soteriology by one the most gifted minds in Pentecost. One-hundred and sixty-nine pages of "what on earth?" and "...does that word exist?" 's.

However, conclusively undeniably unbelievable. What a course! What a course of events! What a course of eventful revelation!

My soul is aflame with the desire for more Holy Only. Looking to re-kindle the passionate boldness of understanding? I suggest AST to anyone looking for the page-jumping ecstatic experience. As I assure you, the reader, God's word has never been so tasty. Beattitude Bread, Desirable Doctrine, Passionately Prodigious!

And remember, read all Scriptural references...and STUDY FOR EXAMS!

2008-12-06T01:16:00.002-07:00

For all the promises of God in Him are Yea, and in Him Amen...

Yea Lord?
...go save...
...I give you power from on High...
...feed my lambs...
Amen.

It Is Time

2008-12-02T23:38:00.004-07:00

So this onlygoing to be a quicky:
In short, my last month has been so hectic my head is elft spinning and my tongue left spilling.

Here goes:

I have a girlfriend. Some have so gracefully pointed out that it is, as I quote, "about time." I rebuke you (gently and in kindness) and say, "go tell God."
But as for my new beautiful girlfriend, Jessica Hamlin, I am proud tos ay it has been an interesting two weeks thus far in our relationship.
I do not know if half of it is in coincidence or if, perhaps, the devil is as mad as it seems.
There has been five serious injuries in the past two weeks , most being broken bones, in specifically Jessie's family. THe first happend to poor Grandma Gerbrandt who, on the first day after me and Jessica dating, fell in the washroom breaking her nose, cheekbone, and brusing many other facets of her eldery body.
Then we had a Lisa and a ladder incident
Then we had a little sickness on a sweet teency Hanna-bear.
A Mathias and some burnt finger tips.
Just recently a Justin-go-bustin His left elbow, surgery included.

So, not to matter much, I put a piece of glass through my finger, which, by the awesome power of God, has healed within a week with no nerve damage. The Spiritual battles have been all to promising to signify the awesome breakthroughs and plans God has for Jessie and I. To which I am excited for! Blessed be the name of the Lord!

In short this has been my hectic of the ridiculous.
I am completing AST this week, hallelujah, because I am about to lose my mind. Christmas will be nice, I have a week and a half off and am looking forward to a road trip into the greater Okanagan area to see my gramps come this holiday season.
Not to mention, a 4 day excursion to the brink of the deep cold, ice fields of Edmonton for a warm Christmas time get together with folks and my doll face.

Anyway, I am tired, which is understandable I suppose.
GOD is always good.

period.

Love you all, I am going to bed.

I Will Remember

2008-11-12T16:46:00.006-07:00

Today I stood in a line.
I feel accomplished.

Etc.

No, for real, I stood in a line today. It was a line for a bagel and a donut at 6:30 in the morning. I quoted my specimen to the wonderful help behind the cash register. Quickly and diligently they passed me my order, almost it seemed, to whisk me purposefully staring past my left shoulder to the seemingly drooling coffee addicts behind. I proceeded to continue my morning commute when all of a sudden I felt really, hm, Canadian-Apostolic.

It was Tim Horton's you see, with ultimate Canadian music playing in the speakers, I felt accustomed and comfortable in my morning surroundings. I proceeded to pause. I saw a newspaper. It recapped the previous day and its happenings with across the front pasted a heading for remembrance day ceremonies that had just preceded the night before. Faces. Upon faces. Names. Names upon names.

Why I felt Canadian. Why I was proud to say I am a Canadian. Why I CAN say I am proud to be Canadian. These faces. Upon faces. Names. Names upon names.

This post is belated, but is a thank you. Last night I wrote an e-mail to my Grandfather thanking him for the sacrificial service he played in the Second World War. He was the leader of a brigade that ended up on the front lines in a front on German soil. He led a troop, a "platoon" as called in our armed forces, into battle. His enlightening memoirs are still in my posession, as a I paused to thank over and over again: Why I am proud to say.

It is interesting where God had me this morning. That at the inrush of this level-headedness, He read out my rights, as it were, inside my mind. I have a car, the right to drive it. I have a house, the right to be in it. I have amenities, a bagel and a dout, I can freely consume. I have a destination, a place to go. I have a mind, one that is uncontrolled (by government officials that is). It is amazing to see it from this circumspective view.

How amazing is our God. His hand has place in the placement of our leaders throughout nations worldwide. Although redundant this argument may seem, I feel at liberty to say that God Keep and Bless our officials, as we, as Canadians, are so blessed beyond recognition.

Men and women that sacrificed, ultimately with their lives, so that I, could go to work, wake up warm, eat a good meal, and realize my potential in a Kingdom that is not my own.

God placed us in this country for a reason. Obvious to some, oblivious to others, is our purpose for this placement. Because I am blessed, I can bless those who are not. Much like a fallen soldier, our comrades for the Kingdom of God are battling everyday hoping for an armistace of some sort in order that the Gospel may be heard peaceably throughout the world. To often we forget of the evangelists, the pastors, the teachers, apostles, prophets, missionaries, these leaders, these blessed soldiers dressed in the armor of God pursuing a cause for no recogntion but that we may, in part, be along with them during their unbelievable offering. They give to God, while we sip our coffee. They are tortured for Jesus, while we nibble our nuggets. They persue for His glory, in a barrage of bullets, fear gripping at every turn, while we are seemingly intimidated to spread a prayer over the "scraps" we just scarfed in a public place.

Not only this remembrance day will I remember my Grandfather, or the fallen soldiers, those young men fighting for a cause in other parts of the world. Although, I sincerely and with all my heart love and appreciate what you have done for me and my coherts, that in peace I may worship a God so carng and loving as to see me blessed...I want to bless in return. But I will remember those men and women who suffer for the sake o the Gospel, and consider it a joy when clans, tribesmen, pigmees or urbanites of far off countries receive th precious truth and the infilling of God's Holy Spirit. What a wonderful thought, yet a conflicting wake-up call to us fat cat's that live on in our "bucks" of a rich a bountiful society, while they, for His cause, live on half "sense." Amazing scarifices, humble worship, unbelievable atonement, I pray always for you my dear brothers and sisters and will aid you with whatever I can.

That because a man some 2000 years ago bleed an died for the cause of atonement, they fight for His so that others may hear of the "blessed hope." Ironically, it is to save them from an inherrant hell of eternity besides the one they may be in on earth. They fight through squadron's, radicals, racists, fascists, political blackmail, religious quarrel, persecution beyond belief,unforeseen torture, all because of this "man" whom died some 2000 years ago. You see, this Jesus, was not just a man, He was the Original Soldier. He, the Bible says, for the joy of the cross endured it so that we may receive and inherit the blessing, an eternal life. This perfect toll, unbenounced, unmistakeabley unbelievable to the human psyche is the cause for the effect. It is that for which "our" present day missions work is done. To proceed as the body, past the will into a realm of "I-have-to's" for His sake. That the Gospel may reach all the end of the earth, that His coming may be nearer than ever before. They are ringing in the kingdom while I type in a commentary. Thank you Jesus, please bless these beautiful men and women of your cause, I pray one day I could be half the person they are. To swallow the pride, to swallow Your drive, to swallow everything You know in hopes that one day the mountain You strive for may be conquered, if not in my day, by a descendant for the Gospel sake.
May God be with all those fighting for His cause, and our freedom as a nation.
Jesus loves you as do I.
Thank You.

"Of the Jews five times received I forty stripes save one. Thrice was I beaten with rods, once was I stoned, thrice I suffered shipwreck, a night and a day I have been in the deep; In journeyings often, in perils of waters, in perils of robbers, in perils by mine own countrymen, in perils by the heathen, in perils in the city, in perils in the wilderness, in perils in the sea, in perils among false brethren; In weariness and painfulness, in watchings often, in hunger and thirst, in fastings often, in cold and nakedness. Beside those things that are without, that which cometh upon me daily, the care of all the churches. Who is weak, and I am not weak? who is offended, and I burn not? If I must needs glory, I will glory of the things which concern mine infirmities..."2 Corinthians 11; "And not only so, but we glory in tribulations also: knowing that tribulation worketh patience; And patience, experience; and experience, hope: And hope maketh not ashamed; because the love of God is shed abroad in our hearts by the Holy Ghost which is given unto us. For when we were yet without strength, in due time Christ died for the ungodly. For scarcely for a righteous man will one die: yet peradventure for a good man some would even dare to die. But God commendeth his love toward us, in that, while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us." Romans 5.

Time to Wake-Up

2008-11-02T22:37:00.003-07:00

Welcome to the first ever mention of a newly inspired Holy Ghost roast.

I bring to the people of Calgary and maybe, God willing, beyond the depths of the four walls of the caged city of which we live: "Wake-Up" Newsletter. A news letter geared towards our Campus society. A new thought incurred to help grasp the ever changing world from an Apostolic Pentecostal directional view.
The purpose of "Wake-Up" will be:

To bring to the atention of the lost at large the many wonderful and unexplainable things that God is doing in and around the world. Unmistakingly by personal testimonies of Godly saints from EVERY country. To restore Godly principles through His devices and aid in the opening of eyes of the hungry and lost, the trodden but unforgotten souls, to new hope, the power of Christ, and the deliverance for the captives. It displays and deploys God's power through the only delivering message, Acts 2:38. It will show the lost that God is REAL and TANGEABLE and ABLE to deliver, care, nurture, build, restore, and most importantly unconditionally love the un-repentant. It will perceive one message, directly through inspiration founded in the WORD of GOD.

The "Wake-Up" for our up and coming societal members will be to show that miracles still happen, and although God may be pushed away from the minds of North Americans, hopefully, through direct prayer and fasting and an anointed news letter (God willing), Wake-Up will wake up our young adults out and throughout Calgary and its ever-growing suburbia.

It is a new found mission, upon the approval of leadership and the directive, a new hope for the lost. Get excited, this is Calgary's Wake-Up call!

im cool

2008-10-12T18:44:00.004-07:00

Rules:
1. Link the person that tagged you.
2. Mention the rules on your own blog
3. List 6 unspectacular things about you or your group.
4. Taggify 6 other bloggers.

Here goes:

hooray for unspectacularnessisms:

1) I got my learners and then my license the next day. My mom was very angry. My first car was a Pontiac Phoenix that spun donuts on a dime...
2) I have a Grandpa that lead a princess patricia brigade into Germany in the Second World War. He has been awarded numerous awards including a gold medallion I have in my posession awarded to Him by the current Russian Secretary of Defense (we are very close). My other grandpa is dead, but I am doing exactly what he did in the Second World War (fixing airplanes) unknowingly.
3) I have already had mono which was probably the worst sickness I have ever had. It leaves you with no desire to eat for six months and absolutely drained and tired for approximately almost a year straight. When I finally was regaining my strength, I completed a full rack of ribs, a set of mashed potatoes, a baked potatoe, mixed veggies, fries, some gravy, some awesomely good stuff I cannot remember what it was called and a couple slices of brithday cake.
4) When I was a child I told someone that if you put bleach on bread and fed it to seagulls their stomachs would blow up. Low and behold they went and tried it. Their mom found out and got me in trouble for good reason. p.s., the stomach's do not explode but they do not survive the accident.
5) I have never been further east than Lloyminister.
6) I unwittingly talked in tongues when I was 12 or 13 (at YC '99).

I tag:
all communists
thats approximately six

Perrogative

2008-10-09T22:51:00.002-07:00

the least worst vote

The direction of this conversation is one of translatable interpolation.

2008-10-02T22:46:00.002-07:00

The direction of this conversation is one of translatable interpolation. In other words, no one can say for sure 'cause it ain't happened yet!

However,

It is clear from Scripture that the Church will escape at some point in the near future from the present evils it is facing today. The discussion that is raised in Biblical Scholarship according to this “rapture” [Greek: Harpazo or “caught up; taken away”] of the Church [Greek: Ekklesia “called-out ones”] is not of will it take place but rather when. It is often disputed but widely agreed upon that the rapture of the Church will take place before the tribulation based on the passages given to us by Paul and Jesus Himself. In 1 Thessalonians, the Apostle is documented as saying: “...and to wait for His Son from heaven, whom He raised from the dead, [even] Jesus who delivers us from the wrath to come.” 1 Thess. 1:10. Jesus, in Matthew 24:37 is quoted prophetically that, “But as the days of Noah were, so also will the coming of the Son of Man be.” He goes on to say in verse 40: “Then two men will be in the field: one will be taken and the other left. Two women will be grinding at the mill: one will be taken and the other left. Watch therefore, for you do not know what hour your Lord is coming.” The argument here stands as this:

Paul states that Jesus will deliver us from the wrath to come. One has to ask themselves, what wrath is Paul speaking about? The wrath which is yet to come...a judgment...an end of age.

Jesus compares “those days” to the days of Noah. In Noah's time the judgment of the flood was accounted to those which were unrighteous. As Jesus puts it those that “were eating and drinking, marrying and given in marriage.” However, Moses received grace, an escape. and was saved from the inundation of fellow citizens.

In the “coming of the Son of Man” (Matt. 24: 37) Jesus claims that two men, as well, two women will be carrying out certain tasks. This statement should already set off alarm bells. In the days of tribulation, Jesus said that His people will be persecuted, thrown in prison, most likely beaten and bruised for their beliefs, “such as has not been seen since the beginning of the world until this time, no, nor ever shall be,” (vs. 21) yet, the picture that is drawn here in Matthew 24:40-41 is one more of peace. The people will be tilling the ground and working a mill, together, as one is taken the other is left. The contrast of such passages, both, against each other and in themselves, denotes that some sort of pre-catching of the saved will be of affect. The two 'raptured' people are taken beyond their knowing of “the time or hour,” while completing every day tasks, not in violence or during a time of such “tribulation.”

Scripturally speaking, more testament passages that convey the thought of such interpretation are found in Revelation chapters 4-16. In this line of Scripture the Church, as a body, is not found once in presence nor in word. This period is the period in which the “vile's of wrath” are being poured out upon the earth in judgment. The extrapolation of this piece of Scripture definitely fits with Paul's foretelling to the church in Thessalonica. As well, as the weeks found in Daniel; Daniel's account of the catching away of the Church is of major interest. God is a God of order, therefore, it would sustain in the account of Daniel that the visions he received in regards to such “catching away” would have to be in sequential order according to the time line of this present ending age. In my limited study in this subject, I do not feel at liberty to cast perception on Daniel's prophecy. However, I do think it to be intriguing that the plethora of vision's in Daniel's account of tribulation and the coming of a certain “Ancient of Days” comes post deliverance from the den of the lions.

Consequently however, there is no judgment in Daniel's day. There are no ending dispensations and the world is not coming to its end. The Age of Ages is not being established, so this works to be the a rebuttal to disregard this hypothesis. My only argument still in favor of the proposed interpretation is that it does speak of a time of judgment in regards to the end of an age which, from Daniel's point of view, is afar off.

Substantial Biblical-based evidence supports the idea of a rapture prior to the tribulation. Revelation 3:8-10 clarifies that the Church which “keeps His Name” will be “kept from the hour of temptation.” What better evidence do we have than this piece of foundational, instructional and super-natural power? The church that keeps His Name. My co-harts agree I am sure, that the understanding of Jesus' Name baptism, the writing of it upon our foreheads and our hearts, and the strict adherence to it being the only form of righteousness and sanctification is the only Name by which we must be saved: “Nor is there salvation in any other, for there is no other name under heaven given among men by which we must be saved.” Acts 4:12.

In Matthew 25 Jesus forebode His followers to get themselves some Oil! This I know for sure, that through the grace applied in my life by the Name of Jesus Christ and His resurrection power, my lamp is going to be full, no matter the "time or hour"!

Depth

2008-09-23T22:00:00.002-07:00

WOW!
The reality of God's Word.
It is remarkable!
ITs truth it preaches
its love it speaks of
its knowledge we dream of
but the wisdom it applies us

it is remarkable to taste of
it is undeniable to believe of
its ways are made of
its depth is what lives are made of

I am consistantly getting blown away by the depth of God's finished revelation to mankind, by revelation, I mean God's finished and completed infalliable Word. It is unbelievable!
The Theology course that I am enrolled in has unlocked keysthat I had previously just skimmed over. The idea's behind Creation. The purpose plan and struggles of Christ vs. Satan since the foundations of the world. The Attempts at the polluted seed to whom the promise was given "and He shall bruise thy head." The plan and salvation of God as "a Lamb slain from the foundations of the world." The idea of where the ice age fits in with the begining of the world, the fall of Satan, the fall of man, the dispensation of human innocence and conscience, the reality of it all, the inter-woven proverbial quilt shaped world in which we live as Christ as the centre piece and His worship far and above all other things in our lives makes it as real as the skin that wraps this heart and breath of life. Its a poetic master piece and a narrative centrefold. Its design is immaculate its placement of ideology is insurmountable.
The Bible is the awe.
it is all just. WOW.

2008-09-13T23:00:00.003-07:00

So, bound to the bondage of the Schoolmaster (joyfully) I am currently enrolled in Biblical Theology 1 at Apostolic School of Theology (again, joyfully). The first assignment was "explain God's original creation using Scriptural references [found in papers written by Bishop Wilson and Scriptural references therein] and write a response to the astounding nature of the Big Bang of God's Boistrous Booming Baritone. I ask the reader to bear with me, bite it to the bitter end, and leave a response! We are all learning here, I enjoy hearing God's chosen people's opinions on matters that defy human enginuity and understanding. In other words, lemme know what choo think son! Here goes:

God's Original Plan
by: Jason de Leeuw

In my understanding of God's original creation the question posed is not how perfect God made the world and all therein, but God's perfect plan for the world that was made therein. Humanity is not even brought into account until the sixth day! So what could have been so important in the beginning of time that the most complex of God's creation was put off until the end of His formidable formation? It leaves the reader left with two decisions hinged on reason: faith and choice or, as God would have it, a plan of salvation.

We read in the Holy Scriptures that, "In the beginning God created..." This initial irrefutable fact of human existence is solely placed into the realm of faith, and God already has the divine idea rolling out inside the 'create-ees' mind "For without faith it is impossible to please Him," (Hebrews 11:6). Faith is God's take-it-or-leave-it stance for the universe and all that inhabits its walls; He shows us thus with His opening line in Genesis 1:1.

God's idea for His plan was not "...created in vain..." (Isaiah 45:18). The word "vain" being translated back into original Hebrew is "tohuw" meaning literally "waste and destruction." This same word is found in Genesis 1:2, "without form," therefore we can gather that God did not create the world without form or void, or with no purpose, no emptiness, nor wasteful concept involved. His plan was perfect, He desired to bring back man before the world was "who created all things by Jesus Christ...according to the eternal purpose which He purposed in Christ Jesus our Lord," (Ephesians 3:9/11).

But I am getting ahead of myself. The separation of light from darkness (Gen. 1:3) and a Pre-Adamic flood-state world was what we read about in II Peter 3:6, "Whereby the world that then was, being overflowed with water, perished." This gap provides the believer (believing already having been established through the reading of the Word) with a form of or allusion into the falling of Satan from his anointed place as the "anointed cherub who covered," Ezekiel 28: 13-17. Provided this is when Satan actually fell from heaven, it explains why the Pre-Adamic world would have been covered with water and why it was without form (Gen 1:2, II Peter 3:6). It is in my belief that the world that was known before Adam was one in itself wrought in beauty but brought forth with the knowledge of evil, causing a destruction to come upon it in need of an effectual "cleansing" or water. This would also leave evidence for the ice age. As well, it is in my interest as a believer to note that "God said, let there be light: and there was light," Genesis 1:3. Yet we read in the account of God's masterpiece the sun, moon and stars were not formed until the fourth day (Gen. 1:14-16). With this evidence, it challenges the believer to explain what was light and what was dark that God had to divide. In my belief, it was the division of God's heavenly host and Satan's deafly demons.

God's plan was repentance ("world that then was, perished" II Ptr. 3:6) baptism ("face of the deep," Gen 1:2, "Standing out of the water and in the water," II Ptr. 3:5) and Spiritual re-birth ("Spirit moving upon the face of the waters" Gen. 1:2).

God's desire for faith was covered. His desire for a clan called out by choice was fore-ordained by a tree, a tree of knowledge. At the creation of mankind His plan was made manifest yet again. Genesis 2:6 reads, "But there went up a mist from the earth, and watered the whole face of the ground. And the Lord formed man of the dust of the ground, and breathed into his nostrils the breath of life; and man became a living soul." Mankind formed with the plan in the mind of God, (Gen 1:27, John 1:1). Formed by the hands of God of watered earth and a breath of life.

Satan studied, knew, and wanted to become as God. He knew that in an idol-type exaltation of one's self above God was what God hated most, (Exodus 30/Deuteronomy 4:24) Himself being the fore of the fall (Ezekiel 28:2). He could see the plan of God in its undeniable appearance. His desire to corrupt the seed of Him and who was bore of Him (Gen 1:27) was spoken as He took the form of the serpent. This he did to deceive the woman, who was not breathed into directly but taken from the side of that which already was made (man) Gen. 2:21-23. Promising that they "shall not surely die...but be as gods, knowing good and evil," Genesis 3:4/5.

Now with the knowledge of good and evil, the destruction of the immortal to mortal became manifest i.e. the spiritual death. Through the next seven chapters of Genesis we read of man's constant fall for the next two-thousand years. We have a limited account of a few men that "began to call on the name of the Lord" Genesis 4:26. And, up until Noah's day, the fall of man was quite opposite to the perfect world God created but directly in-line with the perfect plan [of salvation] of God, "inundated."

Brush Fire

2008-08-30T20:40:00.002-07:00

I remember the first message I ever preached to Children's Church. It was simple as I was speaking to a handful of children. The concept was deep and in what I hope impacting enough to reach their precious sponge-like faucet tops. (On, off, on, off, water comes out faucet, one track mind). It so impacted me however that it stuck.

So often in my short yet undeniable walk with Jesus Christ I am often guilty of forwarding messages to others, helping close to homers (friends) with impacting revelations that God has laid on my heart and blessed me to understand. I love it. But it is frustrating. because probably the hardest pill to swallow is the one you just yacked up.

This is where I am right now.

We can spit and spew every right answer, and it seems sometimes that every answer we have for someone else is an impacting verse of Scripture that God is trying to reveal to US not them. The dust off the shoulder technique has plagued me for too long. I have been brought to the attention of not heeding the voice of God. My walk is for me, not the message I can bring forward. I realize that friends need an example in their lives and leadership in fielding events and problems, but God still speaks to all of us individually because we all need constant course correction. Alignment with the Word of God and if I do not receive a love for the revelations that God impresses upon my mind then I have become a Sadducee. I am Sad, you see?

I have not put into EFFECT and the AFFECT has rolled off of my Christian walk. I am ashamed and embarrassed and almost feel hypocritical in my evening rant on this brisk August long.

I have to realize the revelations God gives me through the preaching of the Word of God and the reading of the Scriptures are for ME. Faith COMETH by hearing...action, verb, present tense, still acting, put into practice it is coming. It is beaming its red dot on my vest to blow a bullet through my chest cavity into my heart that it may pierce deep into the deceitful and wretched man that I am. This post is turning into repent.

It is time to flow.

Oh God.
The revelations that came so sweet
the revelation that drops to knees
the tears that flow in from Godly feet
as Jesus steps through and looks at me

His eyes are deep
and piercing darts
that separate deception
and a a pride ridden crude heart

that as stareed so deep pierce through marrow and flesh
my soul is blown open
and the hearts out of my chest

He puts it in hand
and ponders its pump
"In my hand Jason,
is Life, Death, and repentant action"

I feel like a hypocrite Oh Lord My King
the leash on my neck is only becoming
shorter as guidance
leads me closer to the Master

Jason I told you abominations and lies
I told you by teaching
I cast out men for their disguise

For being fake
For being lude
For having masks on their faces

but now the voices become clearer
because condemnation is not of His graces

i plead the blood of Jesus
as Godly sorrow leads to repentance
I plead the BLOOD of JESUS
in which I have true heart felt commitment

I love Him i do
I love You with everything I have got i cant stand jsut typing thinking in all of the attitude of shmuck
this muck
this nip tuck
this facaud of the world
its all a lie cant you see
plastic surgetry and matell barbies

fake blondes and deception
it gets in the mind
i wnat a wife who is pretty
and a brain which is blind
i want a heart thtat is empty and filled with ugly hate
i want a guidance from devils
sot hat i can relate

where is the truth that lies behind doors of fate
where is the truth that lies beyond this posted grate

like the shredding of souls of pen to papers ink
as pens run out
this useless tool is no more to think
a fresh refill
its what I need
i need grace from aboce
i need som Holy Anointing oil to write with
in love

Thats what I need Jesus I need the Master's hand to draw close
i Need to be honest and bold
to speak grace into hearers
and bost

this is it in the cross
only Paul spoke of that pride
thats the only thing that can truly divide

its the only that truly I have in this world
a Saviour so dear as my soul poors out in fear
as my sul poor out as deer
panteth after the waterbrrok
so my soul longeth after thee
so fill me
draw me
shortent he leash
that I may walk closer and not be given to the snare of the deceit

so that i would not lie
that i would not cry
tears of repentance
that tears that I would cry would be ones of joy and acceptance
that you decided you my boy are worthy of my Ghost
take not your Holy Spirit from me
but allow this clump of clay to grow close

Oh GOD i need you
please Lord forgive
I will make things right
as the snare of my muth has gotten me in deep
the lying tongue is deception abomination
get on knees
oh my Jesus frogive me
as it is hateful disgsting in Your eyes
i need forgiveness and piles of chastening
drive this flesha nd devildemise
far from me
into nfinity

that my tongue may not snare
tha it may not be given
to lighting forests in flames of despair

oh wretched man that i am!

where is the life by the cross
dont let the light stop shinging its just
a mole hill in my walk

rigtheous men righteous men
they continue to walk
they get up right quick
of course
the devil mocks

cant do it cant do it
what a hindrance its been
i say shut up you pipsqueak you ugly snake of green
in your tongue is disgust
in your slither is dust
which is all you have been cursed too
to eat as the must

God my Savior, my salvation, my Jesus
lead me in rigtheousness towards somethen taht is deeper
somethen that will keep er'

instead of lying about the trivial
about digits and things
to hide shamefacedness and keep pride
and example i must be

i come clean to their faces
and swallow the lump of cold dirt
the only grave i can dig
is the one my mouth chomps out of the earth

its deeper then sheol its deeper than 6 feet
its the one that is untameable
in whose lies
reign savage beasts

i do not want to walk that path
my heart is sure of it now
Jesus holds it in His hand
every breath
every stand

Lord search it
you know deliverance has come
You know how much i want desire deliverance
fromt he snake in my tongue

God help me HELP ME to walk in Thy streets
so that my feet may find favor
and my heart may find peace

i cant stnad it i cant stand it
being in God's "bad books"
i cant stand it being not what He wants
failing in the small things
foresook

i know its the devil
i know its the flesh
i know that God desires me to repentance
a heart back in the chest

sewn up
my blood flows
OH GOD WHY FOR ME

because my Son, sinning, is the only thing

it drips from His toes

just one drop of Jesus Blood is all I need to restore
all i need is thee Jesus
the sweet taste of my core

I cant stand failing Him
the chastisment comes
because God loves whom he chastens
"and you have to learn, son"

Understanding understanding

God i just cant be alone
i cant do it without you
i wont stand on my own

how much worse would it be
if i could not walk in grace
how much worse could it be
if every morning i could not find mercy

i have gotta be ready i have gotta be ready
i must walk golden streets
pearly gates
i must walk to the "t"

Quarter After Conviction

2008-08-29T23:13:00.002-07:00

I Like Crackers. only salted tops though. Those other crackers with the un-salted tops are gross; So dry and flaky. For Really! There is absolutely no taste to them. It is in my uttermost desire to bring to you the need for sustenance. My eating schedules are so messed up. 12:14 A.M. when I should be in bed and reading my Bible...ooo conviction...GTG!

"Word"

2008-08-23T22:44:00.005-07:00

Here's the thing.

I was going to write a proper grammatical well written expose on the need for the Name of Jesus. But I don't operate like that outside of school, preaching, or teaching. So with that said, here is the cold flow of show fo sho from tips of clay to the ears of dough.
[This revelation was inspired by points made by Bro. Jeff Arnold and his preaching entitled "The Miracle is Looking for a Vessel." You can find this message through the link on the left hand side under "c'mon n' preach preacher" to the site faithbuilder.us.]

It is written.
The Word of God became flesh and dwelt among us. As this is so exhaustively quoted on both sides of the Godhead spectrum we realize that there is literal interpretation that is being missed somewhere along the way. This is understanding. That the Word is God's literal way of creating and identifying Himself with mankind. This is why.
In the beginning God created the heaven's and the earth. He Spoke EVERYTHING into being as per His Logos, or His Word, everything that is except mankind. He FORMED man from the dust of the earth, He molded and shaped them in His OWN image. Therefore the Word never dwelt in anyone. The Word was dwelling in all eternity as a revelation of the FULLNESS of God. Or Godhead. Hence John 1:1 In the beginning was the Word and the Word was with God and the Word was God. There stating in matter of factly that everything that ever was was made by Him and for Him and through Him (Colossians 1.) Yet this is where things get sticky.

Quote that.

The Word which was Christ from the beginning, or the Promise of God, dwelt in the mind for future tense salvation of mankind. But mankind was formed NOT spoken. Therefore the Word which became flesh, was the only way God could communicate HIMSELF into US. There needed to be a way of depth perception if you will. There needed to be a way for God to dwell in the finite to develop eternity out of flesh.

That is why your body is so desperately desired of the devil and his minions of darkness. You have become the dwelling place for the Word. The Word being that which is PROMISED to mankind, the only way that God could dwell in the vessel, or mankind, was to develop His WORD in them. Speak it (the need to speak in tongues) to them. WORD.

This is why when Paul refers to your body as being temples of the Holy Ghost, He refers to you as not just being temples but actual DWELLING PLACES, or better known as THE HOLIEST OF HOLIES. This is where the NEVER CHANGING WORD OF GOD now dwells. As Jesus Christ was ANOINTED BY GOD so that His Word could dwell in a earthen vessel, oooh yes, earthen vessel, so to are we now anointed to carry His WORD, or "Name" for His namesake. Jesus Christ was the perfection, the perfect BODY, the perfect dwelling place for all mankind and "we have inherited a greater Name then they" by being baptized into the Word of God, by the Word of God, into the PERFECT BODY.

Ever notice how Jesus Christ was quoted as being flesh and bones after the resurrection. How He never worked anymore miracles (this point given by inspiration of Rev. Jeff Arnold). He was flesh and bone, no blood. The Blood was spilt on Calvary, It had to saturate the earth. It had to dwell deep within the GROUND which MAN was made of in order that HIS WORD or NAME could dwell IN mankind. Jesus Christ was the promised revelation and the full Name of God throughout all eternity, which dwelt in the mind of God through all eternity. Now therefore because we have inherited this Name through BAPTISM which is the only way that we can receive the blood to be applied to our lives, because the Bible says that the NAME carries the power, and what is the power? the blood of course, therefore as the WORD BECAME FLESH His NAME gathered the blood and is administered to the believer at the time of BAPTSM, "arise and be baptised in the NAME of the Lord..." "Only Name under heaven given among men..." "there is a confession made with the mouth unto salvation..." listen now you trinitarian self confessing religious folk, the confession that Paul is speaking of IS NOT your own confession, He is talking about the WORD which is GOD DWELLING AMONG US IN THE FULLNESS OF THE NAME THAT CARRIES THE POWER WHICH IS SPOOOOKEEENNN AT THE TIME OF CONVERSION! You follow that? Because vs 13 reads "For whoever shall call upon the name of the Lord shall be saved." The only time you call upon the Name, as the Bible indicates, is at the time of baptism and then an only then is the WORD SPOKEN INTO the flesh which was FORMED of the dust of the ground. With me so far?

You are formed with NO WORD
Jesus Christ is the WORD from the foundation of the world.
Jesus Christ was the WORD MADE FLESH.
That flesh as perfect.
WORD and FLESH mixed PERFECTLY.
THAT PERFECT MIXTURE DIED FOR MAN.
That WORD inherited POWER.
That POWER was in His NAME.
That NAME became CONFESSION.
That CONFESSION is spoken at SALVATION.
SALVATION is only in HIS NAME.
NAME ministered by BLOOD.
BLOOD applied at BAPTISM.
BAPTISM IS APPLICATION OF THE POWER IN THE NAME WHICH CARRIES THE BLOOD.
YOU ARE NOW FLESH AND WORD.
YOU are NOW the BODY.

It is the need for the WORD of GOD. You are not saved of yourself, but Jesus which dwells in you. This is BIBLE find it!

WORD.
Quote it.

This Just In

2008-08-20T15:14:00.005-07:00

Between blowing doors open in back-to-back revival meetings (I just received understanding on the term "revival" by the way...cough...lol...) my soul is jumpin' out from every crook in my God given body. It is beautiful!

The breakthrough truly came after a phenomenal message delivered by Bro. Steve Pixler (if you have not heard this message you can listen via truthchurch.com) on Thursday night. My Pastor, being sensitive and our beloved leader, paved the way for the young people as to "march for truth" across a stage and declare not only that truth would have its way but that we would stand for righteousness and a holy lifestyle. Before my feet even touched the other side of the platform, the laying on of hands brought about the most glorious spell of victory as I wept and shook and gained greater relationship with the Savior.
Unexplainable.

So from there we heard numerous messages that have been engraved into my skillet of frying matter as I retrace footstep after footstep.

Which lead us into P.E.A.K.

With anointed men like Cody Marks and the insurmountable power of the Holy Only within 10 mins of the kick off service Wednesday night, there was rejoicing, shouting, and unmistakable leaps and bounds made in the kingdom towards gold and goals. Praise be to HIM.

Without music, forgot to mention.

Hallelujah.

Thursday night saw a revamp. A tick tock in time clock saw me repenting, interceding, deeply sorrowful moaning and groaning on a level that I had only thought could be reached by the most veteran of saints. I was, to my joyous surprise, mistaken. Unbelievable move of God. Unbelievable. It was a ready or not type deal, and I was not ready to deal. Over an hour of the deepest knots for first myself, (I have gotta be saved oh Lord!) the family and the backsliders...as of late...one of my closest friends...but...the devil has NOT won an inch. This is how we overcome. Thursday night took me back to Sunday evening, the night before we left for conference. We had our most loved evangelist Bro. Mullins preaching a service on the need for the saints to intercede. It was much needed and it was much cared for. It changed my life, it made Thursday night possible (for me). Thursday night was here is the blessing now get to it. I wept HA I wailed on my Pastor's shoulder. Then leaped for joy unspeakable after the knots had become unravelled. Dripping with sweat I could not stop the feet from dancin' I have never seen church like this.
Memorable most by far.

Friday night in one word saw us "empowered." Backing our Preachers, our youth leaders and gaining victory steps towards the miraculous.
Which leads me to this post.

Already...within a few days of returning from conference the Good Lord has blessed me to talk with numerous people who were NEVER receptive before and now can do everything but stop listening to me as God delivers His Gospel through a mouth piece. Beautiful. MMM LOVE IT. LOVE LIVIN IT. JESUS NAME!

The hunger is amazing. this new found love for truth. This new found passion for the things of God. the holiness and the standard. The bar has been lifted. The excitement and the joy. And the best part is this: The unbelievable love for the lost...including my family. "...for the promise is to you and your children..." our families must be saved and then the neighbour -Bro. Steve Pixler. Ain't it true?

It is amazing to note that the faith that is rocketing towards a plateau to watch and see as God unfolds the salvation of loved ones and close friends. Excited. YOU BET!

There is somethen that has broke over TruthYouth and there are trails that have not been blazing in awhile that have just been rekindled. Through the leadership of people like Mark King the embers that sizzle will soon turn to brush fires that clinch this city, this province, this nation, this world! Apostolic Truth and the the young people around the world have gained something that is to precious to give up. The way the world is attacking through the deceit of its father the devil is no match for the perfect plan that God is about to unravel. I am proud to be apart of it. I am proud to be "approved" of God.
I am proud to say that I am a child of the Most High.
I am proud to say that I stand for holiness in the righteous of forms, because of the blood that drips from a cross.
I am proud to report that ears are being opened.
I am excited to watch as the miracle of a changed lives is going to hit churches world wide.
I am Apostolic.

When It Takes Awhile

2008-07-31T22:04:00.002-07:00

when all is for the opportunity to be something that is often, for not, an understanding is unfruitful. But when we often desire to be nothing in something, the blessings are inscrutable.

What oft do I find that takes time to be anything for Him that finds more me and less He.

It takes from desire and finds nothing but fire that burns all uncontrollably quenching an angelic choir. THe liar of souls takes all to much to be bold and speaks innocence in whispers but temptaions in splinters. As the twigs begin snapping and shrapnel is my bed, as the laying of hands, is unsurety in rest. As the salvation of many is all I can think of, and the love for many is the place I won;t shout about.

What is it that takes the victory over uncertainty. A sound mind is a promise, but an idol is Dagon's "un-sure of me." When a young adult, person, male, or not takes time to find all in the plan of the crop what is it that makes separation the fine line between holy and not.

It is the ghost that delivers but the air that is polluted, that no matter the filter, minds are dilluted. Where is my flow in this eve of the night, where is my mind in the scheme of fright. Where is the typing of broken clay fingers, what becomes nothing but new wine in old pieces? What is it that takes but never gives back? What is flesh but a desire to never "fill the sack." What takes and what gives what is unsure but stands strong...its the Holy Ghost battleing between right and wrong. It is God's will versus man, that secret still voice. That quenching of humanity that washing by choice. It is get on your face as a worm that feeds. But even worms add soil alone but even more in unity.

One mind, one accord, was the must of the birth. And one mind, one accord must be the cry of the church.

Purpose, it seems, is to be in reality. But desire is passed us, dimensions beyond me. Oh God where is understanding why doth the wisdom not sup? This is the cry when I rinse outside, but not inside the cup.

I can feel the enmity of the flesh that is in me the desire to be empty is driving darkness that thrives on lonely. The idea that nothing and no one will escape this vomit of Him, that lukewarm is neither cold or hot, but sin. That He would rather to save than to look on a face, that only turns purple, holding its breath against grace. That against all odds Holy Ghost in tact it is in me that the wars rage and all is under attack.

But fighting and battle is just what I do. Prayers are applied as faith takes flight. It is in the shield that we find an extinguishing. But the Sword is the only thing that can bring about his perishing.

What is this truth that you speak of young man. I will tell you elder it is two hands one Man. Accordingt Sonship His blood covers all. That His arms were stretched the span of a cross. But Blood still drips through the ground to us all.

The span of His arms was approximately six feet. But the span of his grip was beyond the deep.

Oh God. LEt blood atone be my toll, let the blood restore the joy of my soul. Let blood come in and find the washing of regeneration that tears would flow as a washing of consecration. Do not let it be empty but tears as living water, as hot beads of fear and torment wax laughter.

Let all the flith of this flesh be burried in You, and let glory reign through grace through the springing well of truth.

Let words flow from the tips of clay doused in oil, let words errupt from my mouth as volcanic reactions doth boil.

Let streams of despair be turned to waters of sweet, let blood cover all as it drips from the feet.

At the foot, at the foot, let my soul find its brook. As the der panteth after and how the temple did shook...

GOD JESUS LORD MIGHTY IN IT IS THE WHOLLY
CAN'T RESCUE GOTTA FIGHT FOR SOULS SINGING WHY ME.

Tears turn paper into watery graves.
But God's tears produce waters that flow from grace.

God's tears make wisdom stream on your face.
God's tears make tribulation glory on pace.

This si the secret that with dilligence you run.
Set the race before you
but encouraged to endure through the love of the One.

Author AND Finisher, not beginning something He strarted
and leaving us to be alone with a race in waters unchartered.

That is why tears of baptism in regeneration are elotted, desired, and needed.
It unifies, embarks, and proceeds with the endurance of real life, if heeded.

Take it. Oh I need. NOTHING but Him.
gOD THIS RACE IS NOT FINISHED.
SIN TO DEATH.
but LIFE is IN HIM.

Im not rolling in graves or depths have not found in my life
but God's grace and mercy find me
in the midst of the race.
Drink.
Sup.
Teach.
Exhort.
Exemplify.
Love.
Be Meek.
RE-port.

Fill up.
take on.
fight.
fall down.
break this alabaster.
Oil flows.
Wine is found.

Carry cross.
go extra mile.
brings division.
family, veils and what is truth.
one year and a more.
A while.

2008-07-16T22:32:00.000-07:00

I Can't think of anything

see ya

another cent of two

2008-07-10T17:17:00.005-07:00

Its time to rant. HOLY GHOST ROAST.

Im surfin, I am bored I am researchin some stuff on the two sides of fallible evidence in comparison to the infallible evidence.
The documents I arrive at are of course, the two sides, Theist vs. Atheist.

There are two errors.
One is understanding
The second remains acknowledgement.

In my surfing I come across an article that asks if God truly exists then He should appear to us in that sense that He did to those after His resurrection. It goes on to iterate (incorrectly) that 1 Corinthians 15:3-8 says that we can arrive at 3 conclusions, (in his mind anyway) and they are:
1) Jesus proved His resurrection by appearing to people
2) It is OK to appear to people
3) Appearing to people does not take away free will or harm faith.

This is where the Blood spills.

Fact 1.
Yes, I agree.
Make it known I wholeheartedly agree with his statement. Jesus did appear to people to prove His resurrection.
The Resurrection as proven to those that followed Christ by His appearing to them. This was to show and in fact state that God was manifest in the flesh (1 Timothy 3:16) to redeem mankind unto Himself (Eph. 1:7, 2:14) for this purpose and this purpose alone. Throughout the Old Testament, if my friend had read so carefully the ENTIRE WORD OF GOD, it was the need of a sacrificial blood offering to atone the people of God (Israel) for their sin. Then on a yearly basis the high priest would enter in to the most holiest of holies where he would give account. This was the purpose of Christ. Hebrews explains that we have a High Priest, and Matthew showed the account of the veil being RENT in TWO that ANYONE could come and stand before the Lord HUMBLY yet BOLDLY before the thrown of grace (Heb. 5/)6 . That they may have a personal relationship with God Almighty. Jesus appearing after His resurrection by God (because how can a part of God die) prove both those that prophesied about His coming and His own prophecies concerning His own life IE. as Moses lifted up the serpent in the wilderness, even so must the Son of Man be lifted up (John 3:14).
How is t that He remained Son of God and Son of man hmmm? Mmm i could get into a lil One God right now. Staying focused.

So i do not agree with this statement BUT rebuttal two.
When God appeared He appeared for a purpose, not so some unbeliever could have some reassurance. Because (and touching on point 3) this WILL altar your CHOICE to follow Christ. Because if some majestic being appeared out of the mid sky and said "Follow Me" and began to teach me in every doctrine and truth it would be truly hard to ignore the fact that something on some sort of Powerful Spiritual realm really existed based on personal experience. Which, I remind you, is what a walk of faith is built upon. Nothing a theist believes in is just because, there is a personal experience with some THING that gets them to believe what it is they believe. some need to test the spirits a little more than others however, but moving on.
So Christ's appearing to those was for purpose. We have established that. Point two re-iterates tha Christ cannot appear today because that particular dispensation of God is over. The role of son ship has ceased which this certain atheist would have read had he continued His "scholarship of Biblical theology" a little further on in 1 Corinthians. 1 Corinthians 15 starting at vs. 25 states that after all enemies have been put under His feet, vs. 26 the last enemy being death, vs. 27 now when all things are made subject to Him, then the SON HIMSELF WILL ALSO BE SUBJECT UNTO HIM WHO PUT ALL THINGS UNDER HIM THAT GOD MAY BE ALL IN ALL." the son ship, the role of redemption has now been made complete in Him who redeemed mankind (Eph 1:22/23). Therefore, Christ, being Creator through whom all is created and without Him was nothing made (col. 1) has taken His rightful place as Creator and Father over all. Remember His discussion with Philip once you have seen ME you have seeeeeenn the FAATHHHERR. Stephen when he was put to death outside the city by the Pharisees, saw Jesus at the right hand of God, signifying as the image of the power of God, Jn 1:14, Col. 1,
The only time we will ever see the image of the invisible God (col. 1) is in His perfect form, upon the returning on the clouds to rapture His church, (ekklesia, chosen people, congregation) form this world. Upon his vesture will be written KING OF KINGS AND LORD OF LORDS Rev 19:16.
So, I hope for the sake of this certain writer, He tarries a little longer that repentance may be preached unto all the people, including Him, and God maintains His mercy upon him and calls him out of darkness and into His marvelous light.

God's appearing is for His glory. NOT that someone may take advantage of a piece of Scripture and bend and twist it into some sort of refusal.

and, point three, as i have just so stated previously, yes, it would change your opinion on Spiritual things of some sort of heavenly figure appeared before you whether it be in darkness or light. Paul was changed on the road to Damascus to PERSECUTE the Christians. Shepherds came to the feet of the baby Jesus because an angel appeared unto them. Definitely changed their course of belief.
With every angel, we are to test the spirits however to see if they ARE of God. and how? any spirit that confessed that Jesus Christ has come in the flesh is of God (1 Jn 4:2).

You cannot change the existence of Jesus Christ as a historical figure outside the Bible we have different grammatical and historically proven account of His existence. Which, in His day, is unbelievable considering the low-level of phonic capability and historians. Alexander the Great was documented TWICE and 300 years AFTER his death, but the world concludes that he truly existed. Jesus Christ was documented in three known and accepted accounts outside of the Bible by historians. As well, the Bible has been accepted as a legitimate source of political, religious, geographical, and moral account of the history of this earth...not by just Christians but by scholars and historians alike. There is no refuting it! It is FACT!

So, to say He can appear today is illegitimate and illogical because a true understanding into the things of God reveals the Scriptures to you. He does not want robots, YET YEEETT! let me tell you he leaves proof for those who hunger and thirst after righteousness. There is a way to experience the God of the Bible, there is a way to have a tangible encounter with Jesus Christ today. It is through simple obedience , if you so want proof, that you will obtain a more greater name than they!
The Name of Jesus, administered to the believer in baptism after proper repentance of sin for the remission of sins in Jesus Name. The Spirit of God then dwells in the believer and you will KNOW it by the evidence of an unknown tongue as the Spirit gives the utterance!

You may not see radio waves but you know they re there because there is a receiver to pick them up. You do not see micro-waves but you know they are there because they heat it up. The same is said for the believer, God sends the wave you will speak the sound.

I do not take the stand on evolution as fallacy just based some points and pieces that i throw together to prove my own points. I gather information, i look at all the points and i come to a conclusion based on the positions placed before me. Which is what i have been encouraged to do. Weight he options. Because if I am wrong and there is no God, then i end up where you end up, in the ground eaten by worms. But if you are wrong, then u end up where I am not. And truly I love you to much for anyone to go there. That is what this is about. That is why i am ranting. We all want a way out, we all want to know truth, we all want to know something tangible that can rescue us from an ever increasing piece of illogical mindset and a place where we all just cannot decide for ourselves. I attempt to do it now. I am attempting to show you what it is you and i both need. And it is the love of Christ.

"To know the love of Christ which PASSES knowledge that you may be filled with ALL the FULLNESS of God." Ephesians 3: 19

To The Grads of '08

2008-07-05T00:44:00.004-07:00

They were great sports for the last annual known Turth Academy graduation...(for now)...and although I had a notice of all of a day and a half to come up with entertainment ideas for their graduation, this idea seemed to flow over well (with prayer). Mark's Star helped me with an i-deer. This here is a Love Story of two of the graduates...because two out of three ain't bad. It is their story of rags to riches...an unfortunate occurence is the sound is a little limited but jack up some ear buds and play the tool on high because it is worth your shot. Hope you all enjoy!
...this is the work of a 3 hour prior to viewing one time edit on four hours of sleep short film of Matthew DeMan and Jenna Baker...A Love Story.

During the wuestion of what matthew smells like...there is a missing flatulance of sound...just imagine it.

Random

2008-06-23T21:28:00.004-07:00

The blue orchids totally never slept on the other side of the gate they only received designation when they ate their pajamas. I know once of a black cow that sucked seal blubber form a sippy cup he didnt even think cheese was necessary for apple sauce. I was like man, you sure are willy nilly at dairy queen and he sneered with the speaker in his toejam. So i took a hammer and made a pen. my word it never even met the grade of making the coffe in the summer months. i couldn't believe it. the milk was in the pudding!

the febreeze didnt take the juice from the computer. but it did deliver the stench from the police men.

so in the end... the beginning never started with the duckling in the manfiestation. The egg totally smashed before it was dropped.

Praise God...because if He wasn't random we would all be so weird!
You have five toes on each foot
five fingers on each hand
you have a nose eyes and ears
you have a mouth to open sometimes to frequent sometimes not enough...
but all of it is ...WHY? random
Praise God, because if life wasn't random He would have never made you.

To My Un-Born Son

2008-05-27T16:27:00.002-07:00

My Boy
there are things in this lifetime that you are going to see
When lack of experience will become a clear reality

There is nothing you can do to evade the fate of life
because somethings happen so you can overcome strife

listen to wisdom
rather to reason
that a proverb is only useful
when applied in due season

let wisdom be there in your going ups and your going down
let wisdom be your force that entitles you to a humble crown

remember though my son, my child, my boy
that a crown of self pleasure
is set out to destroy

this is the application of knowledge to be
that a crown is cast down at His feet
the reason we walk on gold streets

His commandments are the light to your path
make sure, if in anything, your articulation is writing His laugh

the battles I fight now are for a greater cause
because God showed me you, my son,
before you were born

I know your maturity is yet to blossom
your eyes are fixed and yet have not captured a cosm-

your fingers are but formed in the mind of God
your inmost being is to me, odd
but to Him it is crafted
in the mind, yes, the mind of God

We may enjoy laugh after laugh
there wll be correction unfortunately
but for reason i grasp

that in love you will be raised under the hand of Him
this is the reason that I can bring you in

you see my boy, that in times of struggle
in times of wanton
i hold on to the promises
that were spoken in vision

I cannot explain but promise to be
always right there
as He is a Father to me

concepts and precepts principles and plan
are not mine to maintain
but His to reveal in both plause and demand

I will love you, my boy
like a father should
I will not provoke you to anger to malice nor would

but i promise my son in times of struggle this day
that like David the King
i struggle my best so you'll be okay

May God bless you my unborn
in your weeks that are to come
not because I am righteous
but because i hung on

my the battles i face Lord
shelter my boy
because as you love me my Lord
i will love that joy

You see reader
the first generation is always the most pressing
but because David served God
His descendants found blessing

you see now reader
the purpose you serve
if you go through things
and you dont understand why

that because your children are blessed today
is the battles you faught in past decades

which is what God showed to me to help me to fight
towards promise not only armor but
truth in the life

So my boy, my beautiful unborn
whatever you are
whatever you envision and see
de Leeuw is a name
but God's dedication you'll be

robbed

2008-05-03T23:27:00.002-07:00

12:37 A.M.

and i feel inspired in prayer.

God.

it begins to take shape as the pages of clear nothingness, simplicity in adversity.

Lord.

What is it.

Life begins to take shape and grab hold. Sometimes it takes a while to really educate one's self will into self-control. What is it to the backslider who takes a rather encumbent step towards the pit of destruction beyond a recompense or redemption when it is to them, a seemingly "not soon enough" but got enough time to do so mentality.

God I pray, that intercession is enough.

What is the purpose of the form of life. Around every corner lies a greedy panhandler named business, who, for the right rate of interest takes the money out of our pockets to rob peter to pay paul...It seems, as the Holy Ghost gave inspiration to the writer for the readee that, to get in debt with no man is truly forms of wisest wisdom. As much as we turn to our own knowledge, and refuse to entangle ourselves with the affairs of this life we find lesser and lesser of tithing or offering and self indulging is all to rampant. As long as the check next month makes it for purpose I can make ends meat as long as the new kicks i bought can last me till the check after. Roots of evil.

It is much like our global ecnomy and its steady rate of incline. And as our social gap grows increasingly un-abridged as an economy that breathes fears of scarce necessity or much simpler put - tactics...we find our life at unrest more formally than informally. Realize supply and demand neither exists nor is cause for reason. Treason. Supply out characterizes demand in our society, and a political agenda would rather see our pockets unseemingly split with gaping holes that as money pours in, we create a debt in ourselves because, well, as quick as the money leaves through our pant leg, we now need to buy new pants...interest.

In today's society it is easy to get distracted Lord. I am often reminded of the days of Paul. The Roman Empire was a strong hold of theatrics, political fascism, personal egocentrics, infalliable lies and hidden agendas both by government and the so called "free" market. I honor what God can do through a persecutor. Making him the persecuted. Paul, in adversity,remained beaten, both in the pocket and bruise by bruise clawed his way with the Gospel, pen to paper and church to church. House to House. City to city. and for what. the same problems we see today, if not more prevalent in his society. We need Peter's and Paul's, dedication builds our immediate change to the miracle of changed lives.

Jesus.

What does it take?
To see truth in a world of lies.

Where does truth end in faith. Ha. Faith is truth.

Fourteen karrat gold pure braclets. Fourteen thousand AIDS infected tribes.
One God. Able to take from Paul to pay Peter.

Rob em all Lord, rob em all.

Desensitized? Or politically blinded? Would your tithes be paid if the government discontinued reimbursement? Who needs the money anyways? Do you understand the green of envy? Roots are stemmed from sin to sin. And trees with no fruit are where sin has bin.

Useless dribble goes unphased. My water bill shows a steady increase. Three less loads of laundry three more loads of cow dung.

Yet.

It is all looked after. Good bye cruel world. I have lost my mind! Where is doc Phil?

That is what leaves us here. to hear. to here.

11 minutes of typing useless information. and God understands every word it.

12 minutes.

...

Overdue

2008-04-07T16:57:00.002-07:00

The watch is off
and if time had stopped
then somethen would have clicked
We all would have realized that time itself
does nothing but get us ticked

We run out of somethen we have nothin of and yet we hold steadfast
that in the end it comes down too
what is all that we have left?

Today I spoke to some hungry souls
a prayer that I have made
A personal talk with the God of Grace
that I may impart with faith

The prayer it went quite simply,
"God make me more uncomfy
that until I speak the world of Christ
to one soul every day per weekly"

It has worked quite well
it has got me more
to reach out for the souls
cause when it all comes down to it
the Holy Ghost is not meant for scold

It has been brought to my attention that righteousness
is the only thing that keeps us separate
that in our hearts no matter who we are
its what keeps time expected

this rendition coo or useless drab
isn't meant to make you think
its hopefully caused you to get up now and realize
maybe we personally should shrink

in my pride and self righteousness
much like the friends of Job
I found myself searching for answers as God Himself could only show

It brought me to a few instances In Job Acts and James
the righteousness factor the devil who flees
as long as sin we abstain

how do we keep from his deafly attacks
how is righteousness imparted
quite simply its your right-standing
which is it that you want harder?

a friendship with the world is enmity with God
that means its like the driving wedge
that keep us from God's hedge
its the separtist ideal
like Quebecors screaming squeals

trial can build one of two things
and it will of course be true
it can pump your head up to sizes so big
that it outweighs your shoes
as the book of Acts 19 explains
the power not the truth

or
you see
it could bring on Character and with it build your hope
which is what Paul spoke of in second Corinthians 12
and Romans chapter 5 verse 3

Job not once cursed God nor died
despite his wife's advice
rather he was blameless throughout his test and trial
to live for God through strife

now the correlation between time and righteousness
is not an easy one to make
but if you can do it it makes things ten times easier
as Pastor King preached to us last night

Fight the waters and your character builds
considering your heart
the faster you swim the quicker you sink
because endurance is what built the ark

so righteouness is good standing with God
not a Pharisee or Scribe
righteousness is a fight through time
to reach eternal life

Acts 15:9 reads it was considered unto them
purification by faith
them was us the gentiles
who at the time remained unsaved

but considering the time that was placed in God
and that nothing He makes is unclean
God heard the cry of a Gentile nation
and purified the cries by infilling

I stand before you a testimony of mercy and grace
a testiment of pace
he who endures to the end will truly
be the only one whos saved

A thought of God the Holy Ghost
is what makes us endure
that if we constantly seek His face
God sees us in favor

Take the lesson from Job from James and from Paul
that rigtheousness is swimming upstream
rigtheousness is fleeing the devil
that when you hear tick tock tick tock
know that now its one second less than several

your righteousness begins right now
how much are you willing to push
no one said that when the rapids were easy
but He did say its just a season

times pass rigtheousness can't
because without you won't view He
you have to make the correlation
and not drift out to sea.

Rebuttal

2008-03-25T07:11:00.006-07:00

The problem with the world is not who is what or why they are its that we cant because we're tar.

Nothing but clay and mold from dust, but what we see becomes what we must.

And as the continual lie of a fascist regime
continues its onslaught of atheist dreams

we find ourselves wallowing in self-pitties
as dog eats dog but meats still taken by the grizzly

The battle is in between the righteous and the prayer
because in our own minds we have no room to spare
that in our own time there is nothing to bear
that in your own righteousness your as filthy as tares

continue to pray as God hears me I am confident
as faith is lower and my esteem is my recompense

here you go God my heart is filthy
I judge my brother and say things about sissies
I talk behind backs and utter vile crude lies
and then i wonder why God doesn't move in my life

as if the world is short on pride
as if the world doesn't have enough strife
as if the world is more hatred then joy
and yet i persecute within God's envoy

Aggravation to degradation to frustration to emancipation
cut myself off from God's holy creation
cut off my heart and in utter "calculation"
i come to the point where i am emotionally drained in relation
that despite being "called out" "holy" in consecration
i cannot find a "holy nation"

my back has teeth marks
and so i dig in my wisdom's
into the next person next ankle next victims

pray for your heart pray pray pray
our forefathers and Preachers are turning in graves

you want to know truth you want to spit gravel
what do you think was so significant bout a tower named Babble?
was it because the people and their speech?
was it because of the wisdom they keep?
or could it have been in their desire of one accord
to come together as one under One Banner One Lord
If we would all see that this faction
this organization
is not the ONLY truth
that we have brothers and sister who are independent, maybe Muslim maybe Jew
DON'T mix what I am saying
don't get confused
I am not saying we are saved with me or you
I am not saying we're saved by works that some man could boast
what I am saying is if people follow God's word than they are saved at most
sooo...Catholic, Protestant, Muslim, Buddhist or Jew...if you speak the Gospel salvation as true
then welcome to the family
because no matter your organization it is NOT what saves you

BUT because we think we are "holier than thow"
we are quick to judge and even quicker to "pow"
out like a light they lay sprawled in the street
the blood is uncovered on your hands on my knees

think about it THINK about it
i stand for our standards I stand for our cause
but your righteousness is as filthy rags we are not holier than st. nick or st. clause
that's the problem that's the fallacy
that's what it means to be a scribe or a Sadducee
Jesus rebuke the Spirit of a pharisee
that drives and desires to himself higher then holy anomaly
"oh God thank you Father that I am not like the UPC"
we are the body of Christ
not divided or we can't stand
so next time we judge remember that Hand

They still practice the same still desire the same
and because there is sensitivity our Pastor took his stand
but don't judge
don't condemn
the Bible says NO MAN
lest you be covered in your own sins unforgiven
and...
remember the grace that appears to us all
despite your faction your regime or your cow stall

we eat of the same trough
our bread is life
and as long as we follow His word
no strife
standards are for the sake of the people
that the mountain can be guarded for the sake of the steeple
the purpose is that our walk may be strong
not that we are better but in HOPE to escape the Devil's prongs
for me to say which is right which is wrong
is up to HIM and my Pastor's desire for justice in long

I'M REPENTING OH LORD
FORGIVE ME ALMIGHTY
MY JUDGMENT IS SELF-RIGHTEOUS AND IN MY STUDY
UNCLEAR
IF IT WASN'T FOR MERCY FOR GRACE ENDOWED ON THE HEARER
I WOULD BE SO LOST IN THE SHUFFLE OR EVEN WORSE 666 FEET DEEPER

grace lets do it grace lets use it
"let no corrupt word proceed out of your mouth, but what is necessary for edification that it may impart grace to the hearer."
and please remember
"our struggle is not with flesh and blood
but against principalities and powers..."

Hmm...

2008-03-22T22:27:00.004-07:00

Some cool shots...can you see the faces?

The first is circled...but the second is definitive. A perfect face in the light a tear under the right eye and the left eye on the fringe of the cloud. Hmm.
One I took out of the window of 737...the second out of the driver seat of my '90 Subey. Literal pictures no photo shoppin cause I do not even know what that photo majig is. I just felt like taken pics of stuff that looked cool. One with a real camera the other with my cell phone. These are just some cool pics.

What Thinkest Thou?

2008-02-28T09:49:00.003-07:00

But what does it say? “The word is near you, in your mouth and in your heart”[e](that is, the word of faith which we preach): 9 that if you confess with your mouth the Lord Jesus and believe in your heart that God has raised Him (that is to say, Jesus the flesh) from the dead, you will be saved. 10 For with the heart one believes unto righteousness, and with the mouth confession is made unto salvation. 11 For the Scripture says, “Whoever believes on Him will not be put to shame.”[f] 12 For there is no distinction between Jew and Greek, for the same Lord over all is rich to all who call upon Him. 13 For “whoever calls on the name of the LORD shall be saved.”

Break down:
If you confess with your mouth the Lord Jesus and believe in you heart that God has raised Him from the dead, you will be saved. But, I believed that it was baptism and repentance that lead us to salvation!? Whenever we do a break down of scripture it is important to not take a few scriptures and make doctrine of it. There IS ONE way to heaven and that is Jesus Christ. "I am the way the truth and the life, no one cometh unto the Father but by me." This holds true in the above Scripture as Jesus was raised from the dead, and this initial death was counted unto us fooooor salvation. Without the death we have no form of repentance we have no form or "bridge" across the gap and man remains in his sins (Romans 8:3-5, 8:34,, etc.) As well it is of increasing importance that you note the ACTUAL BIBLICAL experiences that people had when the Holy Ghost fell on them. When, in the Bible, did anyone ONLY confess with their mouth and in turn were saved? The answer is never. Note: The Bible says "For with the heart one believes UNTO righteousness, and with the mouth confession is made UNTO salvation."
Compare with me Acts chapter 15 which reads "6 Now the apostles and elders came together to consider this matter. 7 And when there had been much dispute, Peter rose up and said to them: “Men and brethren, you know that a good while ago God chose among us, that by my mouth the Gentiles should hear the word of the gospel and believe. 8 So God, who knows the heart, acknowledged them by giving them the Holy Spirit, just as He did to us, 9 and made no distinction between us and them, purifying their hearts by faith. 10 Now therefore, why do you test God by putting a yoke on the neck of the disciples which neither our fathers nor we were able to bear? 11 But we believe that through the grace of the Lord Jesus Christ[a] we shall be saved in the same manner as they.”

Do you see? and when, may I ask you did Peter speak unto the Gentiles specifically? That by the initial faith in their hearts it was considered them unto righteousness, (theres that word again) and their hearts being purified...well...

In Acts 10: specifically "26 But Peter lifted him up, saying, “Stand up; I myself am also a man.” 27 And as he talked with him, he went in and found many who had come together. 28 Then he said to them, “You know how unlawful it is for a Jewish man to keep company with or go to one of another nation. But God has shown me that I should not call any man common or unclean. 29 Therefore I came without objection as soon as I was sent for. I ask, then, for what reason have you sent for me?”
30 So Cornelius said, “Four days ago I was fasting until this hour; and at the ninth hour[c] I prayed in my house, and behold, a man stood before me in bright clothing, 31 and said, ‘Cornelius, your prayer has been heard, and your alms are remembered in the sight of God. 32 Send therefore to Joppa and call Simon here, whose surname is Peter. He is lodging in the house of Simon, a tanner, by the sea.[d] When he comes, he will speak to you.’ 33 So I sent to you immediately, and you have done well to come. Now therefore, we are all present before God, to hear all the things commanded you by God.” 34 Then Peter opened his mouth and said: “In truth I perceive that God shows no partiality. 35 But in every nation whoever fears Him and works righteousness is accepted by Him. 36 The word which God sent to the children of Israel, preaching peace through Jesus Christ—He is Lord of all— (please note this I will return here later) 37 that word you know, which was proclaimed throughout all Judea, and began from Galilee after the baptism which John preached: 38 how God anointed Jesus of Nazareth with the Holy Spirit and with power, who went about doing good and healing all who were oppressed by the devil, for God was with Him. 39 And we are witnesses of all things which He did both in the land of the Jews and in Jerusalem, whom they killed by hanging on a tree. 40 Him God raised up on the third day, and showed Him openly, 41 not to all the people, but to witnesses chosen before by God, even to us who ate and drank with Him after He arose from the dead. (more on this later)42 And He commanded us to preach to the people, and to testify that it is He who was ordained by God to be Judge of the living and the dead. 43 To Him all the prophets witness that, through His name, whoever believes in Him will receive remission of sins.” RIGHT THERE PETER SPOKE OF BELIEVING UNTO SALVATION: YET:
44 While Peter was still speaking these words, the Holy Spirit fell upon all those who heard the word. 45 And those of the circumcision who believed were astonished, as many as came with Peter, because the gift of the Holy Spirit had been poured out on the Gentiles also. 46 For they heard them speak with tongues and magnify God. Then Peter answered, 47 “Can anyone forbid water, that these should not be baptized who have received the Holy Spirit just as we have?” 48 And he commanded them to be baptized in the name of the Lord. Then they asked him to stay a few days.

LET ME TELL YOU SOMETHEN: The Holy Ghost still falls as it did in those days and even though you may have faith and have NOT spoken in tongues the Spirit of God has not yet fallen on you or your household. Faith is manifest for the purification of your heart. It is considered for you UNTO salvation. WHEN, mind you, do you confess the Lord Jesus? Two instances: 1) Your praising His name as the only Almighty God and 2) Calling on HIS NAME in BAPTISM - this is the importance, that when you refuse the name of Jesus at your conversion your conversion is of no effect. "For there is no other name under heaven given among men by which we must be saved" Acts 4:12 and when you refuse His name and the fullness of the Gohead bodily by preaching some sort of trinity you refuse His salvation and the fullness of God reconciling the WORLD unto HIMSELF. Or what was Paul speaking about to the Corinthians in chapter 15? He speaks that as God needed to reconcile the world unto Himself, the only thing being death was that which lied in between Him and us, how could He possibly overcome death? Well, by dieing of course. His flesh, His humanity, was put on a cross and the moment that sin fell on the flesh of Christ He quoted "Eli, Eli, Lama Sabachthani?!" the moment that sin was taken on by Jesus THAT was the MOMENT God left the Body of Christ...because how can God die? He cant, that is the perfect sacrifice He made for Himself to dwell in. And on the third day God raised His "wrap" if you will from the grave, finishing the ROLE of the Sonship (1 Corinthians 15:27). Because in 1 Corinthians 15:26 we read that the last enemy that shall be destroyed is death and death was destroyed at the resurrection. God will not fight satan twice, and He has made aaalll enemies under His feet (Romans 6: 8-9). All things have been subdued unto Him so in verse 1 Corinthians 15:28 ":then shall the Son also Himself be subject unto Him that put all things under Him, that GOD may be ALL in ALL." After Jesus ascended He took His rightful place next to the right hand of God, (Hebrews 12) (not a literal right hand but as the Power, as the mind of God, as the image, FIRSTBORN over all creation: how thinkest thou if we be made in the image of Him?) which He had with Him before time began. AND being such the IMAGE of the INVISIBLE God (Colossians 1:15) did seat Himself with Power, taking the seat AS Father, AS Creator and LORD over all to be ALL in ALL. We can never see Spirit, but we can see Jesus the fullness, and without Jesus we have no Savior without God putting death under subjection we have no atonement. Jesus served us this purpose that by faith in the cross we find ourselves READY, circumsized of the heart, to receive the truth fully and become capable to be buried with Him in baptism and raised with Him in newness of life (Romans 6:4-6).
So to sum it up carefully: ONE GOD, ONE FAITH, ONE BAPTISM - yet you need all to be saved.

Ya Follow?

2008-02-27T17:33:00.005-07:00

There is to much to type the type of God.

ITS COMING.

It

2008-02-22T00:34:00.004-07:00

I have a confession. I like to write.

Since the beginning of time man has found a way to communicate in some sort of sensible scribble. Of course, sensible relies on your personal opinion of what is achknowledgeable as to say something is understandable. From its earliest forms in hieroglyphics to the evolution of cybernetics, man has always seemed to ratify his opinion is some way, shape, or form...sadly.

It is through the wonder of conversation and the spoken word that consistence and justice is carried out from day to day. The going forth's and coming from's, the where you to's and going by's, language is irreversible and uncontainable. It is the only substance of the world that seems to build and destroy, care and eradicate, suffice and be-in-lack-of all at the same time. It, being exactly what 'it' truly 'is', is the only something that can be or not be and begs all the questions. With the lack-of 'it' we listen and learn; yet without it 'nothing' is ever heard or taught.

The extravagance and vivacity, it has strength and perpetuality, it consumes and is the can be of a sentence lacking asyndetically. The spoken word is both power and authority. In its simplest form the shape can be vividly portrayed in a painting of articulation.

Greatness is compound, nations are found and leaders are renowned. On the greatest scale of grandeur, it carries the weight of political and justifiable rights; as well as the darkness of a day without light. It ensnares the soul and encamps the body.

It is the joy unspeakable. The initial. The Only. With it worlds were framed. With it the glowing masses on a pitch black canvass were so carefully spread in an infinite space. The swirling peace of a rushing mighty wind filled an upper room filled with just 'It', a 'conversation' with Him. Without the ability to speak ennumerable praises, the greatest gift it gives us is our ability to be radically everlastingly changed. And with the mouth, understanding is key, it is poetically spoken, 'it' is spoken unto salvation.

Our only way of understanding is a boasting member, a savage beast. An untamed arsonist, a toddler with a pack of matches, fires that kindle the mightiest forrests in turn fallen. Unfortunate is the weapon we are trusted with. For when it falls into the wrong hands it embarks on excursions that plummet souls into abomination under the lobbyists title "the easy way out."

Conversation. Word after word for the complexity of understanding. Understanding. A process by which we relate ourselves to the spoken Word. Speaking. What we all do to much of. To much. Not enough words to explain this conversation.

Is it any wonder He chose to speak us into creation. Is it any wonder He chose His word to reveal Ever lasting beauty. Is it any wonder that it can be the significance of a single Name. By it we find the unspeakable. By it we find the overcome. By it we have not enough to explain, which is why it really is... "It."

listening to the WORD

2008-02-19T12:37:00.006-07:00

Leviticus 26: 3-8 Read and let it speak for itself:

"If you walk in My statutes and keep My commandments, and perform them, the I will give you RAIN in its season, the LAND SHALL YIELD its produce, and the TREES of the field SHALL YIELD their fruit. Your threshing shall last till the time of vintage, and the vintage shall last till the time of sowing; you shall eat your bread to the FULL, and dwell in your land safely. I will give you PEACE in the land, and you shall lie down and NONE will make you afraid; I will RID the land of evil beasts, and the sword will not go through your land. You will chase your enemies, and they shall fall by the sword before you. FIVE of you SHALL CHASE a HUNDRED, and a HUNDRED of you shall put TEN THOUSAND TO FLIGHT (6-Day War...yeah, it still happens today!); your enemies shall fall by the sword before you."

...@ 10:18 A.M. Saturday Morn...

2008-02-16T10:17:00.001-07:00

what a good day

being useful and useless

2008-02-13T11:58:00.003-07:00

opinion
pathetic because its yours
meaningless because its mine

in a world where everyone is "entitled" to their own - where is the constant in the experiment of our lives...

ask yourself what is the one justifiable law? what is the one that governs all opinions all statutes all principles all powers dominions and girds society with the restriction of the ephod?

face it...your faceless...because yours, mine, and their opinions do not matter.
What God is, what God does, who God says...is the only form of governance we CAN know, because if it is not to understand the laws of God, then what is wrong?

A 1:30 a.m. saturday morning conversation with a 24/7 God

2008-02-03T01:30:00.000-07:00

I guess the most frustrating thing about thinking about what is known, God, Is not even knowing what I am thinking.
I cannot choose to base my ideologies, my psychologies, my sociologies on somethen that is not based in my realities. This is the most frustrating. The perhaps is because I type on a computer the base interest is because I can manage it to see it. That when I see the hard evidence I no longer have to weigh the facts but know because it is seen. When faith is the bridge builder, I seem to go on strike.

God, when your God, and where ever you ARE God, forgive me. I know experience builds my character, but how can I build my character off of my own thoughts. God get me to the end of myself so i can think i know somethen. In the case that I find out, is when i turn to your word at 1:35 and realize the answer lies there and not under the typing of frigid fingers.

I am irate. I am because I Am. Is. Because He thought to be. i am is because humanity is the breath of life in me. i am raw. But I Am is.

God You Just Are. But i cannot be just...as me..or is by. I want the sensible the touch the feel the go the pattern the end the lie the pride the strife the cry the end of life the duty to die. but dont give me You because the light is what i want the most. insight God. insight. what is the direction of knowing the base things. the foolish things become my reality, because they are sensible to my humanity. But the spiritual is impulse because thinking anything is rebellion, in spirit and in truth. worship. is. without thinking.
so is murder.

its realizing the base things of the opposites attract revelation. The smartest thing to do is impulsive to God's direction, because you cannot think then of the things you cannot see. But to think in the world is foolish so your impulses become evil and deceptively relieving.

Why God. Why cant you hear me. I suppose it is because i cant hear you. i cant hear somethen i dontbelieve. and God cant believe in somethen that cannot think impulsively. my spirit is spiritually true. whcih tells me there must be a God. Because how can we arrive at logic, Lord, if we only have the base of fundamentals. If anything is anything than impulse is correction. and correction is justification becausei am justified in all my action. logic is good that it identifies the good in the greatness. in all sense then the tangible cannot be considered real, and my brain does not exist, because it is, logically speaking, spiritual, when i am thinking. for thinking in itself is above all things. because logic was the framework of the base things of God. foolish things of God are still wiser than the things of man. which is why my claim for faith is impulse. i must ask to recieve and take to believe. i must logically think in order to know that it is spirit. but in the spirit, it is not me, it is God that speaks, with the groanings i now know, because logic is the forever lonely only. so if it is only then i am the lonely. which is how i know that i am in need, logically speaking.

how do i arrive at that conclusion Jesus? did 2 + 2 really equal four or did i jsut get told that to belive in the basis of my humanity. your problems lie deeper then the proof of your existence. either way me kneew will bow. on impulse. spiritually. so logically im frustrated. but logicaly i know not anything. just impulse. in spirit.

randomly speaking...one plus one plus one...does not equal one. One plus none equals one. so is faith. faith plus none is faith. and without faith it is impossible. because well because. nothing is proven. i guess thats why i dont exist. because i, logically speaking, must live by faith. and fiath no longer exists because everything must be proven to me. so ifi dont exist then what am i typing. who am i typing to. and what do i talk to. with who and when too whom. this moment is the last moment i will have before this moment. wisdom is the application of knowledge. its the typing of knowledge. its the Logos of God its the Word of Logic.

all i know is God exists only as much as my brain exists. which i am not even sure of.

sometimes..its just.. mmmm

2008-01-29T00:13:00.000-07:00

...hmm...

...............

................

.................
..hm.

mmhmm.

mmm...mm mmm.

mmmm.mmmmmhhhhmmm.mhm mhm mhm.
mm. mm. mmmmmM.

its how i see-law. mmmmmmmmmm. taste it.

all the time.

Who is?
mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.
hm hm hm hm ha.

ha. haha. haaAA. ha hmmm. mmm. mhm mhm mhm.
mmmm.

belonging with no name

2008-01-18T10:29:00.001-07:00

this is pretty much where the boat flips

It became evident to me these past few days that God's love is so profound, that, literally speaking, human inquiry into the things that be are not only incomprehensible but let alone irreversible. Perhaps, I suppose, is why the things of God are so irresistible. The irreversible, that which has been already is so profound that it breathes responsibility. The confession.

I laid awake last night contemplating absolutely nothing. I was reading Bro. Booker's "Journey of a Lifetime" and am incredibly and incredulously moved by the inspirational if not almost mirror-like preceding life that Pastor Booker and I have in common. I came to a part in the book where, I believe (and don't tell me whats gonna happen next) where after he had shaken a couple constant times he went to his first Holy Ghost service in the gara- I mean church in Pueblo. He has just fallen away I believe for the last time, (as I have not read the next part) and has just scored up his mama for some cash, gotten into a car to Denver the town that he so desperately wanted to leave behind. He went on to explain the incredible woman that so desperately called out and how many times he had let her down and...

...and...ha ha ha...
God surrounded me.
I thought about my own mother. The incredible woman. Beyond words can describe, that without a faithfulness of a prayer filled beautiful woman like my mother I would have not only been dead physically, but spiritually cast into a fire that burns for eternity. Unbelievably I began to recall the endless nights she would be asleep rocking back and fourth on the brown recliner in my living room, waiting to the exasperating point, simply waiting. I don't know the tears she cried or the prayers she interceded on my behalf, but I do know that I love that woman with more insurmountable power than I could ever love myself with. The death that should have en toiled my inner man and literally did for weeks gone by through high school and my desperate "reaching-for-something" years.

I laid there for about a half hour praying for her and, with eyes welling, I began to walk the path she had so undoubtedly walked for me numerous times past. I interceded. Through my silent groans, I began to ask God to show that unspeakably most beautiful woman the path to ALL righteousness and explained that HOW could he show ME a sinner, truth, before the most ...the most... patient... woman in all the world. I know all of us men love our mama's, but this was so desperately deep I still can't seem to keep my composure about me as I write this message.

She is emotionally sound and as stubborn as Balaam's donkey. The "once believed and always saved" as she mentions to me is understandable from her point of view because I believe for years its what she held on to when she'd see me stumble through those doors or hear my drunk escapades as I all to frequently filled the "white tub" full of her precious dinners. Her innocence makes me speechless, but I am sure she knew the amount of drugs that were being pumped into my body. I never touched a needle. That she knew for obvious reasons. She knew of the fornication and the insolence. And yet, not a word. Don't get me wrong she would mention the obvious. Ask me the questions about girlfriends that would find their way all to suspiciously to my basement room as we were to watch a movie all to frequently. What a beautiful woman my mother was. She put up a fight, keeping the door open at all times. But as much of a brat that I was, friends would often slip their way down whether to rave out, smoke a joint, or just have a cigarette in my basement "suite." And yet, not a word. The amount she must have prayed. Oh God forgive me.

It took its toll when i was aging quicker than any other friend or foe that I knew of. The sudden change in my posterity and posture were all to frequent a sign of the aging beacon that glowed and pointed its yellow tinged finger at me, "druggy druggy druggy!" ...she prayed.

I suppose, as I have been told, she partly blamed herself. After my father collapsed, myself just beginning in grade 8, she began to notice the changes. She desperately, as I know, tried to rack me up to youth events at an ever-changing church that we were attending since my birth i presume and get me more and more involved. She had me talking to the Pastor for obvious reasons and yet it seemed to go un-phased as I assure you I was. We were growing further from Church, that one anyways, as a run-in with our family and the matter of my sister seemed to shake the foundations of our "Christian" walk. I suppose if you were to analyze the situation this would have to have had "some sort of effect" as I am sure some Psych woulda suggested, but I assure you Church attendance and my slipping relationships around me were more accredited to the Father situation than anything else. "Friendly" influences never helped, as I was more raised in other peoples homes than my own, but God knows my mother tried. The tight bonds she held through my teenage years drove me to make decisions based on my benefit. I never knew she was trying to shield me from the trash bin she knew I was headed too. She Prayed. She blamed herself for this, that she could have saved me from all the "wouldas, shouldas" if she had been some how more aware to my fallen countenance. Funny, my best friend at the time was a boy named Abel.

This was never the case. My outer posterior never reflected the inner dungeon I was succumbing too. I blamed God the night my Father collapsed. That was my mistake not my mama's and if anything was to be at the greatest peak of problems, that was it.

So she prayed. She told me once she was praying 5 years after the incident as I was fresh outta High School and looking at the world from the inside out. She desperately asked God to lead me and asked Him I imagine, what she could do. His response was let me go...I cannot imagine the walls that crashed that night. The shock and awe the what? God told her to back off. She never knew I had just told God I needed Him no more and I could do it myself. So God wanted to see. What a beautiful woman. She took the knife and put it in her heart and watched her baby boy, only baby boy, slip through the cracks to depression, to misunderstanding, to misdirection. Do NOT say she never loved me. When I needed a mom, and even when i did NOT, she was there, no matter what. My mom made me lunches, packed the sandwhiches, made the breakfast set the table washed the clothes did the mom thing and still had enough time to sneak in my room pray over me and ask God if He really knew what He was doing. I Knew. echem...'scuse me...what a beautiful woman. She prayed.

And now here was her son. Drug toting whiskey bobbin brainless joe that was slowly spewing chunks all over the beautiful dreams she had from the moment i was born.
I was the onslaught of the devil's bag of punches.

And there I was last night, recollecting, as I assure you, the reader, that there is still so much more to be said about the most wonderful woman I will ever know. No offense to my wife or Mary mother of Jesus for that matter, but Proverbs 31 was written for my mama. What a beautiful woman who prayed. prayed. prayed. prayed. loved loved looooved loooved so dearly looooved and yet, loved God more. That is what HE showed me last night. And then told me the same...

He showed me it all, as my cheeks were running cliffs for the waterfall of tears, and told me to let her go. I cannot explain what I am feeling right now. I know my heart is in it. But to go through what my mama did with the whole hearted release of all inner being and energy for the most influential piece of my spiritual well-being I desperately cry out to God.

He Knows. He Knows. He Knows.
Cause my heart, is not my own...
that is what it means
to belong
with no name.

only IF

2008-01-14T21:02:00.001-07:00

"They want the blessings of God, but they dont want the responsibilities"

-Bro.Larry Booker

"If you're gonna be used of God...then you gotta wake up and smell the proverbial coffee..."

-Bro. Larry Booker

the whole deal is not whether or not you want to be used of God its whether or not you put up the fight to be used.
The Word speaks:
Jason, I would like to speak to you.
Please sit down, this has to do.
with whether or not your willing to be, to be used of desire and the Kingdom of Me. Is there truth behind your prayers? I look at the altar you have built up there...

His pause was comfortng and all I can feel is literal love that i am unable to share.

Jason, I know that sincerity is deep deep within, but the burden you ask for is more serious than sin. For with the desire you pray you must be willing to note, that with this type of walk it is in faith not in quote. You can speak no one into believing and without purpose your a sham, but if your truly in asking I Am and willing to walk with you in hand. Make sure that the things which you quote are in truth and steer your path by following My clues.
I dont know if you realize what you ask for I Am sure, but as much as I Am im willing to conquer, that in your passion lies some sort of truth too sincere, but remember you cannot lie to Me I Am the Great Fear. I Am and always will be the Great of the flock, the Shepherd and Kinsman, the Faithful, your Rock.
But buildings built on sand will sink, and the storms will come, I guarantee as much as I make you to think. Know to think is foolishness to Me, which is why you must lie in the things that are Holy. Without such no man will see, no man will come before Me.
So realize Jason, the things you ask, the altars you raise the unsurmounting task. Under which many "mighty" men have fallen, forefathers and prophets which makes you no different. Realize that destruction is coming, realize I warn you of the knees of the fallen. The scars that reach deeply of altars of crawling, realize you cannot gather yourself without My calling. Realize the foolishness things of Me are still much wiser than the things of man which are empty. Which is why I chose foolish things to confound wise, so that My people will follow will build up and rise.
Jason this task is daunting, its burden is deep and the dreams will be haunting. The nightmares will be before the dreams which come true, the visions the things of My truth. Realize, Jason, the boldness is needed, even Paul was persecuted and with Me pleaded. If I love you and my apostle Paul as much the same, it makes you no different which means all the shame. It means persecution it means the loss of all things. It means being left with no family and fame. It means sickness risk of life and the places I say, it means you follow Me 24 hours a day. It means, my son, that no matter the trial you lift your hands to the sky higher higher. It means no matter what Satan uses agaisnt you, the serpent is trampled and he will not abuse you. It means your shield will be castting shaddows over people I choose you to talkt o in gallows. In means Jason you dont cry for self pity, it means Jason you dont look to be witty. I have no use for a pretty boy fanatic whos concentration is in getting the crowd to go ecstatic. No man will glory in my presence, I shut the mouths of lions and bring people to repentance. I Am and always will be the King of Almighty, the Glory King and in raising people for My Name. Submission is vital and My Name will be praised as I talk to your heart I Am watching your face. Your tongue is MINE, your thoughts are MINE, I Am jelous and want the things of your time. I want prayer I wnat devotion, I want the thick and and the thin, I want the skinny low down all the depths of within. Jason, I want you to know that this is not gonna be easily mounted or over topped, I want you to know that I have no use for a mock. I need soldiers who are willing to fight, and there a no wars that aren't faught without knives. Realize Jason, I left the thorns in Pauls side, I was the reason Peter was crucified. I WAS the reason I AM the persecution and I WILL be the One to whom is due consecration. If your not willing than back out now, the power will be passed to someone of knows how. Even Mary was laughed at thought a fool and scorned, for she was a virgin yet she carried My first born. Satan used her for reason to Herod's mass slaughter, of babies of 2 years and younger. The mind games He plays withthe people I choose are no task you can stand up against the battle you will lose.
so Jason, I have given you the chance to leave, This is the opportunity to jsut be used for a couple bible studies. You can sit ont he pew be used of Me here and there, ou can continue on how your doing, couple times for youth prayer. You will stil be saved, and you probably wont grow cold, but just remember the thing which I will ask of you will be minor but bold.

I am paused in my steps thinking as sure that He can hear my thoughts. He knows the reasoning behind all i have got. So if He knows me, better, then anything i know, then i suppose he would have never asked me all those. those questions were answers into how much i can bare. those questions were the visions of the things i will despair. so i guess He already knows the answer i say...

God, I can do it, but only if You stay.

UUUUUUUUUGHhhh

2008-01-05T16:33:00.000-07:00

alllright Dawkins

im not gona be Christian when it comes to this
because u want to charge us Christians with abuse to our KIDS!?!!?!

when it comes to my girl my boy i will raise them how i see is fit in God's eyes
im not ashamed and in no matter hoe u look at it it is no amount of child abuse when a kid knows that there is a loving and compassionate Creator that died for their sins so they could have eternal life.
you want to credit the kids with not having free will, that they grow up to not want the things of a normal human being. WELL lets put it this way, i was a drunk drugged out atheist like your sorry self and was born in a Christian home. Looks like the tables have turned. I had the most loving parents, i had the most compassiante arms to run into, and night after night they waited up to show me they cared when i would stumble through the door drunekr than noahs ox so get this bud you have no idea what you are battling with when u compare an atheist family to a Christian one. There are those that i know of IN MY CHURCH that were born with "free will" to practice whatever they felt necessary..but guess what it lead them too...the same life a bogged out christian kid turned to after his stint with the world of emptiness...the only ONE that could save me from myself and fromt eh detremental lasting effects i WOULD have had and harmed myself. It angers me with you atheists...all you do is sit there and abolish religion to apease your own inhibitions...to lay rest to your own mind screaming for a way out from the deprived state of depression and wallowing self greed and pity party you so unrighteously desire. well dont blame me because ive found my way out. dont blame me when i want to riase my kids so they never have to go through the crap that you so frequently shovel downt heir throats. MONKEYS!! whats next matter that comes from nothing...oh wiat ...that is whats at stake with your foolish comprehension. LISTEN
you want to blame me for child abuse i should cahrge you with child neglect!
"here young one sit in front of this tube and let it raise you. It will teach oy how to fight, get pregnant before your twelve, hate your enemy and destroy property that isnt yours"

"here young one, sit in front of this bible, read about how Jesus loves you and died for you. Look at the example HE made for you. Love your brother as yourself, Love the Lord your God, loe your enemies moreover. Save yourself for marriage for the one that matters, dont drug and hrut yourself."

HMMMMMMMM
kind of a brain teaser dont you think....NOT REALLY
but yet YOUR the genius's
LISTEN you wnat to bring your kids up the way you want too thats your problem, but dont hurt them and mutilate their minds when yhey WANT to believe in God. Christians choose to bring their kids up in a loving environemtn with a point. you atheists bring your kids up with undetermined actors and survival of the fittest techniques that you call "free will" and then the moment your kid brings home a bible you'd rather burn it and see them burn then turn to someone that tells you how to live your life. after all thats your biggest problem you cant submit to something because it restricts you from having all the choices that you want. but then again that is choice.

so thats child abuse...but i guess your just as guilty. pawn your kids off to anything that they want except God, because then you haveta hear about someone that actually loves you for who you are.

dont tell me how to raise my kid, Jesus loves you anyways, cause God knows im trying.

I like when things just lead themselves

2008-01-03T00:08:00.000-07:00

so its like this
the time between the treasuries
is the moments ull never wanna see
but the moments u really wanna see
become nothing but lost fallacy

that in the end lies justification
in your own thought and pattern
that in thoughts and patterns lies time you'll never get back

when thought is wasted
is it wasted on you
or is thoughts that are wasted
becoming the purpose He has created for worship to get through

try not thinking
nor logic
nor imposibility
which in reality is impossible

it is impossible to rest or stop to think
impossible to pause or place or stand
it is impossible to be still have no will or self will
it is impossible because image is in the glory of His swallowed pill

so if its impossible to use logic
because it is spiritual
then it is impossible to reason what we think is rational
it is impossible to think that we have the answers you see
its impossible to know anything beyond capacities

so if its not possible to have a will
but in reality have attained
than i suppose its possible to maintain and be self contained

if purpose met desire
what a stance it would make
i suppose then time would stand for a moment
in the realization of a day is fulfilled

so if the Psalmest wrote that all the days would be fashioned
then how come i cant get around the last schism schasm
how come i cant put my hand to the potter
when is it that opportunity meets God as my Father

its purposed to meet
to stand still for a second
in order so you can realize
its you thats all for nothin'

do you get it
this position
you are so delicately placed in?

you cant possibly even knowingly because its impossible to fathom

remember logic is not logic unless its become
but God is not God unless He is "One"

what builds on the mind is the blocks of doom
because all that can build is the darkness that looms
it is not without light that the bushel is hidden
because you cant find the basket until the candle is litten

what meets u at the fork
is not whether the direction is going coming or found
its the willingness to proceed
that the genius gets around
foolish things to confound the wise
is brilliance in itself
because when the fool finds favor
hes smarter than lies

what gets u ahead may put the end to the parable
but the end is never ending when u live in the Bible

its like pointless renditions
like this poem or coo
that the mind is nothing more
than a point to confused

but at least with a point
there is a decision thats made
i guess beauty isnt in the eye of the beholder
but rather whats paid

on sprinkle or two
no choice i suppose
because glory is not glory
unless blood flows

salvation is not seen unless Word's are heard
but even then no one listens
because logics obsurd

id rather believe in nothing
or believe in a lie
than face the music thats seen
that can be tasted for supply

theres no point position or hold
because when u have not faith
nothin is sold
the brain is a mold
and the hand at the table
is always a fold

so i guess its a duty mr David king of IS'rael
to sing the song of dancing
because thats the only thing we cant fail

HEELLLOOOOOOO PURPOSE

...and...

2007-12-17T23:01:00.000-07:00

it was my birthday
and i cried because i wanted too

because i love You with more for more to the more

thank you Jesus..take a sec and look at that name

for Your love
for Your joy
for Your faithfulness
for Your gentleness
for Your PATIENCE (can i get a witness)
for Your self-control
GOD
thank You for being God
thank You for being the altar
thank You for being the light
thank You for being the feet that ran those feet that run
thank You for being the hands that reached the hands that are reaching

thank You for being in the tears
thank You for being in the fears
thank You for being in the storms
thank You for being close to home

thank You for family
thank You for truth
and the church thats built on Your anomally

thank You God
for being my Father
thank You for waiting
with arms at the altar

thank You God
for second chances
thank You God
for this last year and the advancement...

thank You when thank You is my Allelu
thank You for thank You is indescribably ascue
without words God has been...and...
pressin on for truth
-de Leeuw '06...'07...and...

2007-12-15T03:32:00.001-07:00

im done...im goin to bed

another day another dollar

2007-12-13T23:01:00.000-07:00

thursday...3 days before my birthday

and then there was a car
that never got fixed
hunk of crap is sitting in the pits

so i waited on Fungai...i needed a rotor see to fix my car. a bolt was caesed and needed some machining, a lil tender lovin drillin from the usefulness of a drill press ...perhaps auger in this case. So i waited...
while i waited i finished three assignments for an Accel Bible college i am so far behind in...it is only the beginning of God's wonderful works on this day considering I woke up feelin about as that bolt under the press.

So it was a good start. it was 12 p.m. the mid-Hamlin called and explained the situation of a white hunk of...car...that sat upon a jack in the front of the church still waiting its brand new set of all season radials...the tires needed to be exchanged thanks to a nail and low tread. Wal-Mart found us an hour in delay...like true Truth Churchians we kicked it in Starbucks where Jess ordered me a alksdjfalk;sjdf alksdjf Misto and much to my surprise...i hated it. But it was worht the experience. We vented. Good chat. Still waiting on Fungai.

4 oclock kicked it in high gear. Plopped the car on its brand new rubbers and i rolled away in singular fashion. Found myself at Market Mall buying Christmas gifts for the folks. Mama got a gift certificate to some store she likes. Found a jacket i want for snowboarding. I want to rip powder like sheets of paper. Im itching. But waiting on Fungai.

Bored i sat down at home pounded out another assignment for Mark King. Went to Hamlin's and had amazing fellowship. God worked again. This time dealing with my car. Brother Loor Loor's and the Leet factory are proud new owners of a Subaru Legacy. Thank you for your purchse it does not go unnoticed. Your receipt is in the mail. Brown's got a Bronco. That whole story is a God thing in itself. Wow ...the day unexpected flow of dolla's from my Gramps, The spoken word at the altar to "get my car fixed" literally..taht was a message i received one night..so i ordered the parts...day i began fixin Brown's get in accident. car is written off. Jason give them your car....OKAY GOD...Get Kenny's car..because Mr. Loors was kind enought o give me first dibs. Brown's get Bronco after check in Spirit...God's will was for the Loor family. I drive the bucket for now they drive the nicely renovated luxury wagon. haha. God is SOOO GOOOD.

and that aint the best part. That was one prayer answered. a chunk of debt paid off and the car i needed. then. Angie drops her lil phone in the depths of the sea of people that walk the byways of Market Mall. Ring ring goes the telly and someone had found her phone, gotten a hold of angie and angie now was gettin a hold of me while i was sittin sippin blacker than black coffee at the Ham-dawgs. SO we drove down to the shady area of downtown Calgary where a fella passed me the tella and i passed him a church card. and of all the peple to pick up a phone tha a lil girl with truth had lost...ended up bein someone who preaches for the United Church. And lemme tell you...boy neva looked like no preacha thats for sure. He said he may give it a looksie..and i said hope to see. WHAT ARE THE CHANCES.if i could only begin to explain.

Still waitin on Fungai.Pastor King ain't happy. But loves me anyway.
Eventful.Fulfilling.Capital.Priceless.
GOD IS GOOOOOOOD.

Getting to the End of Your Rope with a Razor Blade

2007-12-11T13:43:00.000-07:00

Who are we to think that WE can accept GOD into OUR lives?
It is more scripturally correct to say that it is okay to smoke dope! Mind you, such might be the case with the incoherant deeply disputed doctrinely errored teaching. I refuse to believe that a God so great so magnificent could be entoiled to endow us with HIS power just because one day we choose to "accept" what He did for us some 2,000 years ago. HE did what HE did whether you accept it or not. I think Pastor King said it best when he mentioned on the pulpit that God doesn't have an identity complex, He knows who HE is. So, Guess what, No man comes to the knowledge of God unless HIS SPIRIT draws Him. God finds YOU worhty of HIS Spirit, not you find yourself. It is HIS decision to give you HIS Spirit. To say a simple prayer and ask God to come into your life is just that, you are ASKING. This comfortable beliefism in mentioning that all you have to do is...all YOU have to do is NOTHING. YOU cant do anything. If you truly want GOD than GOD will choose YOU. And then, only then will you find truth, then and only then will you realize what YOU must do. As the Spirit draws, as the Spirit calls we find ourselves asking how. Now this is repentance, baptism, and the you-must-do's, such like we see in the Apostolic faith. There is repentance, baptism and the wait. The hope. The faith. That God requires to fill you with His most precious of all gifts. It is a gift from GOD chiko: Ephesians 2:8. But you cant give this gift to yourselfSO Next time you think you are equal to God, try reading Proverbs 6:16, Isaiah 46 or 63...wipe the pride in your deception and maybe God will remove those shingles from your eyes. I'm not sorry, this is as harsh as it sounds, but some people need to wake-up and realize YOU ARE NOT SAVED BECAUSE YOU SAY SO. It is in love that Jesus died, it is in deception that you think you have to. Yes, you have to repent. Yes, you have to be baptized. Yes, God will fill you with His gift of the Holy Ghost. But the Yes is when HE fills YOU, not you fill yourself. To believe is confession, and to confess is redemtpion. Hence, in Romans when Paul speaks of just confessing Jesus as the Christ and you will be saved. Yes, you will be, but not at the point of your confession. Or else, if this was true then what makes the writer of Hebrews say, we lie in wait of the promise, Acts 1:4 go and wait for the promise, Romans 8:23 "waiting for the adoption," look at Galtians 5:5, Romans 8:25. And on and on it goes and goes, so how now brown cow fly high mud pie, it aint gonna work! You have to reach the end of YOURSELF so God can begin HIS work. To "cover your butt" in simple confession is a mochary of the cross of Christ. Is a malicious attempt, a slap in the face of the greatest sacrifice ever known to man kind. Precept upon precept, Line upon line. Old Testament not just ANYONE was worhty of entrance into the Holy of Holies, not just any people could find God, but God's chosen people, such now ye are! Abolishing Old Testament rule (Colossians 3) but explaining our duty of reaching the end of our flesh, Romans 6. When you believe, you will be saved. God will save you...eventually. But its when you believe on God, not in yourself. took me a razor blade to realize this, it took Pastor Mayo a belt and a shower rack. DO YOU GET IT YET. NO FLESH WILL GLORY IN THE PRESENCE OF THE LORD.PERIOD. Your RIGHTEOUSNESS IS AS FILTHY RAGS. So, go ahead and try to save yourself, put rest to your mind, but I can guaratnee that in that day many will say Lord Lord...so how do we find truth? Get to the end of your rope.

Many Are Gonna Take This Wrong

2007-12-04T13:28:00.000-07:00

Alright sit down Darwin, Hobbes and Son
time to talk some morality into some
time to speak of the reality sum
of what equals the truth in the life under the gun

what does it matter that i am a Christian to you
what does it matter I Dont see like Muslim, Evolutionist or Jew
what does it matter if your not apart of a new movement crew
what does it matter, why does it matter to you

You say oh becaus eof religion we have wars and fights
well wake up idiot its not because of religious strife
im sure its cont5ributed to the fuel in the fire
but even more so it has to do with unrighteous desires
it hasta do with the governmental liars
and the one idea they have in mind for the end of the world, one sire

it hasta do with the whole behind the empty
that all they care about is you to sit in front of our telley
fat, oblivious and ready
absolutely, so when that chip comes ringing and the new world order is signed
remember its not the Christians whos fault it is this time
dont blame us, but we told you so
but not like it matter your a supremist so...

hear me out

Does it matter that I don’t believe in monkeys and algae
why does it matter I don’t believe in darkness or bein lonely
why does it matter I don’t see it from your point of view…
why does it matter so much to you

all i try and say is this
Jesus loves you and you get upset
why is that? why are u offended?
because im tryin to ask you to sense it?
to realize theres more to life than the restless?
to aid you in deciding against the relentless?

fine dont hear it...ill dust off my shoes
but if im wrong well then im gonna tell you
if im wrong then were in the same place
but if your wrong there is no longer grace
no mercy
to find you crying and balling please please
i dont wnat you to stand on judgment day before
when cast into hell is the day before the Lord

Because in the end it still matters to you that I see it your way.

Lets go down the path of thinking for a sec
look at your shoes and consider the ant
but consider from your idea of evolving
what makes you better than that critter thats crawling
what makes you better than the spiders you "slaughter"
what makes you better then our cousins with utters?
you're a murderer, a genocide dealing baffoon
your not any better than the monkey's doom
but with monkeys it doesnt matter
put them in a cage and lock them up in tatters

think about it
think about it
what makes u so great...
but im the supremist Christian because i want you to be saved...

better yet, how bout the moms and dads who feed their kids to the tube
or take em out on their eighteenth for druggin and booze?
but im crazy because i shout to my God?!
im crazy because im rescued from the fog?!
im crazy because i dance for my freedom?
im crazy cause i dont fight in the face of the lies?
im crazy cause i dont care about stresses of lives?

hold up its a sincher
jest it folks heres the clincher

Point is it does not matter where you come from or what you believe,
because in the end its you still living in the hope of peace
its in hope because face it you just don’t know
What is fulfilling to one might not be fulfilling all
for some but it I know Is fulfilling for all
Fulfillment I suppose is in your delegation
your regulation on the tariffs and weights you place on your shoulders
Personally, I like not having to care or worry or stress or the boulders
any place any amount of focus on my life or where it is headed
To realize that I placed it in the hands of the Rested
Big J gives me security, and somehow, it works
whether in your opinion “that’s life” or there truly is a God
it all works out
its querked out
it shouts out
it comes out
So whether or not you want to blame me for being free is your problem, but don’t blame me for being happy. Son.
Dont try to change me im not trying to change you
im trying to tell you the Gospel because I have too
you may be happy, you prolly are
but this is the choice of carrying a cross beyond and this far

if i had my choice lets face it i wouldnt care
id sit back and relax in my lazy boy chair
but its this heart that the Man has placed in my eyes
the care in the heart is the care about your demise

oh jason jason, its all a scare tactic
oh jason jason wake up life is fantastic
oh rihgt i forgot how awesome it was the drugs the booze the sex the emptiness of lies
most importantly to mself who you trying to kid
what are u tryin to rid
its a mud slide as u continue to skid
im not judging im not pointing
but i know your thoughts
because when you lay your head to the pillow
its the same...its all you got
that place that solitude
that emptiness that feeling
that you cant find its so emotionally draining
we all scream referendum or shut up!
leave us alone our lives we're so caught up!
im happy really cant you see?
pass me the whiskey the needle the weed
emptiness is foolishness and to be filled you'd be crazy
crazy enough to think theres an escape from the needy
theres escape from the street so breath easy
but forget it, because of Christians we have wars and we fight
because of compassion and love all we have is strife!
hahaha are u listening does it make any sense?
so shut up while i deal in my two cents

sat back for to long
watched us all go to the basket
as quickly as we're fighting we found loss by the hatchet
that soldier and government are not willing to grasp it
that as quickly as we have decisions we've begun to become fascists

ya thats exactly the reason i love you its true
thats exactly the reason i want u to be happy through and through
thats exactly the reason preachers are martyred
thats the exact reason ill carry this cross farther

your so stupid when you think of it liek that
and its not ur fault i dont plac eit on your back
its crime in the name of Christ and many fallacies
that give the name Christian without the Christ name exclusively

but lemme say
if we ACTUALLY FOLLOWED THE BIBLE WITH TRUE REPENTANCE
YOU WOULD SEE THE CHANGE IN THIS WORLD OF FIGHTING RELENTING
but you dont care abotu that im sure
your care lies in the materialistic and the self core

you hate me because i love you
you hate me because i praise and yell
u hate me because im at peace with myself
you hate me because you cant stand the help
you hate me because you dont have the truth belt

so ive said it before
and ill say it again
and maybe conviction will make me repent
for Apostolics and the rest i say in defense
but for now its the ghost that met Abraham in the tent

as much as your saying be realistic
i still say are u willing to risk it?

Brother Booker

2007-11-28T10:34:00.000-07:00

-Tonight we are talking to you about overcoming humanity-

Continually keeping an animal at bay
The animal, I mean my humanity

Ain't it funny how easy you can remember the dirty joke-
but its to difficult to remember a scripture?

What beat is going through your mind after walking out of that restaurant-
but why is that beat still going through your mind when you're coming from church?

The example is Leviticus 11 and Numbers 19. God told them by protecting the tribe with cleanliness and daily washings. But the cutting off this is what is commonly believed. The “I don’t feel like it…” mentality. I do not want to wash my clothes, myself, and the cutting off was a process. The attitude of disregard of callousness and hardness and after awhile they do not take their sacrifices, they start disregarding the rules of God and they start disregarding the things of God. And no longer can God touch them, their iniquity has grown to such a place that God can no longer reach them. The self-will iniquity: Righteousness says thy will be done. The YOU WILL not the I WILL.

What is the pure water...the continual washing.
In a world where society destroys our purity. Where the curse words are alphabets. Where the dirty jokes are the food for thought. Where the impurity is standard. Where sin is an appetizer.
God does not hold me accountable completely for societal impurities, the desolate insecurities and the fluctuating inconsistancies which are going on around me, but God spoke of the Old Testament examples in the perfect sacrifice for everyday life. In coming in contact with the impurities of life, there was a coninual washing needed day in and day out for the purpose of regeneration (Leviticus 11, Numbers 19). You cant stop the barnicles from attaching to the boat but you can scrape the boat clean. This serves us well. That not only the blood of the Lamb has helped us to overcome, but in Hebrews 9:22/23 And ALMOST ALL things are by the law purged with blood. And without shedding of blood is no remission. (the blood of Jesus Christ)
There were some things that were purged NOT by blood. And without no blood there is no remission, true. Always sacrifice made for the atonement was by blood, true. BUT There were some things that were purged not by blood...there was a purging...but in the Old Testament we find the cleansing with the cleansing of oneself for some things NOT purged by blood. Wash your flesh and your clothes and a new day comes. The even and the morning were a new day. 23: In fact the law requires that nearly everything be washed by blood. But what is the one thing that is needed but is not blood...water

I must be quick in noticing the self-will and overcome the things that cause iniquity to take over me. God must have His will. I don’t want to become hard God. Lucifer is an example. He willed his way by trying to get in as the head of hosts. I must obey the Lord, because 1 samuel 21:22-23 “rebellion is as the sin of witchcraft and stubbornness is as iniquity and idolatry.” His will grew stronger and stronger...God cut him off.
No longer is there a renewing no longer is there an opportunity for regneration, no longer is the blood sufficient to cut the cost of my own unfaithful heart. I am no longer pure but scathed by the coil of man.
Unless...

and than He said....IN YOUR FACE DEVIL!!

2007-11-26T12:56:00.000-07:00

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thank you Jesus

can u dig it sucka?

2007-11-17T18:21:00.000-07:00

"who said we gotta go up the hill?! who said we gotta go around the mountain?!"

empty rounds and quick raps of a German gattling gun filled the beach front where our fateful fearless round of troops bombarded the isles of the French quarter. Ricocheting chrapnel of the ground in literal inches from the feet of the rushing soldiers and the freshly dispatched boats. Behind a hill off 2 kilometers away from the action minds began to grind the gears...

the men knew that in front of them laid tons of anti-artillery barrages and turrets begging for the peek over the mountain of a hill that lied ahead.

"Who said we gott go up the hill? who said we gotta go around the mountain?!"

perhaps the greatest tool each brave soul had on them was their trench diggers, known to the modern public as a shovel. They began to dig, dig, dig, deeper and around and through up and over in and around ...through the time they began to dig to the time the barraded enemy lines was a period of excrutiating lengths of hours, days and months. They remained under heavy fire day and night and the barrage that laid waste on the beach a coupld kilometres away was the only defense they had. Airstrikes from allied forces lined the beach and held axis forces from pressing further.

Much deliberation and sacrifice the men found themselves literal feet away from the destination...for the sake of the common saying goes, behind enemy lines.

they had gone throuhg the mountain, in the light of the darkness (selah). they had gone through the mountain, in going through they were not kicked off. in going through they could not fall off. in going through they could not be destroyed. for in the hidden armor they had put in their satchels proved the most worthy utensil of all, and yet it was the free gift of the God they served unknowingly. the greatest utensil they had that day was their minds. the brains and bravery of the men that decided "who said we had to go up and around?"

In a relative sense, Jesus warned us "to be as wise as serpents, and harmless as doves" matthew 10:16.
The enemy is going to put trenches, mountains and hills in front of your spiritual walk and as long as you remain ahead of him, led by the Spirit of the One who has saved us throuhg His redemptive means, we know that in the peace of the Gospels we can "after you have suffered a little while, will himself restore you and make you strong, firm and steadfast." 1 Peter 5:10

In carrying our cross, we need to get on and beyond. Past and desiring that this mountain "be removed" and it will. That the thing we ask in HIS Name we will say these things. That at the sound of His Name every knee will bow, (philipians 3:11) and what more if we can rejoice for the sake of the glory on high will we see the mountain removed from its place.

THIS PROMISE is from everlasting to everlating
the way is in tunnels. the way is in the valley. hidden form teh eyes of the enemy. undetectable. in the midst of the lion but calmed by the Spirit. AS Daniel was in the lion's den, so to we are sent out among the wolves. Let us be persecuted for the sake of Christ, for with persecution we know that we suffer for the cross "and if children, then heirs—heirs of God and joint heirs with Christ, if indeed we suffer with Him, that we may also be glorified together." romans and again in philipians "has been granted on behalf of Christ, not only to believe in Him, but also to suffer for His sake," let us take up our cross and for His sake take on the enemy with the armour of God. shining in brilliance. digging with servitude.

There is a point when the soldiers saw the finish, that up through the break of the light we can imagine the rejoicing int he victory they would have felt in the surrender of the enemy forces. that up through the holes behind the lines of enemy forces came troops like ants from the hidden hill, that by complete surprise the enemy has never gotten the best of us. that in no means has the enemy been able to succeed in destroying what he has not seen. remain hidden as the serpent be humble and stike force witht he sword of the Spirit. know that you have a sharp two edged sword..."Thus says the LORD!’ Say: ‘ A sword, a sword is sharpened And also polished!" Use it...search it...teach with it...learn with it...love it...live it...preach it...and most importantly "dig it"
it will get you through the mountain...behind enemy lines

its that

2007-11-14T17:17:00.001-07:00

its a search for answers
its the desperation in reaching
its desire for the impossible
its that it all begins when its over
its to stand in the presence in spirit and in truth

its in the knowledge of listening
its in the wisdom of application

its rolling the die
its knowing its always gonna come up grace

its the last in neverending mercy
its the addiction to prayer
its the attraction of love

its the victory in worship
its the sun in the storm
its the is when it is like
its unchanging when its evolving

its the hands holding the world
its the hands holding the nails
its the passion in the stains

its all i need
it is nothing you can give me
its manifestation into the unbearable
its the tenderness in sacrifice
its perfection in the wound

its the crack of the whip
its in the silence of calvary
its the peace in its not up to me
its the joy in depression
its the character in perseverance
its the righteousness in falling

it is in the fact
its not in credentials
its in what you lack
its not in what you have
its that I
that
I
AM
REDEEMED

the love of a nail pierced hand

2007-11-10T14:29:00.000-07:00

How much man is in a man that weeps...when
when is man a man that cries because his chains are broken?
is it a man that weaps when because his freedom is in slavery
is he a man that wept at His feet

are u even a man when you cant stand taller then the sin in hand
that the nails that pierced an innocent man
wept for you and i it takes a man

would u have died at quarter stance
that in the streets of bearing by chance
that some would come to repentance

what is the depth of humiliation
in pride u stand
what takes a man to be a man

u take the nails from his hands
you cry out to the Father, but by demand
take the place of the Greatness in the Son's circumstance
you're not close to what is described as a true man

you're sin sent Him to the cross
you're sin caused Him to be scorned and tossed
spit on covered beyond recognition with shot after shot
of a blood stained carcass that is deemed worthy of that appearance of a dog

im not a man
i havent taken the time to cry on my Saviors robe
the one that was stained because im to self indulged
in my own beginning im not a man
im to stuck in my own look
im not a man
im not close to the One in question
because im only a man

but He was more then what we call
because in the dear sound
its understanding that we began to understand
that because he is the Man
it is now in Him we scream i can
can i be considered worthy of the chains that bond me
that all i can see is love
so what does it take im not a man
because a man will show the love of the nail pierced hands

match-less works

2007-10-20T15:35:00.000-07:00

how much is love to much to bear
but how much is love in my despair
how much is cost but without it im purchased
because freedom is liberty but liberty is surfaced
because of the blood that redeemed a darkened soul a blackened lung
that everytime i weap at altars my hearts song is sung
that sentimentally speaking im as legit as counterfeit
but as i speak from a heart that is sentimentally hardened im as soft as escaping the pits
that in the love of a certain someone can i be called made complete
as i was sewn together before i knew me
He knew me
that before i raised my voice
The angels rejoiced
that before the world hears His salvation song
i have endured to end because im chosen of this generation

Hallelujah is our God with us?
how do i know of the past and present tense
that we are conversed into a love of Jehovah YHWH the ONE
because Hallelujah our God is with us

when all i need is to realize that the blessed redeemed it seems
is covered in the love of the blessed
that in the blessed is the blood of this Jesus
this Christ among us anointed being for all to come and rejoice with snging
that Hallelujah our God is with us

that i am covered in the love of the Father
because He decided i was worhty of His blood for the altar
that without the mysterious movement of His flowing which oozes
that finds its anointing its calling is back for all who chooses
that believing is receiving the gift of grace and in we'd be obedient through faith

thank you to the One who knew me before life
that before the heavens were created my name crossed His mind
that before time was time my generation was set in line
that on the cross my name was chimed
and for ME He decided to come so the mountains i climb
are not in vain
or sung songs mundane
but that the fulleness of Christ is the Father in the Name

Everlasting
Mercy
what have i done to deserve
the flowing water form calvary
but Hallelujah cause my GOD reigns in eternity
that as long i believe His promise is for Me
as long as we stay and abide in His will
that thoruhg our faith in obedience we are interpreted in grace for tears that faced
that backslider and reader and lost of all sort
may return and find pleasure in a new pace
a new walk thats laced
with peace joy and immense thought of revelationary place.

mm..duh

2007-10-16T23:32:00.000-07:00

so neurons begin to fire
and it becomes relevant that i need to post somethen so obvious its stupid

the duh factor
lemme explain

when someone walks down a street and theres a bus stop with wet paint and a sign that indicates as such, you dont lean on the bus stop...its just the duh factor

when the bathroom is occupied for 20 mins and a well-chunked individual walks out from between the doors...you give it about 20 mins...the duh factor

a revelation received upon from the flood gates...sometimes reminds me of the duh factor
something that can be illustrated re-itterated and obliterated beyond ...the beyond...to ur depth of understanding yet it makes absolutely no sense until you receive well..the duh factor

when somethin gis created...i dotn care when how or where...but for something to BE anything it must have been created at some point...no matter how far back you go down the line beyond time and literation we have the indication that something has to have made something in order for perfect order...there would be no perfect order and no indication of perfection could exist if not inspired and not by chance. now remember...im not saying chance is without invention for it breathes form INTENTION. for without the intention to invent there would be no chance. things would caese to have the chance of becoming. so when things happen by chance you can get other types of inventions from certain types of intention such as glue and white out. when things are thought out you have the most undeniable amazing feats of the industrial period or revelation. the light bulb and sliced bread to name a few. so whos to say that the most perfect of all perfection (the universe) could POSSIBLY be just that...possible...without divine intervention and the providence of a creator? exactly...you cant...because when somethen is created it NEEDS and BREATHES the imprint of a CREATOR...so simple its stupid...the duh factor

so next time u walk into a door, stub your toe and enter that porta potty remember....it is through the duh factor that anyone can have indication of the simplest things in life...that the duh factor sometimes breathes the most important aspects of faith.

where do i get it from?

2007-10-13T21:01:00.001-07:00

Without God...would ethic exist?
this is not possible...for without the law how would we know what is just?
without a power supremely defining who and what we are...what is right a modern colapse of the human psyche would exist. We would not be able to define who or what is right...i dont speak about th basis of murders stealing and the pivotal MAJOR sin...i speak more of the what is right in your own mind. I have spoken with friends, and even they dont realize why but feel wrong in moving in with a significant other. for some reason something pulls at their place and tells them that what they are doing is immoral and unethical.
perhaps its easy i suppose., because fom birth we are told unconsciously what is right and what is wrong. that a young child knows not to punch hit kick murder hurt their friends or fellow citizens. but only throught he age of violence and outside influence one deems certain aspects of life and sometimes inhibits them into their own patterns or lifestyles. you cannot signifcantly say that a human being from the time they are a toddler knows or feels within themselves that it is okay to kill their fellow friend over a putting cup. if this were the case most of us would never have made it past age 5. its interesting to note that these views are engrained almost as if in our dna so that we KNOW NOT to move against the higher power. the higher power that drives us towards what is right in the end, our inner faith, our measure of corruptibility.
invoking our consciences and suppressing what is known is how we find out rather what does NOT work for the upbringing of a society. again im reminded of an age old phrase, power corrupts but absolute power corrupts absolutely. hitler, napoleon, numerous others for example. they did well for the nation...but for what reason? a teleological form of ethics is not always deemed the right form. that is why we can find the perfect outline for soceity in absolutism...but only if the absolute is absolute in himself. that in himself it is no corruption for if he were to be corrupt than that would mean that all things would be against his own law that he has made. and you cannot make a law and corrupt it, for it is no longer a law but a moot argument. so who fits this description...i only know of one.
his name is Jesus, and he is which was and which is to come. the Blessed and ONLY Potenate.

thought

2007-10-12T10:51:00.000-07:00

its all in a word, once

dis is preddy sveeeet

2007-10-09T06:54:00.000-07:00

Ever notice how punctuation can make or break a sentence? I am reminded of my high school days of the ever so frequent little red pen of Mrs. Donovan as she would so gracefully scan through paper after paper with her mix of Beethoven like nimbleness while jiving to him all the same...duh duh duh duuuuuhhh.....

but...i am glad she did, for if it weren't for her and many teachers like her, i would have never noticed one of my most recent revelations...that the bible with all of its punctuation was aadddeed. the bible after translation was given its commas apostrophees and periods. As well as many, and's, the's, thee's, it's, how's and but's. No formatting existed in the Original texts. Even though some modern Ministers insist that their Bible is Inerrant perfectly, regarding every punctuation mark, that is not true. Until at least 900 AD, no punctuation marks were included in the Scriptural texts. There were no Verse or Chapter numbers until centuries after that. Actually, prior to about 900 AD, the texts were written in Scriptua continua, where there were no spaces between words or sentences, no capitalization and no punctuation. It must have been extremely hard to read. SO Which is why we can change; careful, not one jott or tittle, i know, however this is NOT unscriptural, certain aspects in order to interpret certain scripture like so:
...Peace to you, from God, our Father and "the" Lord Jesus Christ...
...Peace to you, from God our Father and Lord, Jesus Christ

gives a little extra twang to that One God thang.

iiiiiiiits go time

2007-10-03T09:14:00.000-07:00

the precious blood that flows from calvary
no one makes a difference because its dead to me
but on a cross that sat so partially
the Christ was magnified apart from total mochary

to flow a crimson stained garment was filled
lots cast and all had been fulfilled
as one thought from another a spoken chilled
that forgive them Father they know not this pill

but as it was my name was crossed
and stapled to a body tossed
raised above mighty kings of Roth
but now i know its on a cross

a placement of truth beyond my grasp
as the Christ was anointed beyond for coverings past
because now redemtpion is in hope that thats
that in his last second my name was last
to cross His mind seconds from God's wrath

to choose it lastly is a need of gold but in it we find a price untold
that in it i find men women and bold that in it we find warmth of the cold that in it we find the rescue of the sold
a body for 30
yet i cringe cause MY knees are dirty?
armani suits buy nothing but dreams
but Gods recompense buys nothing but screams
you're a failure it makes no sense to believe
in something as infalliable as evidence not seen

i wish i could tell you how stupid you are
for not believing in a power that has come this far
that generation and generation is not changed
that in it we find a redeemers grace

that he would humble himself
be put on a tree stapled with all man's iniquities
that in it we would find the chance for second chances that in it we would find an opprtunity of second glances
upon a heart that is forbidden
upon a heart that is hidden
upon a heart that has nothing but grit and...

i cant attack your mind unless im smarter
i cant get to you're heart when i dont know you're bartyr
but this is im sure of the bold in the martyr
that for some reason death is enough to suffice me to my Father

im a scientist a mathemetician and a scholar
im stronger then the president in my power
i have billions upon trillions just jingling for my dollar
i set the heights of the world
because it falls down to me
i set the world at my threshold because you see
i have more then the world wants to know
that when i speak its not that i talk but that truth it doesnt flow

we can lie better then we can run our countries
we can try to pretend better then we can try to come to His harmony
we can begin a movement filled with love and sublties
but i still cant see when the sun is shone brigthly

hell in a handbasket
want it wrapped to go?
AHH i hate this here comes the ghost

okay so you wanna challenge you wanna become the oblivious
you want to show upon me your face is so stupidious
i hate you but you hate me so i guess it works
dog eats dog and so its the worse
when all i have is me and in mei can find nothing in no one cause in me is the pease
in me is the key
iun me is the "GOD" of new age move-MENTALly

so give me 2 cents while i vent to recompense
because i dont want to be short changed when it comes to a world that would rather wear pants

i dont care about a savior that sits back
because he reminds me of a kid with a baseball bat
that sits at a game liek whack a mole
and bonks you on the head when you have a question from out of you're hole

so i guess ill ask doc phil perhaps prof
sue or someone to that effect
because thats where the truth is
the guy with the highest grade point ave

they must be smart! because they'v gone to school
ya but so did galileo band he thought the world was flat

thanks for comin out though
that discussionw as fun
the only thing that makes sense is morally wrong
which is why its in absolutism we gain
that in the bibles truth it remains
that the ULTIMATE superior
that has all answers of for sure
is the perfect will in which we can find the obsurd
that by the easiest way that we can find the answer
is to turn from a darkness and realize its in ONE little cancer

except this isnt the infectious kind
the kind that spreads quick
this isnt the kind that will cut u off or make us sick
this is the good kind
theres a rebuttle for you!
that this is the cancer that reveals the truth

ethically morals are unjust but are lies
that the only reasonw e have them is because we cant find
any way to come to a deal as humans
because obviously theres no order in a survival of the fittest looming

there must be the one on the top that no more can get past for ebverything there is something must ahve been from for if nothing is from then all is not here then if nothing is here that nothing existing so if nothing is existing then your lies cant be made because lies are from nothing but history is still made

sooo if history is made from nothing then thats it
thats how we exist because NOTHING made us its clear!

i guess doesnt make sense is apart of our lingo
its found in the dictionary next to bingo
jackpot! ive found the answer...but everything is contradicting so throw out the old one!
let me say somethen theres somethen of no change
that over the years its remained the same
its ethically perfect..its inquires the game
that we follow in the footsteps of the perfection that is His name

to exist

2007-10-01T10:04:00.000-07:00

hey, literally, you and i are nothing

for god is all things ..

so that is to say that our minds and thought eemotions dreams are all god given so to speak
not even so...more of.

because without god we are not given a hand or a thought without god we know not which is good or what is wrong. without god we know not that which is holy or unjust. righteous or unrighteous. true or a lie. light nor dark.
so it can be stemmed that we dont know
anything
that we, persay, dont exist
for all is as god would have it...we arent as we aught
as we are taught to be, as we are aught, we are not, so to be not, is to not be at all.

if i am not the end all be all...that makes me neither the beginning nor an end. so if i have no beginning nor an end...it is to say that i cant caese to be.. but the infinite is impossible when dwelling on that which is finite.
so to be infinite...is to be..only as the only thing that actually IS...the only thing that actually is...can only be that which is actually known...so to have known that which is already..and to be here..as something..needs something that is...and so

we are only because something that is always was
...

so to be .we msut be LIKE that something
made as the only thing that could be
hence that thing that aaallways was has the beginning known from the end...which was which is which is going to come

the only for sure thing
it takes deep thought into something i a m not
because if i am to be...i must be holy
as that which is holy
what is something that never existed..you need to be from something in orde rto be something...there must be a start to finsih anything
there must be a history to make a dominant
there must be an example to be based on anything
to be based on nothing is irrelativity which is irregularity which is to say is inexistant
so you see
u dont exist
unless there is something to exist from
but event hen it is to exist form the only thing that ever was

who fits...into that description...time is beginning and ending
thought is beginning and ending
persuing is beginning and ending
a hand is in something as made from soemthing to be anything from nothing to be something to be anything

...He is thee Elohim...

take the edge off

2007-09-24T16:17:00.000-07:00

been awhile, hey JC?

2007-09-18T22:00:00.000-07:00

mmmm JESUS

JESUS JESUS JESUS JESUS
how GREAT is our GOD
hmmm JESUS

how awesome is God fo all glory a God that is abountiful in grace and mercy
i cant perceive
how quickly ...HE..wants to feel in me and be with Me
that the love was consumed and embedded in a perfect Lamb on a hill top by Gethsemane

OH GOD is a gracious
upon all the faces
He looked for the sake of
so He could draw Jason
so He could show catholics, islamists and masons
how God is truly gracious
how much of a real love is
and that a grace is
that upon the blood toiled garments stained with skin fragments
that Jesus is Jesus enrobed for creation

so make a comparison to who is the truth
what is the Word and what is His booze?
gimme some new wine
i wanna get hammmered
i dont want those old skins
ill lose all the wine
gimme some new sacks
so i can keep on dirnking
past half past nine ..and ten...eleven
a.m.

escuse me ossifer
point me in direvtion
wheres the peoples which gather in steeples
can u drive me im slaughtered
which is a good thing im more sure
then being drunk behind the driverrs
oh wait thats cleansing in the waters
do u know what im saying ossifer sir?
im saying im laughing because the ghost is over hur'

how great is our God
so perfect in leading my head hurts and now im just leaning
on the arms of the Father in the grace of the wanter
that He would put himself in a body and succumb to the lawas of the lawyer
the book that we know is the lawyer of courts
that withotu it we would not know what sin is im sure
so He succumbed to the embedding the entrapment of death
and despite the odds of a pierced chest
rose up prevailed and took my name on his breath
and forgave me for soemthing i hadnt done yet

cool to think that you crossed His mind
when you werent even a dot in the twinkle of moms eyes

over n over ill die to my day
because my days are numbered but every delay
gives me a chance to tell someone of the Saviours grace
in molding is believing that the molded is clay

just a thought

2007-09-17T10:14:00.000-07:00

There are some things that you can only learn through reading
There are some things that you can only learn through experience
BUT
There are some things that you can only learn about yourself through GOD

because
without mistakes how would we learn anything?
is it revelation or a trip wire?

do we fall upon the lessons..or do we hold God accountable for the good and bad?

do we trip upon what we need...or is it God that provides
in what situation do you find yourself blaming the world for that which was created based on the things around you that subconsciously (if there is sucha thing) were created through your own mishaps

where does God begin to be God after trust or before?
is it not God who draws us to Him?

so...does He let us fall...i think the answer is a no brainer

i think the righteous man gets up seven times...

all things are good in moderation
so is that how we treat our blessings?

or is moderation only key when we look selfishly

hmm

pride comes before a great fall
i guess thats why risking it al for the sake of Christ can hurt so much

because i would boast only in the Cross of Christ
but i think the righteous man gets up seven times...

hmm

If there is no God - then why do people think there is?
is it the need for a higher presence? the desire of humanity to know something larger has things under control? or is it that we know we are to small to have control of the things that are higher?

if there was no God - it doesnt make sense that there is one...why would the chance even exist? you know? i think i know...because i hope there is ...i guess thats the evidence...we have a drive to know the things that never existed because we know we have no power over them...because when they exist we have to achknowledge the fact that its out of our hands...i hope it is...because i cant handle any of it...thats why i know there is a God

how do i know this is truth? simple...truth never changes...not for no one along ANY course of time...God is God the same yesterday, today, and forever, which is why no new books no new doctrines and no new faiths are needed...one God...indivisible in nature but manifested for the sanctification of mankind...Jesus the Father of Creation.period.

if a man is anointed...then i guess i am not listening to the man...i guess i listen to Jesus in the man...anointed to share the word of God...then the Word of God speak through the man behind the pulpit...so when i sit...i dont think the man speaks...because Jesus anointed Him to speak FOR HIM...so i guess...im listening to Jesus...behind the pulpit...maks you never wanna fall asleep again eh?

when do you need deliverance? after a cup of coffee? perhaps an espresso? i need deliverance from myself...because as luck would have it im not lucky in myself...i am the biggest enemy..i guess thats why this giant is so hard to take down...because its hard to destroy yourself and keep on living...i guess thats hy Jesus is alive in me.i dont haveta live.

hmm
just a thought

i gotta say

2007-09-13T19:56:00.000-07:00

im sorry
i read over my last post and i almost got offended..
so i can only imagine how it came across to some
but i wont delete it ...because...
listen
the point of that post was to support the men and women that are going through daily sacrifice to assure me of my peace and freedom to practice my faith in Jesus CHrist...i thank God for these men and women that make it liable for me to stand on the street procalaiming the name of Jesus freely with understanding and peace and joy...i thank God for these men and women that take on my liberties to see their lan protected and free against unrighteous anomally..and my stand in praising who I view and i HAVE THE GOD GIVEN RIGHT to praise...like daniel in the window...i will still pray
BUT
it was spoken like a true westerner
one that has been blinded by media and its 'ugly head'
get me?
got me?
its through that attitude that we refuse anything to understand or try to understand anyone around us that we so quickyl view everyone else as WRONG and mmediately go on the offense when they view us as WRONG...but its not about whos right or whos wrong
in todays society its a misunderstanding..thisis made by the comment on the youth blog: is a muslim saved?
to a muslim its not Jesus Christ because Jesus' name means something totally different..to us Jesus Christ is the name of God to a spanish speaking it may be Hezeus (not correct spelling)..its in how you interpret Jesus Christ..by no other name shall we be saved ... BUT how we interpret is being ruined by common beliefism that everyone is lost and everyone is wrong and i am right so haha in oyur face...Jesus Christ needs to be preache di agree..but we must find a way to relate GOD and JESUS...this is why some major doctirnes are BLINDING people into believiing Jesus as simply a prohpet..we are dividing the indivisible GOD AND FATHER, the LORD JESUS CHRIST...remember it s arevelation. you cant MAKE someone see a revelation because how did you get it...you definately werent taught by human standards. no matter how you say it..you still get 'GOD' the title give in Islam is Allah this is the title for God...they view God but in Arabic: Allah interpreted =God and it is the mentality that we go "ALlah well that doesnt say GOD they're lost" that gets us deeper and deeper into trouble as we refuse to achknowledge the fact that they live in as much hope as WE do..but it is through our actions that people may see our faith in Jesus Christ and the love of the Father through our works. this is what sets us apart i feel..that they will know oyu by your works...i dont attack Jihad..because the Islamists are fighting for the exact reasons we are..freedom ..i dont agree with pushing my religion (face it thats what it is) down anyones throats though..and this is a line that is starting to be crossed ..that is the point that i chose to take when i said osama obid and arib are taking the stand that they would rather die then not see Islam rise to power over all nations...the recent threat made by Osama was that if Bush did not accept Islam he would suffer..this is where my support for our troops came in..that the work they are doing fighting for our 'Holy War' is much supported..but as for shoving my view on God down your throat i have no right i have no right
but i do as a debater
and i am right in my opinion
because its my opinion and its how God has revealed Himself to me
go ahead...use this argument for yourself..obviosuly i know you feel the same if i jsut said it but hold on and read
ill listen if u listen
for years other religions have had God portrayed to them in ways that are infalliable...from people declaring they are straight up Jesus manifest in the flesh to multiple Gods//and i respect them for holding onto something so dearly..but..if in my view we can..oh revelation
if we can put ourselves in their shoes..how would you speak to me?
how would you speak to you?
would you attack me tell me shout at me im wrong
or would oyu show me the love the one and only Lord that through Godly inspired (i truly believe would take hold) wording that over time GOD would truly reveal HIMSELF

im taking a stand in my faith because i wont be moved...and i cant move anybody by fancy words because like ive already said, if u actually read my blogs, the next guy that comes along with stanford top dollar award winning vocabulary is just going to change your mind...so its up to me to TRY and live the MOST christian life i can witht he guidance under the Holy Ghost and pray in hope that God would open their eyes if it be His will that they should see...think about it ..this is the DEEPS of PERCEPTION

i can be as articualte as a harvard grad but still as dumb as a sales clerk and make you buy a blender for 300 bucks if i could get inside your mind enough
but GOD who is more infalliable who is more upright who is more unbelievable tried and true the one who KNOWS THE MINDS AND HEARTS OF MEN ..wouldnt it be so much better if HE lead the discussion? talked and tugged....?
Im reminded of the song
Jesus loves the little children, ALL the children of the world, red and yellow black and white they are precious in HIS sight
and IF JESUS TRULY LOVES THE WORLD...he will reveal HIMSELF
FOR EVERY KNEE WILL BOW AND EVERY TONGUE WILL CONFESS ..remember?

if i am going to see "your way"..then God will have to open my understanding He's the only one i wont shut out
but if God shows u to see "my way"...then i would expect the same gratitude

in other words...you build an altar to your god im going to build one to mine..then we'll call down some fire..whose ever god lights their altar..that is the one we praise...do you accept the task?

(2 Kings: Elijah and the prophets of Baal) even if your not christian read it..makes for an AWESOME story chapter 18 i believe

anyways
i hope this was a little elightenment into the worlds that Christ has opened me up too
God is not 'God' to all nations..jsut remember we all have freedom
God is a multitude of things...and this we know that He si the supreme Being the end all the be all the wonderful counceller, He is mighty and true, He will judge the unjust He will try the true, and most of all, He will reveal Himself through His love

im not right, He's right. correct?

a depth of perception

2007-09-12T06:37:00.000-07:00

i took a second yesterday to think about a war that needs to be fought
i took a stand in my own mind months ago to think about a war that men women and children are suffering through as a battle galactica of the worlds end is slowly kreeping itself closer and closer to our demise
so here it is
what conclusion

its the depth of perception
you can view this war as the just another fight into our ever rising passion for supreme power and dominance in the oil and gas indisstry and the ned to expand our resources..or you can take it for what it is and realize that the difference between this war and the rest of the 'major' wars (1812, civil, worlds, vietnam, korea...etc.) is that this is a Holy War. its been raging for decades in the middle east, but the bible says all major principalities will fight...the United States followed by the rest of its G8 allies are quickly being consumed by the spirit of the world but actually falling faaallliing into the deception that this war is for nothiing more then a little mula and who is right...it is not about fascist lfie cycles, it is not about political dictatorship it is not about expanding land masses gaining ultimate power its about holiness ..checkmate

its a religious war
a war that needs to be fought
i take a stand in supporting our troops as they fight this jihad (literally interpreted holy war) and its extremist political and spiritual documency anddiscrepency mainly against the Jewish people of Israel, (is a war in itself), that needs to be taken to hold on to our GOD GIVEN freedom
"we will not rest until we are MAKING THE WEST CONFROM TO OUR WAYS FOR NOT EVEN DEATH WILL SUFFICE US..." stand points its no wonder we continue on fighting for our right to praise the one and only mighty Almighty

im not beatin up on Islam and im not beating up other religious factions, because after all im viewed as religious and labelled as a hoper that im right...so i musti msut have tolerance in a world of the "pushing my way" philosophy... but this isnt about political freedoms or whos wrong whos right pride system its about the war for Injustice (yes i know what injustice means). "it was made apparent yesterday the LOVE of CHRISt for all HIS children its was made apparent the absolute volume of the amount of grace he has for each and every one in this world. i will hear of wars and rumor sof wars but the time is not yet come...

we KNOW one thing, and thats that we dont know anything. BUT worldly facts mainly considered histroy will tell you that through major wars israel, while persecuted, Israwl has never failed to bring home the bacon, the 6 day war standing out as one of the most amazing feats of any national underdog..Israel and its persecutions has yet to fail in standing up for themselves..the bible says that this is the promise that ISrael would never fall...but im not worried about God's chosen people, im not worried about the hope of my salvation im not worried bout my faith im not worried about transgression or being persecuted..im fearfull for the depth that our perceptions are bellowing deeper and deeper into a "accept it and you're good to go" speculation..cause thats ALL it is..in my opinion it is a sort of new age movement that is destroying our youth our souls our bodies our minds our lives our children our people..our society..our main idea our main thought our main stand our main lie is the willingness to live in fear and not die..this is the problem the willingness to not bear His name when the going gets tought..but we have men in a country that is a prayer short of victory that is a prayer short of dropping the bomb on extremist jihad
GOD NEEDS US GOOOOD NEEEEEDS US GOOOD NEEDS HIS SOOLDIERS!

this easy beliefism and i thank GOD every DAY for a man like Pastor Johnny King who stands in the mercy seat every second of every day for a congregation that the devil is trying to deceive into the same fall as so many mainstream christians are falling into today..the snare of easy beliefism is one that consumes the unrighteous at heart..but this only takes me to the parable of the tares among the wheat which indicates to me the only clear and presnt danger today is that they grow among us...hence...the widdling down of his harvest..hence the destruction of the flesh..hence that in the LAST DAYS 'I will poor out my spirit on ALL flesh..' spoken by the prophet Joel

the world, as perceived especially since 9/11 has taken on this 'believe it and you'll go to heaven' mentality and it frustrates me to see
you're right i CANT make you see my way caus ein the end MY WAY isnt what gets you into heaven its the grace of our God and Savior.
as to whether or not i can prove that you need to repent of your deceitful ways accept him as your personal lord and savior accept his name through the burial and resurrection into the likeness of his death by baptism for the remission of your sin and let him grace you with the infilling of his holy ghost is up to how he calls to your heart but as for us believers in Jesus Name..i have had enough
as our troops fight for MY religious freedom, i stand back and place no, not one shred of UMPH into my drive to keep my god given right to praise the lord freely in righteousness every day every hour so that people may KNOW HIM by my works by the love of the Father that is alive in me

if a fight is THEIR way...then THE LOVE OF THE SAVIOR IS MINE
if a war is fought..i will fight them in the spirit
if jihad is going to happen..i will fight for my God given revelation into truth
if it is going to be their way...i will fight for my brother and sister and their right to receive truth
if jihad is their way...then i will fight you with his love
i will not stand by as brothers and sisters succumb to ugliness that veers its demonished head around a power hungry corner...i agree
i dont get it
i dont get a wor dof it

lets put it this way we believe history as a society, we BELIEVE history all of us..so we believe to KNOW the past... Jesus was a real peson because of outside of the bible their is historical fact that a man by this name existed in histroy working miracles and many "infalliable signs among men" according to two jewish historians...now for a Jew to exclaim the Christ especially back in the 1st and 2nd centuries says something in itself, considering back then that Jesus Christ was viewed as 'just another good man or perhaps prophe at BEST' by most if not all Jewish people as they continued to exclaim their messiah hadnt come yet. so we "KNOW" jesus was alive
the question then is was he a liar a quack or truly God manifest in flesh?
Jesus Christ was exclaimed by the nations and by historians to be a "good man" ..my debate stems from well lets see... if He was a liar he wouldnt have been able to be both good and a liar deceiving the nations as so many would believe, proving the bible incoherenet..which, i think today, is what so many try to do..so easily we accept dated articles back to years and years of ancient tribes and ancient philosophies and ancient predictions..but we never accept historical FACT. SO:He would have never fulfilled the prophesies written 400 to 4000 years before His time nor would he have been viewed as a devout Historical standpoint for OUR MAJOR TIMELINE...that rules out that philosophy..if he was a quack..then he was one gooood quack...but the bible says that when He was around 12 years old..He was making jaws of priests drop in the synagogues who had studied the word for YEARS and YEARS before Jesus was made manifest...guess thats one smart quack..or ..we can take the bible for its entirety believe that its cause is just and that the love described laced within its letters are consumable to depict that all fear and tribulation will leave mankind and that Jesus Christ was truly yes a good man, but the best most pure, as GOD put on a robe of flesh and made Himself visible to mankind, putting HIMSELF in a seat of grace and succumbing to the laws of life, learning and teaching while being all knowing and understanding, showed His love upon a cross and shed His blood for perfect sacrifice so our atonement may be had in His name..“For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith - and this not from yourselves, it is the gift of God - not by works, so that no one can boast.” How does this contrast with other world religions which are based on “works” versus faith in Jesus and the resurrection? If we can’t build a relationship with God by doing good deeds or repeating rituals, what must we do? kind of brings me to a little passage in the bible..what do you say Peter? "Repent and be baptised, every one of you, in the name of Jesus Christ for the remission of sins and you will receive the gift of the holy ghost" and again “Salvation is found in no one else, for there is no other name under heaven given to men by which we must be saved.” NOW WHAT RELIGION PREACHES THAT!
to much today its have your own way and you will be saved...follow what oyu want and your good to go..follow follow follow follow follow follow
'im my own person..i dont need anyone' but thats why u drink
'im my own person i dont need anyone' i guess thats why u smoke dope
'im my own person i dont need anyone' i guess thats why u have sex
'im my own person i dont need anyone' i guess thats why ur more content pleasing the world around you
'im my own person i dont need anyone' i guess thats why the razor blade has never sliced so deep
ITS NOT A JOKE
and mroe and more the spirit of jihad is spreading to our home soil...in schools you're not allowed to SAY the name of jesus, in political factions dont even think of bringing up the name of God, in Hollywood and mainline television its cooler to make fun of the passion of christ then to proclaim his name..because NOBODY WANTS TO HEAR IT..thats whats gonna stop you? id hate to see if tribulation comes first...what then? you're just another statistic in a world that conforms to it
He is the way, the truth and the life the Great I AM the wonderful Councellor the Mighty God the Everlasting FAther Prince of Peace Adonai Elohim of all in all the all in all the blood the sacrifice the salvation the hope the promise the burial the resurrection the livelihood the walk the talk the shock the rock shepherd of the flock keys for the lock was scorned n mocked for sin of prep skater and jock

heals the sick, makes the blind see, the deaf hear, the lame run, the mute sing, the depressed smile, the lost find, the dead rise, the gay walk straight, the liars speak truth, the haters are loved, the idolatersare consumed, it rains fire, the ghost is seen, the manifest is made known, the hate is love the hate is love the hate is love the hate is LOVE

do i support our troops..yes
do i support the war..because its God's
do i fight on my soil...everywhere i can
for whos name? Jesus!
will i procalim it
JESUS
will you proicalim it
JESUS

for love of the Romans, JASON OWEN!

2007-09-10T17:01:00.001-07:00

to take the name of Jesus

to take it one must accept it fully and achnknowledging that He is that is all to the ever was that is ever going to be of all that ever can be consumed or created

Jesus Christ is not a name its salvation
Jesus Christ is not a man He is God manifest in flesh
Jesus Christ is the name of the perfect to all that is perfect that is the joy and peace and the assured promise to my salvation
so i believe anyways

but if you read about an evolutionist let him tell you what he needs to and walk his way feeling prouder then any human can until he walks into the next charles darwin to change his mind

listen the battle isnt with who is righ or what t read...the battle isnt against atheist greek or jew
its not against me and its not against you
if you would see my way
i could be the most articulate person you have ever met and have ever heard speak a word of truth and yet it would fall quicker on deaf ears when the next person with a more interesting view on things decides hes gonna take a shot at your soul
hence seeking out our own salvation

articulation is devestation
because i can make u buy a vacuum cleaner you never needed in the first place by just saying the right thing

an an islamist extremist can make you believe that 70 virgins are waiting for you in heaven witht he right bit of slap jiffy wording

harsh eh

how do we know?
the bible tells me so
i believe
listen either way the stem o religion is based on abrahamic faith (thanks Deej)
so abraham believed in a jsut and true God the God of Moses isaac and Jacob, the God that was made manifest in the flesh according tothe plan of His salvation according to what i truly view as divinely inspired words

is there reason...yah..but its been made provable t ME
see the difference
but be the difference
you cannot open eyes to anything...dont think that oyu can change a persons erception...remember: "it is not for US to know the times nor dates...but when all is fulfilled then you will see the Son of Man..."we are the ones that work FOR HIM we dont work on our own accords...so whatever God wants the purest of true hearts that seek out His wisdom He will reveal who HE truly is...but before we are willing to put down a pride that blidns us to consume us at every step in this dog eat dog two wrongs make more right then doing justice then no one will ever see the glory revealed.

one of the greatest scriptures i have ever read..NOT taking it out of the context of its chapter or the book in which it is written is Romans 14:5
5One man esteemeth one day above another: another esteemeth every day alike. Let every man be fully persuaded in his own mind.

LET EVERY MAN BE FULY PERSUADED IN HIS OWN MIND...does this not scream out to reveail a truth to be tld..now i see why it is so important to lvoe when love is needed and to shut up and not talk..now i see why it is God's lvoe that wins souls to His kingdom now i can see why its more important to shut up then to speak..because when we shut up we speak the loudest..or does faith without works is dead jsut fall on deaf ears.
alright ive go it in the bag
now your sheep and im the slaughter

cows make good steaks but people are better because with people they dont bite back
selah
so what is it that is perfected in us
that we havet he lvoe of Christ that it is made known to Him for justice that is made to known to Him for righteousness, that in love we are made perfect, with the love of Christ we may know who we are that without the truth that abides in us without the love of Christ i am nothing, and without the cross that i carry, for the shame for the saamme shaaame
oh the shame Lord
to do it for the cause of his Love to shwo how to shut it when all that can be said is to prove He is, because if God is really God i wont haveta say a word, but let Him be the Lord we know He is
ervyeone is so busy trying to prove me wrong that they refuse to achknowledge the fact that perhaps God is speaking louder through silence with clearer then day actions by simply letting them speak...what can this JEsus do? He can work miracles through peace...He can shut me up...
and thats a miracle

amen

hebrews 6

2007-09-08T01:55:00.000-07:00

im a loser
thanks

cause id rather lose what you;ve got then gain a world of injustice

do i live by the immorality of carniality
or do the just live by faith
by faith...my works are made perfect
i can love by attempting to be somethen im not
but only because through the Spirit i am anything that i am

i am created in an image that is impossible to live up to
but yet im in a hope of conforming to an image that i can never see
i hope

so thats it
i hope

this post isnt for feeble minded folk
its for the willingness to perceive intellect
of being sure of that which i have no idea about
embracing the fac that i dont know
and i have faith in it

i know that God is just
and through grace i hope to be saved
that through example i am lead to perceive that which is taught to me but that which was learned from a beginning that always was
an alpha
i learned off of Omega...
how can i love religion but yet love the sinner
im a sinner
and the muslim knows God
how much more lost is he then i am of myself
justify yourself by your standard or the drive to know God
i hope

u see?

hope

its all ive got..i know grace has set me free...i run because im happy i run becaus eim glad i run because i know that in my soul the indwelling that lies within
but what i dont know is salvation its a rpesent that im not assured
but i know i can lead by example and an understanding be opened from the obscure
the obsurd
the beyond the meaning of knowledge thats learned
the step into a reality of physics and beytond that the equation for my life is unwilling to examine is that which is unfathomed but yet to be handed

it hasnt received by it i mean me
by me i mean us
by us i mean reality
you cant receive a reality when your dead
because no longer is reality bound by finiteness but reality becomes the supernaturally the reality of fact
the balance

im racking my depths

i cant make you believe in somethen i have no proof of
i culd be as articulate as a dictionary but still have no choice of
i could tell you exactly waht u need to hear but you would still be deaf
He who has an ear let him hear

For a God that so loved the world..still draws from depths unmentioned that a God in Iran is closer than
is closer than
my hope
how doe she draw but to understand
to receive trhe truth as you have begotten
the blessing we choose to believe is simply forgotten
i cant make you accept it
but only God will recompense it
i can believe in His willingness to reinforce His word...i believe what i believe cause my testimony
but the man stuck with dynomite still has 30 seconds to live for a cause that will condemn Him to what we hope is not real

its so easy to believe in a lie
but when anointing comes and a victory is sooner then later
we find it impossible to relate to something that exists within the grasp of our time

which is running out
i hope

alll i know is what ive been shown
i cant know more i cant know less
thats the beauty
i try to live as a chrsitian and love as Jesus
God opens doors...God digs graves

in the end is the grace and the grave
i hope

i have a strong promise
a reconciliation
of surety un-named
but hope is all i have as does muslim greek and lame

where by hope

what it is that i can do

2007-09-07T10:39:00.000-07:00

u want to know what its like to shake under annointing

there is a word that is given that is nothing is of coincidence because it was already pre insired for that circumstance to hit oyur target between the eyes...
When God puts you in the cross hairs to speak a little about His word then the falling of grace falls from heaven..it hits you, and theres nothing you can do abotu it...bow it head it stand it stamp it
i talked about Moses..in front of 64 beading eyes ...an english presentation today in calss lead me to talk about one of the most inspirational prophets of God..i didnt do it justice but i shared some gospel
it was inspiring
not even nerve racking
but ...interesting
calming
solitude servitude

i must say
i enjoy talking about Jesus

2007-09-06T10:55:00.000-07:00

nope

no

uh-uh

ur nuts

loopy

nooowaaayy

finished

over

theres one god
thanks for coming out

Who's my daddy?

2007-08-31T10:12:00.000-07:00

"NOT ONE CHANGE OF SPECIES INTO ANOTHER IS ON RECORD. We cannot
prove that a single species has ever changed." - Charles Darwin

"While today's digital hardware is extremely impressive, it is clear that the human retina's real-time performance goes unchallenged. Actually, to simulate 10 milliseconds (one hundredth of a second) of the complete processing of even a single nerve cell from the retina would require the solution of about 500 simultaneous nonlinear differential equations 100 times and would take at least several minutes of processing time on a Cray supercomputer. Keeping in mind that there are 10 million or more such cells interacting with each other in complex ways, it would take a minimum of 100 years of Cray time to simulate what takes place in your eye many times every second."

If a supercomputer is obviously the product of intelligent design, how much more obviously is the eye a product of intelligent design?
Evolutionists occasionally admit that it is difficult for even them to believe such a thing. Ernst Mayr, for example, has conceded that:

"...it is a considerable strain on one's credulity to assume that finely balanced systems such as certain sense organs (the eye of vertebrates, or the bird's feather) could be improved by random mutations." (Systematics and the Origin of Species_, p. 296).

"To suppose that the eye with all its inimitable contrivances for adjusting the focus to different distances, for admitting different amounts of light, and for the correction of spherical and chromatic aberration, could have been formed by natural selection, seems, I freely confess, absurd in the highest degree.” -Charles Darwin

“Evolution became in a sense a scientific religion; almost all scientists have accepted it and many are prepared to bend their observations to fit in with it.”—*H. Lipson, “A Physicist Looks at Evolution,” Physics Bulletin 31 (1980), p. 138

“There are two ways to live: you can live as if nothing is a miracle; you can live as if everything is a miracle.” -Albert Einstein

“All the evolution we know of proceeds from the vague to the definite.” -Charles Sanders Peirce

"Evolution is the law of policies: Darwin said it, Socrates endorsed it, Cuvier proved it and established it for all time in his paper on ''The Survival of the Fittest.'' These are illustrious names, this is a mighty doctrine: nothing can ever remove it from its firm base, nothing dissolve it, but evolution.” -Mark Twain

"Question is: Can you tell me anything you know about evolution, any one thing, any one thing that is true? I tried that question on the geology staff at the Field Museum of Natural History and the only answer I got was silence. I tried it on the members of the Evolutionary Morphology Seminar in the University of Chicago, a very prestigious body of evolutionists, and all I got there was silence for a long time and eventually one person said, 'I do know one thing - it ought not to be taught in high school.'"
-Dr. Colin Patterson (Senior Paleontologist, British Museum of Natural History, leading cladistic taxonomist), Keynote address at the American Museum of Natural History, New York City, November 5, 1981.

"It is easy enough to make up stories of how one form gave rise to another, and to find reasons why the stages should be favoured by natural selection. But such stories are not part of science, for there is no way of putting them to the test."
-Dr. Colin Patterson

Quotes from the Creationist view in "Thermodynamic Debating," in Chapter 16 (Thermodynamics), in Dr. Wysong's The Creation-Evolution Controversy (East Lansing, MI: Inquiry Press, 1976):
"Where is the precedent? Where is one, just one, observed example of random chemicals possessing high entropy (randomness), spontaneously (in the absence of a motor or machine) ordering themselves into anything even remotely akin to the simplest form of life? There are no examples. Even making a system as open as possible (but not interjecting intelligence), no complexity even approaching the order of life occurs."

“…I am quite conscious that my speculations run beyond the bounds of true science….It is a mere rag of an hypothesis with as many flaw[s] & holes as sound parts.” Charles Darwin

"The number of intermediate varieties which have formerly existed on earth must be truly enormous. Why then is not every geological formation and every stratum full of such intermediate links? Geology assuredly does not reveal any such finely graduated organic chain; and this, perhaps, is the most obvious and gravest objection which can be urged against my theory." - Charles Darwin 1902 edition

"The vast majority of artist's conceptions are based more on imagination than on evidence..Artists must create something between an ape and a human being; the older the specimen is said to be, the more ape-like they make it." - "Anthro Art", Science Digest April 1981 pg 41

"Through faith we understand that the worlds were framed by the word of God, so that things which are seen were not made of things which do appear."
HEBREWS 11:3

2007-08-29T16:05:00.000-07:00

im not gonna pitter patter
lets jsut get at 'er

Jesus died...correct? good glad we see eye to eye..and if we dont ur a fool

God is perfect...correct? good..God created the word therefore "how would we know what sin is without the word" the bible is our map, this is how we know that we are living jsutly and true and within the standards that God has so clearly outlined within the righteousness of His church.
God cannot sin, God cannot look upon sin, cannot bless where sin is ruling...the bible says that God cannot caese to be, that means the Jesus Christ was fully human, but the bible says that Jesus Christ was God manifest in the flesh, that means Jesu Christ is also fully God.
stay with me
im rollin
Jesus Christ as a human, took upon all sin of the world, as blood and water took upon all that is in the world that is detestable according to the will of God, so that we (the world) yes the gentiles included, could receive the outpouring and could receive the perfect gift that is atonement for our sin in the likeness of Jesus death and burial.
But how on earth do we receive blessing. that is living a holy life
God's blessigns can only fall upon the just, the righteous
God can only bless those who are of His Spirit
God cannot look upon sin or the distingushing darkness that entraps us enthrawals our inner being...according to the flesh...se where im going yet?

so the fully human side of Christ..upon a cross upon a dark day upon a hiltop in the middle of Israel took all that we know to be sin of the world, the disgusting, the detestable
and died for it
took it
all of it
so that we can receive the blessing
we can see the example the God cannot look upon sin by the moment that Eli Eli lama sabacthani was muttered in the lips of Jesus' flesh we receive the example that all God cannot look upon the sin of the world and possibly stick around to see it in its abomination to His perfect will.
He must leave the sight of it
the "oncoming" of it...
the oncoming of all the sin of the world on the flesh...
follow?
as it comes..God turns His eyes, His blessing leaves the believer, His blessing His hand His salvation will leave will turn to see none...
as it did on the cross with His flesh...it left at the moment of recompense in the submission to the laws of death..God cannot die
His blessings can only come when sin is not dominant, when sin is not presnt, when our flesh is put aside for His will, then and then only, will we be in the likeness of His resurrection
dead to sin through the burial of our old self alive in Christ through the resurrection
baried in water, risen in newness
patented and sealed with a tongue of fire

so much more coming

like presidents choice...better then name brands

2007-08-27T17:07:00.000-07:00

whats on ur mind
gotta be quick this time
slip into tsomethen more..sublime
its the rhyme of shine that hit the line beyond the grinds of downtown hustle
the bustle the crews time muscle
the ones that shoulder check witht he face grunted in muzzles
like dogs to a kennel
the people shuffel in tunnels and hope that no one will look into their funnel
splish splash im takin a bath
feel the rain upon you
the white as snow upon you
the white as glue whatever HE says will stick to you
i hope it do
because as it come
and as it go
theirs nothin but the blood
to shine whiter than snow
whats whiter then freshness of a new glistening being
of a washed in the blood shining with fresh baptising
whats fresher then glory a wall of grace?
whats happier then joy..but tears on the face...

whats more beautifult ehn awe inspiring spectacular moves
when mountains melt quicker then wax made smooth
flat plains that revolt against and occur spring into action
as the mountains become larger then the previous factions
when all at war is one for all
and all that is anything can help whats too tall
or what was seemed to be before He got ahole of me
and told in the ear to whisper so clear the greatness unfgolding i can see in the clear beyond the depths of the sea i see more then the fear i see the depths of the darkness flee in great shear as a cloth did in that day when satan and phonies did cheer when a lamb so perfect a cross of blood was his smeer
but as the vail was torn i began to rejoice for now is the chance that is now becomes choice the clearness of boldness of greatness consuming because all that is anything cannot be my infinite dooming
dont u see its free
a gift so rejoice

dont down play the joy the tongues or the fire
i dont get it why cant u see it my head cant get around it...born of the water and the spirit and and and not thatalso u dont need it ..but and is somethen of it the father and son the Father and His Son and is of the of is of the grand the grand is the marquis the opitimee of need to be see

as the seas are filled with murk and deep blue
so is slavation freedom joy of the truth

so embark with a lil bit pick up a bible flip to Acts 2 see what lies ebenath as the REAL WORD IS UNVEILED TO YOU
you think a sinners prayer can share you in salvation
oh forgive me Lord
oh im god Lord speaketh (a lil KJV for you dear)

this post is not nothin more then somethen ive been lacking
rolling with ghost as it comes one attacking
full out get out put down ur snout
ur high mighty not likely more like stupid and alrighty
but hardly i think worthy of grace
an attitude of poor souls of the world
but when u come see the truth you'll know all was obsurd
that now is my chacne of repentance in time that i is the mine and now it was time as it was and now is as was is the present as it is still being as salvation is possible to be excrepent u can lose it you know, ur salvation u can, so be carfeul be fearful, run from "his" tricks but KNOW Satan *selah*

freshness is vital but the blood was all needed
how are we dead to our sin but born to revival?
what is the sign mean revival is our survival?
u cant be born again without his revival but u cant succed into heaven which is equal to survival
our end up being where we needed to be ending is here right now
one chance at the bible

how i got here

2007-08-16T16:59:00.001-07:00

God
so this led me to somethen
thats it
God

God
a three letter word
and the most important letts in the english alphabet

God
how do we know Him? Desire Him? Long for Him? Love Him? how do we KNOW our God
i think im gonna share my testimony
its no longer a thought but an action
and an action to words

"Mom, where do people go when they die?"
my intrigue had gotten the best of me and those baked beans laying on the dry rye in fornt of me just werent cuttin it for my 6-year-old intellect..
"well..." a long pause thatfilled an already awkward stance as to what possible manifestation of fantasy was already embedding itself within my already open transition into the believe to unbelievable...
"me, your father, and your sister are going to heaven...and you, your going to hell..."
if i could insist on any moment in my life to retrace the look of awe and snap shot of all kodak moments i woulda chose this opportunity of jaw-dropping thuds...i woulda chose those one..i could feel my eyes just burning with anger but showing utter disapointment...i knew what hell was i had been in sunday school for a couple of years now....
i putted with a sobbed soaked up forced out "we we we well...i dont waana got o hell..."
without a second of hesitation
"well then come it with me"
i was quick to hop skip and jump onto mommas lap...
"repeat after me.."
and we prayed that usless sinners prayer towards eternal sanctification of the unmeaningfull powerless drought that we call "salvation through confession"

dont get me wrong...some people mean it...and thats good...VERY good...cant have god without repentance...buuuuut...there was no fire

"amen"
"amen"
i winced...gleaned one eye outward...
stared across a hollow space a kitchen of nothing...a wood table...the same wood table i had eaten at day in day out for the past 6 years straight...spaghetti, chicken, and a chili thats to die for...but no change
"thats it? im saved?" i proclaimed so innocently
"thats it..." she smiled "ur saved"
"cool..." nwalked off none the wiser

for the next 6 years i was pumped with absolutely pumped with man made doctrine and how to believeism not doubtin because thats how my mommy and daddy said is good...was baptised at 9 in the name of the Father Son and Holy Ghost...
still every sunday finding myself repenting of the exact same evil tongue...the exact same bitterness...unforgiveness...exact same

see a pattern?
but i loved GOD
i LOVE GOD
i absolutely feellll in love with the Lord
i remember helping kids in the neighbourhood with bumps and scratches...cause my name means "healer" i figured thats what God wanted me to do..heal the broken hearted

id offer granola bars to road rash...juice boxes to a bloody nose

haha
i remember i would get in fights and my ending finished with exactly what it began with
"jesus loves you...even if you are stupid"

i would carry my bible into the playground...i would tell people to repent and pick up yo cwoss (spelling intended)...
but i had no fire...no change

i was 12 years old...i had just been accepted into the youth group at milbourne alliance church...as well as my junior high Kate Chegwin...the same year i won award ove award ...pleading the case of Christ...in humanity in my marks in every thing i could glorify Him with i was attempting....running marathons being active...God is good

then it happend
YC 99'
iwas glorifying worshipping like i had NEVER worshipped before
i was exalting and jumping and flailing
" I love you Jesus, i love you Jesuhdfjklsj akajslkdf...whoa slow down i think God wants me to pronounciate a little..." so id start over...id get in the spirit id get lost in the grace... "I love you Jesus i love you Jesushdkjfhjlshdkjfs hjskhf"
i didnt understand what was goin on...i was gettin baptised with the Holy Ghost...never realized turned around...and wlkaed my way

13 years old

life hits...God starts being God.
Israel Houghton said one of the most beautiful things in an interview with a magazine...He was questioned as to how he learned to deal with the loss of his father an how he never blamed God...o wisely
so revolutionary
so revelationary
his reply?
"sometimes God lets things happen not only because He is GOD, but because i think God needs people to relate to others who share that same pain..."
we are chosen..but others are lsot....how can you relate ithout knowing someones pain?

"HOW CAN YOU DO THIS GOD!!?!? HOW CAN YOU TAKE A MAN FORM ME THAT IS REVOLUTIONARY IN MY LIFE...MY HERO...TAKE ME GOD...WHAT HAVE WE DONE TO YOU!?!?!? WHAT HAVE WE DONE?! DONT TAKE MY FATHER...TAKE ME...I HATE YOU...I HATE YOU ..." seven years i filled my life with 'i hate You's' and 'You dont exists'

my father at 230 in the morning on a cold september day laid lifeless on the bathroom floor..eyes as glossy and determined on finding light as a blind mans eye glass.

lets paint a picture..
my father is a man of decency, humility, the biggest heart, the warmest humor, the biggest smile
my mom is a woman of determination, non-passiveness...care...desire..passion PASSION to the most part

but my father...he would be my hero..the bread winnder...he had lost his job three times previous to his bath collapse...we prayed it through my dad found new positions..no worries..he would see me high drunk and stupid...he would pick me up at late hours...he wouldnt care..he would love and desire...
same for the mom..but this was my turning point

but he always provided. he always tried..hes the man that would play hockey when everyone was gone on holidays or just cuz...would make u feel like a the relief pitcher in game 7 of the world series..."pitch it right here son...lets see the heat" and yelp for the sake of my ego when the ball snapped the leather.

hes the one who cheered...or was the 'shh dont tell mom' dad
the perfect dad

i was awakened by a sheering painful scream of agony and tears..a thud and a dont give up attitude...
"Jason, help me...we haveta get him to bed..he needs to go to bed...help me"
my mom was dragging my father while she was pinned against the sink with his lifeless body careened over her chest...
a few failed attempts and we couldnt muster the energy or the umpf to budge him enough to get him out the door...(God, wow...i look bad and the reason we couldnt move him was Jesus Christ was holdin him back..ill explain later)

"go get your sister"
the scurry had turned to hurry and panic as my mom searched the heavens for answers...i did the same
i remember screaming at the top of the stair well...LIESJE!
"LIESJE..WAKU UP...DADS>>>HES HURT!"
i cant eplain the sense of strain and desrie i had for answer...tears were streaming at this time...
the only postiive was my dad was awake at this moment...his eyes FILLED with lost thought...deception...

the devil was wheeling
my father couldnt recognize us...he thought my mom was his mom..
i asked him do you know me...dad...who am i
the look of puzzlement on his dead white face was a snap shot ill never forget...his eyes werent blue anymore but lsot with hazed grey and his face drooped as if to say he was pst his time...
"WHO AM I!!!!!!????????!!"
to no avail
"i..dont know you..."
this was the event...

my sister had already called 911 and the paramedics were pulling me back...
i returned to my bay window and blamed my Father in heaven for taking a 13 year olds father....

we waited ..i didnt go to school next morning

we filled with the waiting room with destruction and false hope...my mom was lost praying and searching her mind for numbers of people to call...
my sister and i were lost in shock

to this day..my father doesnt remember that day..he had a stroke that night
he had infected pace maker leads...the previous doctor had failed in doing the surgery right in '82 and my father had felt the effects of a body that was attacking a heart that shoulda never kept ticking...
my mom is so strong
so strong
God didnt let us down..never EVER has he EVER let us down
it wasnt hs fault...
at campmeeting last week...God spoke to me about that night
he told me i needed to thank Him for not taking Him that day
i thanked Him

you see..we were told...that if we had gotten my dad to bed that night...he woulda never woken up NEVER....me and my mom have lifted him farther just for the sake of seeing...and no problem we coulda moved him anywhere...that night he felt like a thousand pounds...God loves me
My Father laid in a hospital bed for 3 or 4 months
i stayed at a friends house when he went for special surgeries...for a year i didnt know my father..my mom stayed sooo strong...thank you mom thank you

for 7 years i tried to be the big man...i told God i no longer needed him...i could do it myself

listen to me...
i cant explain the feeling...but when you feel God's hand LEAAAVVEE your life...when his leadership is NO MORE...and you realize that you are left with a cold dark wet blanket of reality that shadows you and consumes your inner being....i cant eplain the hollowness that is changed in an INSTAANT.

satan began to work at 13

a little weed.
a few smokes.
a few bad words.

14 same story..just add drinking.and girls

year passed...15

a little weed. a pack of smokes. bad words. lost virginity. drinking. rock n roll.

year passed...16

a little weed. packs of smokes. mouth of ravaging fire. sex. cases of beer every weekend. a couple 2 x 6's every other weekend with more beer.

year passed...17

weed. ecstacy. packs and packs of smokes and cigars. drinking heavily. mouth of consuming fire. defilement. gangs. disrespect. sneaking out.

year passed..18

bags of weed. pills and cocaine. packs and packs of smokes and cigars. drinking drunk at work. mouth of consuming fire. defilment. gangs. murders. disprespect of folks.

year passed...19

bags..kilos of slinging drugs...pills, cocaine, meth, kedamiene (horse tranquilizer), acid, mushrooms, drinking drinking drinking. sex sex sex. random fights. smoking. mouth like a sailor. disrespect of anyone and everything.

and then i went to california

i had lost touch...
there was a sliver of hope...and God sent me an angel...if i have ever known one...this would be him

you seee...i told God i didnt believe in Him...but thats like you standing in front me and saying i dont believe in you...it jsut doesnt work..its comical..
those two weeks changed my life

i remember sitting on the top of a rock over looking the dunes of Indio, Califronia
by myself
proclaiming Jesus...if you want ANYTHING TO DO WITH ME..than show me

i had given in..i was sick of life
i prayed this prayer until i came to school here in calgary of 2006 in august...things had begun looking up...but college was not a good mix...
more partying more dancing
more sex
more more more of all the more in more of everything that i had ever seen consuming and dooming looming of satans hands while i couldnt escape with my land whats mine was his and he was taking over all chance
he saw what was coming...God's hand was now returning
i could hear his voice saying...i could hear his voice trying..
hear his voice at all turns...kill yourself...burn for lust with anything..burn burn burn
i was spiralling ..but i kept asking God show me
GOD SHOW ME
i cant do it i cant do it
GOD SHOW ME
im DONE WHERE ARE YOU
show MMEEE SHOOOW MEE..show me tossing turning lost and stomach churning satan pulling all stops he wouldnt give up satan lurking and smirking and saying just call it quits your a stupid kid youll never amount to this youll never amount to it...kill yourself heres a blade....

and yet a voice of far off recolection
the One...my deep connection
"if you wanna Know ME go in there..."
my wheel turned in my time of despair

i was parked in front of truth church
and thats where

God picked me up again and changed my heart from satans dark lair.

the rest is history
i hope you got somethen outta this...i couldnt get into my durgs or time of rebellion...its to painful...too horrifying...but ive seen it all
ive been in it all
stabbings. schemes. dreams. ive seen spirits. ive seen people possessed. ive seen satans hands. ive uttered threats. ive had threats uttered. ive ben so drunk i dont know who it is thats next to me the next morning. ive been so high i dont know my own name. ive watched people o.d. ive seen peoplewallow in their own pee. ive seen my parents hurt and pray. give me up to what HE has to say.

and i stand before oyu because of what they did.
the sacrifice they made...and a GOD of mercy and grace.

thats why my worship is loud in that place. thats why my desire and fire is to see his face. thats why i hate it when my humanity creeps in to try to disgrace. thats what i fall but get back up again.

LEARN SOMETHING
that i know GOD
that this IS HIS TRUTH
i have been told by his BOLD word that this is not lost or obsurd
that JESUS CHRIST IS
existant
remiscient
omniscient
and present
that He LOVES YOU enough that He died for your sin

MY SIN
parents a word...give up your kids...let Jesus handle it like He did with this skin
and teens and young people
dont you EVER come to me and tell me what a joke this is
dont you ever come to me and tell me you dont believe
or ur unlucky
dont u ever come talk to me and tell me any differently that your pastor MR Jonny has taught you
you have no idea what its like to be ruled by the world
to have a cloud on your head that feels darker then cold
you have no idea wahts its like to be ruled by sin
to think that you have a cap on satan
but your just one of his kin

YOUR BLESSED
by the grace
by the grace in HIS NAME
dont take it for granted or put it to shame
there IS A GOD who loves you
and His name is Jesus Christ
his grace is sufficient his penalty sufficed

i have been baptised in fire...repented in the blood..been washed by his sacrifice renewed with his cup
i pick up my cross
i fall daily and die
but dont anyone come up to me
and say Jesus never died

p.s. if you truly need to know somethen...if you have any desire to ask...about my testimony what ive seen..how much GARBAGE and trash the world tries to feed you, despite how gleeming it may look...please please ask...its hard..i know but i know things that people will never experience i have seen things that people will never know about..until God needs us..perhaps you..to know. i cant express how truly unebelievably blessed we are as a congregation to have the presence of God in our services. to have a man so humble yet so sturn in staying faithful and righteous before Christ. i cant exclaim loud enough so people will hear but enough so that it will run dry on your ears how blessed this church is. you dont get his rpeaching or this presence ANYWHERE else. this protection..the emotional spiritual presnece of God and fulfillment of my soul. I know i know...just another message yadda yadda ive hear dit before. but under the lights and the shiny screen is darkenss, is loneliness, is depression, is lust, is loss of life, its dangers are consuming...we dont tell you so you just go okay thanks for the warning, we say it cause we love you honestly i dont want anyone to be that lost...if you think it cant happen to you...take a step BACK caus ei guarantee its already started. check yourself before you WRECK yourself.If you have questions..ive seen and heard it all..its not an understatement i guarantee u cant shock me.

the finally in finale

2007-08-13T14:20:00.000-07:00

real quick im on the next level
upgrade number 3
jasobot is ready to function towards holy junction

amazing first time camp meeting...amazing
God mooooved, God spoke, God felt, God feeled out, God showed, God ohhh
put me through a dry spell couldnt touch his gamrent couldnt get close enought o latchonto his hands then all of a sudden last night with booker god took control and brought me to the next shooker.
it was undeniable unbelievable and in his presence so undeniable.what have i learned by walking in deserts? keep pushing, keep faithing, keep learning keep searching keep yearning to touching to learn in the whole thing...God is brilliant, exactly knoing what wil bring us clsoe .if it was all touch and feel in the spirit we would never grow clsoer, we would never learn of the molder we would never want to grow out of growing down in the colder...selah

so thats where im at..a faith lift, a huuuuuuuge faith lift
a huge wake up call to who God is
his way his plan how he shows hand in hand how he tells and how he whispers so easy to understand
i cant believe i was blind enought o see...but truly i was wide awake when HE showed ME that i can be all i can be by simply showing up and diggin in doctrinely

Jesus Jesus how i love you
haha
but the reason i came on this thing was this..not to mention my spriritual fizz but to give god some glory and show u the joke of societal misfits:
I grabbed this off a missionaries blog...trinity ditty duty head i dont know but he found somethen cool chekc it out:

We are still moving, but I couldn't resist bringing this to your attention:

FoxNews reports a new finding by paleontologist Meave Leakey doing research in Ethiopia. Evolutionary theory teaches that Homo habilis evolved into Homo erectus, which then became Homo sapiens (you). But Leakey just discovered in parts of Kenya that Homo habilis and Homo erectus lived side by side!

Fred Spoor, a professor of evolutionary anatomy at the University College of London says that overall what it paints for human evolution is a "chaotic kind of looking evolutionary tree rather than this heroic march that you see with the cartoons of an early ancestor evolving into some intermediate and eventually unto us."

Bill Kimbel, science director of the Institute of Human Origins at Arizona State University who praised the latest findings, says that the old evolutionary cartoon, while popular with the general public, keeps getting proven wrong and too simple.

"The more we know, the more complex the story gets," he said.

What is amazing is that they close the article by saying, "All the changes to human evolutionary thought should not be considered a weakness in the theory of evolution, Kimbel said. Rather, those are the predictable results of getting more evidence, asking smarter questions and forming better theories, he said."

Why in the face of massive evidence for Creation do they keep trying to deny the truth and hold to the lie of evolution? May God open their hearts and minds to receive the Truth.

haha praise the lord
the whole story:http://www.foxnews.com/story/0,2933,292572,00.html

my confession

2007-08-06T00:49:00.000-07:00

i hate
strong words for a little expression

i hate flesh
i hate my flesh and i hate sin
i hate the devil and i am consumed by being careful as to whats comes out
and what goes in
im becoming obliterated frustrated
im angry and lost in the fire
this is no joke this time
this is a battle for the pulpit the battle for the altar this one is greater
the battle of jebraltar
the spirit wont halter
but all i have is nothing

i have nothing
i have nothing
i have a name to call upon
and yet al of nothing is embedded in that something

where are you
im broken im breaking
the things that arent lifted
i cant escape a life that had me so twistei cant escape form a life that wanted to have me pasted
that wanted me wasted
that wanted me chastened

i hate this flesh
i want to shed it
get it off me so bolted its embedded
im loving
then im kicke
dim loving then im beaten
im loving
and them im lost
im loving then im blessed
im loving then im flustered
im loveing then im done
im loving then i realize
im never tempted with anything i cannot overcome

where do i go from here
this writing is like my prayer
this typing as wucikly as a thought is blossoming
as quickly its becoming
somethening
that someone
can take to literally
and change it around to mask it constantly
to makeit mean something indifferently
to chagne it to make it to think of me switched in plea

what do i do to shake this spirit
this is a dark hallway and everyones invited
to watch me fall
get up and falla gain
to see me reach for a ligth switch
and end up on my face to repent
to end up on my knees with road rash and pleas
as the devil rides my coat tails and rips me like a sleeve

u wanna know where it started when i began to fight his ugly face
his stupid shmuck
his consuming pluck
his unredeeming luck
is when i said i love you Jesus
thats when i began to runamuck
cause now devils workin overtime to make me run from Big Buck

now im gettin angry at every little
thing
every little
game
ervy little
agony and pain
and im lost in the idea that people are being joyous in my shame
no matter what
i look up
and see a face that glories to lift me up

its funny you see
how satan tries to work
how he gets to you and ends up running a show within a show
sneaky bugger
little useless robbing mugger

he uses people that are willing
yet dont even realize they're live on his line
not knowing at all that they're being used on a dime
not with any knowledge at all but oblivious to time
and being displayed as a puppet for the sake of his rhyme

now im sorry all of you
who dont see as i do
but i got somethen now from the bible thats true

the bible says that usless words..or usless slander
is not mean tto be used for purpous or me-ander
do you get it?
even tho ....and im sorry ....Gods tried to teach me before
to watch my mouth its a small kindlin for
a forest fire
a killing desire
a wasteland a desolate lace that destroys working God hands

im sorry to those who ive poked fun at and not realized
that i was being used as a tool for your spirits demise
i must stop this
i take full credit its a hard lesson to be taught
as people have done it so now i must stop
i get it now
and from now
my tongue no longer works
as the devils destructing plow

but its a lesson to be learned by all
that though its in fun we razz and taese
love is love...thats what Jesus died for...you and me
not so we can be los tin usless chatter and hopeless grease

i will not bring people down
i will show them God's lifting
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when you just dont know

2007-07-31T18:56:00.000-07:00

'...come to me, all who are thirsty...'

cause in a desert there is no water

you simply haveta 'trust' theres a blessing beyond the 'sands of the shore'

cause all 'faith' is, is simply 'the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.'
im goin to pray....its all i got left

the real in the real-m

2007-07-27T15:03:00.000-07:00

so here a shock
God is real
He is so untouchable ive felt his feel

Hes so undescribable hes described the deal
He's so loving He's powerful
so caring hes undeniable
so real so vivid so truly inhibited

God is here with so much to say
with a ghost to pur out on man woman and child as babies im assuming wil be talking with biles and miles and miles running for sue martha and kyles
oh ive just hooked someone
come on stay here
let me reel u in lend ear
the suffering the christ
the beuatiful blood
that trickles in peace for sin to be had
now the holy ghost is nothing thats bad
its not somethen that is looked at or reveared by many but brother the promise is to u and to many as it comes over me and takes control of my hands im not fdastg enough to keep typing as God hands are in lands and the development enbelishment its un real its realistic is so real i cant touch it its real i cant taste it but without a little mroe lemon i cant control why im sadistic....whoa didnt expect that word so soon
buyt the heart is what wallows in doom
what is so decietfully evil
what amkes u belive that your flesh is worth the beatle
but ur flesh isnt worht the spit on my shoe
my life isnt worht the gum or morning dew
get this
a God that loves that beckons and draws through a desire
a fire
to hire those who long to fulfill their hearts cry for Sire

i must confess that the Christ is alive
in reverance i dare you stand for a second as he takes control over all of incumbement all of the soul fulfillment give him a month a week a day
i dare you suckah i dare you to pray
ask god
im willing im willing to say
that lead me truth and i promise you murderer idolater or gay
the Lord will show you where to find your hay

the bread of life
the food that ull never hunger
the drink of never thirsty
so quenchable i wanna get fatter
i wanna live alone on his cookie batter
a hol ghost platter as the demons run relinquished so quickly to scatter ive got more water than an overactive bladder
ahh im mad hatter
holy tattered
haha
on the ground laughing i dare you once just once
see how real the god of wheel
take a gamble for your life
but eternity not for broke
dont risk that chance of hell
its not ozzy o or a paradise of 'this is swell''
it z a place of hatred darkness ur worst dreams come true like its a joke haha ima go to hell lets all get on the bikes and ride cause today im willing for my soul to die
but before you do
lets just put it this way
come judgment day
come the chance you stand before god to give account
dont tell him Lord when did i know? how could i possibly amount
to something u never revealed to my soul to count?
cause now is ur chance chump bucko
im sorry but ur time is up and ur running out of lucko
repent and be baptised for with stammering lips you'll dance and chucko

I Cant Explain It

2007-07-19T16:02:00.001-07:00

who am I
so heres the story i was minding my own business soakin up rays and sipping on kool-aid when a Jesus filled thought coiled itself around my humanity
when the old world snapped back into my reality and began a cut to the heart mortality.
i remember sitting in my basement of a chilly 16 above the c mark relaxed on a warm summers night watching Jackie Chan's 'Who Am I'

TV IS WRONG
but this story is cool

today the epiphonee was just this...who am i
who am i
in reality
that i that me that lil ol selfish mess of a matter of atoms am biggened end gathered into the palms of an Almighty God
who am i that i have any place in a kingdom filled with the glory fog

what is this
have you ever had the thought what if i felt like that guy? or what if i felt like her what would i be...would the calling upon my life be the same...
it began a snowball effect into my recompence and into the past tense

i just sat there what if i didnt feel like i feel

if i didnt actually have a grasp on me and was not in existence ..yet

like i was never 21 years ago...
what if i felt like that person then who would feel like me?
who would cling to things or view my attitude in the mirror?
when would i be made?
and when and HOW do I be ME?
full of a soul..a mind...a knowledge..a pulse ...get lost in the thought

you dont even realize you're alive until you're born
and even then, you dont even realize why you're born until you're born again
SELAAAH

u get what im saying?

what is this that You are mindful of me..my eyes and my deepest inner being that was created from my mothers womb..God You knit me together..and created me to comprehend the matter which is before me..uniquely designed revelation upon my head lies a different interpretation of each and every breathtaking exasperation
see how awesome our God is
how awesome is our GOD!

what an awesome God! that can make us grasp reality that can make us..all that is
life that is and soon to be is what it is
the ability to say I HAVE
done this and that
the opportunity that is never ending..the wide open fields
just the facts folks
that i can feel washed
clean brand new
and that a God so Mighty can in the blink of a wink begin a new form of grasping fully harmonic schematics.
its amazing
breathtaking
mesmorizing
unfathamouble
...in utter awe i stand before the Lord...You My God are the Almighty and my knees buckle in reverence and bow to Your majesty for in water i was barried to be like You dead to my sin in the blood and...Father....my Father..You, the creator of all that was and is and is to come...my Father, Jesus Christ, its beautiful
its beautiful
He's beautiful
beautiful
His subtle watch
but His hands that mold...His Logos...by word never undone what is done

My Drug

2007-07-14T11:39:00.000-07:00

Hi
I dont have fancy jewelery or wear short shirts
i dont dance around bar tables and still call myself after Jesus works
i dont show off my new ride my bling or mula
i show off my wounds my fruits my scars and the one who rule-a
i dont know buddha muhammed or metreyu
although im sure they were very nice people

i dont sit on a pew so the seat stays warm
i dont procalim my prayer so others can hear me
i dont exclaim Jesus name so sinners will feel uncomfortable
(although the should because Jesus loves them too)

i dont know why people choose three God's over One
and why people refuse the power of the Christ if for sister brother and son
i dont know why people dont come to church to feel the power of God
or why they want to sit quietly in temples and synagogues
God is meant to be praised
with a joyful noise and a praise scream
and i dont know why people choose to not read

im not a sunday morning christian who is just after my fix
who pretends to know Jesus but is just after chicks
im one who seeks righteousness faithfulness and holiness
and i dont know why others would choose something less

i dont want the world as well as christianity
i prefer to not be labelled unless its for a greater good
i choose to pick up my cross and follow daily for my Christ
i choose persecution over acceptance
and not fitting in but rather repentance

i choose a broken heart a peaceful mind a joyous jump
not a broken beer bottle a peace full of bullets and a joyless stump

im not after self seeking for my own pride
im not one who puts his head in the sand so youll feel righteous in your demise
i choose heaven not hell
holy ghost power over worldly widom
the knowledge of God over the knowledge of 'how things work'
cause buddy i got that
ive entered HIS work

i choose tongues to know ive got it
not a question of hmm this is it?
i listen to the sound of the wind where it cometh and where it goeth
the new birth BABY!
not the listless pew dweller that passes it
where you dont know if its him or the stench of his walks

i choose to dance for my God
i choose to scream in utter joy
i choose to let Jesus know im here for His name to enjoy!
i choose to be a pew jumper
a bible thumper
im here to praise, sleep and get plumper
im here to defend my Christ
his turth and His word
Hear O Israel, The Lord your God is One Lord

My name is Jason and im a Aposotolic Pentecostal!!!

2007-07-10T17:11:00.001-07:00

The revolution against man-made institution

In lack of inspiration?
........... search throughout creation
........... Begin the movement

who even reads in there?

2007-07-09T15:59:00.000-07:00

For 4,000 years the place where a person goes to do his or her "business" has never had a straightforward name. The "bath" or "bathroom" after all, is not just for taking a bath, and the necessary room is a little oblique. The Israeliswent to the "house of honor" the Egyptians to the "house of morning" (perhaps mourning depending on your interpretation) the Romans to the "necessarium" and the Tudors to the "privy" or "house of privacy (again depending on your interpretation of privacy, sometimes a bush has never looked so entertaining.) --some to the "Jakes" or Jack's place, cause everyone had to go, also currently referred to as the John. Even sailors, with a direct reputation of language, go to the "head."
Another favorite is the "loo." Whenever a frenchman tossed a "load" from his window, he first hollered, "Guardez l'eau" - "watch out for the water..." like it was the only thing that was actually tossed out, obviously coffee was either a scarcity or meant for the rich. It was shortened to l'easu and soon became loo. Or, as another sotry goes, it derived form an abbreviation of a common name for the necessary room, la chambre sent, "the smelly room." Apparently to avoid being so crude, the people changed the s to a c -la chambre cent - and the common name became "toom 100." Soon the numeral 100 became loo, and it stuck.

turn down the suck

2007-07-07T01:40:00.000-07:00

u wanna know me
u wanna think to be on the brink to partake of the inside drink of this link to the Christian in sync?

then lets start in prayer
that ears would be open
willing to hear
lets start with the attitude thats meant to be clear thats meant to be of cheer
im sick of feeling the valley so near

steadiness readiness sick of standing in fasted i need mroe but im willing to be sure im unwilling to be more im unwilling to break the window of clear...theres no window there but im still to scared to jump theres no window there but my pick cant break hrough
my shoulders are battered
my feet cant kick
my fists are clenched n im ready to stick
is it my attitude
my gratitude
my way that i carry
is it anything to do with the way i cant fairly
i cant change but ive changed
ive become all ive feared
but God is in kingodm and Satans at rear

AHH holy ghost pour out
im sick of dormancy
im sick of bein a pansy
i wanna get on roof tops and yell your an idiot
repent and be baptised believe in what He did
no one will here
people are dead
rolling graved new converts severed heads

how many times will i be lit on fire before my skin is poached from desire
and overlooked becomes flesh as God passes right on by
God forgive me of quenching your words
i dont know how to to work
i dont know whats of you
i dont know what to decifer
i dont know what teritory to tread and where will it bring my head
i dont know where i can remain in order so enough will be said
i dont know where i must go in order to see all the glory in order to share of Yopur works God im sick of being lost in the fog im sick of bein trapped behind this faithless smog the fact is Lord is that im sick most of all of being a world of beat dog
TRUTH is TRUTH
get it now got it
TRUTH IS TRUTH and a lie is a lie
i am not worthy
i am despised
i am a lowly servant
i am nothing
full of pride
i am ugly am hated and beaten inside
i am disgusting not forgiven and lonely to die

so why did God in the first place say here
here you go soldier have nothing to fear
here is my Spirit to live with you
to make your head clear
so where are You, Lord
whom i persecute on route
to becoming a soldier perhaps a great troop
reveal a plan i long for your hand
like it was said
the right is what stands
revelation! ain tit beautiful
that every second ive wasted can be used for something useful
heres the kingdom of God it aint no joke
behold your Father and Lord Jesus Christ, go ahead take a toke
try this smoke
i guarantee its the best happy you ever will receive

at least its better than grilled cheese

2007-07-02T05:41:00.000-07:00

not for the sake of blogging but for the sake of my blog leading to my unclogging

how can i intercede
God has become so real to me
the one the true revelation of Elohim
the surrounding power and untouchable beauty

the shakes the quivers the holy shivers
the ninety chatters per second the drunk on your back syndrom
like a fat kid and a smarty
ive found my pride and joy
His name is the Christ
His name seems too beautiful too beautiful to enjoy

i cant Lord Jesus
explain myself to bring my front to You
to deal with iniquity
i feel inept in truth
God but remind me You've created my inmost being
So intracate so elaborate so carefully sewn
You molded me together and called me Your own

Now sometimes i feel like ive done it
i havent surmounted to Your ideal
lets count it
1) You calle di returned this had to be Your way
2) I saw truth you delivered my soul that day
3) I began my worship without a care in the world
4) I couldn't be happier ..i guess You answered that door

so here it is
it lies the plan of salvation
repent dufus the day is at hand
Jesus is calling behold lies true plan
the potters kiln remold shape clay
God your like a small child willing to play
but Your my eternal Anointed of salvation price paid
His plan for My life is take it each by one day

through conversation my soul lies in incarceration
its been confirmed...
the question? cant have confirmed without con
but truth puts the FIRM back into the word...selah

planted quick its dimented
I tell You im not running
my feet are cemented

praise to ...prophecy?

2007-06-25T12:43:00.000-07:00

Chapter 1:
(I assure you if you can read this and stay awake it is well worth your time)

Let me tell you what happend this morning
i was worshipping i was worshipping
and i had been wondering why God, have you not begun to pooor your Spirit
have faith He said
The Lord sat me down in a lazy boy with an easy boy mentality
He flipped straight to Haggai

"be more quiet now...and wait for a voice to say..."

BOOM
To: Haggai the prophet, who delivered it to Zerubbabel (son of Shealtiel), governor of Judah; and to Joshua (son of Josedech), the High Priest --
for it was addressed to them

[But i felt God was talking right to me]

"Why is everyone saying it is not the right time for rebuilding my temple?" asks the Lord
His reply to them is this: "Is it then the right time for you to live in luxurious homes, when the Temple lies in ruins? Look at the result: You plant much but harvest little. You have scarcely enough to eat or drink and not enough clothes to keep you warm. Your income disappears, as though you were putting it into pockets filled with holes!
Think it over," says the Lord Almighty, "Consider how you have acted and what has happened as a result! Then go up into the mountains, bring down timber, and rebuild my Temple, and I will be pleased with it and appear there in MY glory," says the LORD.

"You hope for much but get so little. and when you brin git home, I will blow it away- it doesn't last at all. Why? Because My Temple lies in ruins, and you don't care. Your only concern is your own fine homes. That is why I am holding back the RAINS from HEAVEN and giving you such scant crops. In fact, I have called for a drought upon the land, yes, and in the highlands too...and ruin everything you have worked so hard to get."
:O
SSAYY WHAAT

keep reading
Then Zerubabbel, the governor of Judah, and Joshu, the High Priest, and the few people remaining in the land obeyed Haggai's message from the Lord their God; they began to worship Him in earnest. (remind you of any group in particular?) hmm

THEN the LORD told them "I AM with you; I WILL bless you."

CH 2
The Lord Speaks
"Ask this question of the governor and High Priest and everyone left in the land. Who among you can remember the Temple as it was before? How glorious it was! (izuza street typology came to mind...) In comparison, it is NOTHING now is it? But take COURAGE, O Zerubbabel and Joshua and all the people, for I am WITH you," says the Lord Almighty. "For I promised when you left Egypt that my Spirit would remain among you; so don't be afraid." For the Lord Almighty says "In just a little while I will begin to shake the heavens and earth-and the oceans, too, and the dry land. I will SHAKE ALL NATIONS, and the Desire of ALL NATIONS shall come to this Temple, and I will fill this place with MY glory," OOOO IM GETTIN EXCITED "says the Lord Almighty "The future splendor of this Temple will [now get this, you have to remember i literally say bold print when i was reading this...just jumpin out at me] The future SPLENDOR of THIS Temple WILL be GREAAAATER than the splendor of the first one! For I have plenty of silver and gold to do it! And Here I WILL GIvE PEACE!" says the Lord.

uh oh spaghetti-oh and whatever goes iwth it

so i kept reading ...God asked another question and it got me thinking...i remember back to when Mark King spoke to us about our own desires (remember its not about a bigger church, but souls) and it began to ring in my ears...
this is all in context too

"Ask the priests this question abou the law: If one of you is carrying a holy sacrifice in his robes and happens to brush against some bread or wine or meat, will it too become holy?"
No...the priests replies
Holiness does not pass to other things that way
THen Haggai asked, "But if someone touches a dead person, and so becomes ceremonially impure, and then brushed against something, does it become contaminated?
priests answered yes!
Haggai then made his meaning clear. "You people," (he said, speaking for the Lord) "were contaminating your sacrifices by living with selfish attitudes and evil hearts-and not only your sacrifices, but everything else that you did as a"service" to me. And so everything you did went wrong. [i though hmmf...this sucks...but hen i remember the spirit of repentence we had this weekend...and kept reading] But ALL is different now because you have BEGUN ot build the Temple. Before when you expected a twenty-bushel crop, there were only ten. When you came to draw fifty gallons from the olive press, there were only twenty. I rewarded all you labor with rust and mildew and hail. Yet, even so, you refused to return to me, " says the Lord

"But now note this: From today, this [now this is eery...VERY eery...but exasperatingly coool...now get this yesterday was indeed this same date...the same as written in this context...the last day of truth chruch harvest weekend and the intitial Spirit of God movement we had been waiting for...and the BIBLE reads] From today, this 24th DAY OF THE MONTH, [whoooooooa] as the foundation of the Lord's Temple is FINISHED, and from THIS day ONWARD, I WILL BLESS YOU. Notice, I am giving you this PROMISE now before you have even begun to rebuild the Temple structure, and before you have harvested your grain, and before the grapes, the figs, the pomegranates, and olives have produced their next crops...

[yo yo yo yoy yoyoyoyoyoyoyooyoyoyoyoyoYHOOOOO!!!!]

verse 21
"Tell Zerubbabel, the governor of Judah, I am about to SHAKE the heavens and the earth, to overthrow thrones, Destroy the the strength of the kingdoms of the nations. I will overthrow thir armed might, and brohers and companions will kill each other. But when that happens, I WILL TAKE you...for I have specially chosen you..." SAYS THE LORD ALMIGHTY

The example given in this message makes it clear that holiness will not rub off on others, but contamination will. Now that the people were beginning to obey God, he promised to bless them. But they neede to understand that activities in the Temple would not clean up their sin; only repentance and obedience could do that....remind you of any night in particular? If I insist on harboring wrong or "toxic" attitudes and sins, or on maintaining close relationships with sinful people, I will be contaminated. Holy living came only when I was empowered by God's Holy Spirit. Have you received the ghost since YOU believed?

God closed His message with His tremendous affirmation "I have chosen you." SUch a statment is for us as well (Ephesians 1:4) where each of us is chosen by God. This truth should make us see our value in God's eyes and motivate us to work for Him. When I feel down, I am gonna remind myself, "God has chosen ME!"